Delusions and Lies

This is an uber long post. But I hope you can read through it anyway.

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Forget it.

I shan't try to take on the world by shaking the whole of you.

Let me just show you how unsteady your base is.

The jealousy you had the time I was talking to Chang every night, the envy. And you kept it to yourself, cos you thought I was the impossible dream.

The time you found the 'perfect' Christmas card, and were so happy, you told me, like a small boy, that perhaps it was fate, perhaps it was luck.

When you teared while writing the second paragraph.

The time you slid back home to me.

The joy as you were heading home that day.

The gratefulness when I still talked to you, still loved you, even when you told me about that.

The feelings weren't even real to begin with?

Stop lying and deluding yourself Daryl...The feelings were real. They were real throughout.

Please...wake up...

This is probably the weakest argument I have ever made. But the strong ones made no difference anyway. Will this simple one make a difference?

All I can do, is to pray that God will open your eyes and let you see.

For even though I love you.

I am still human...and I have reached my limit...

All I can do now...is cry...