I had a dream

It was a beautiful dream. For a short hour of my life, everything was alright. Everything became alright.

And then I woke up.

And the first thing I did wasn't to cry. It was to laugh. Laugh at how unbelievable the whole thing was, how some things would have never ended up that way.

Was it a sign from God or just something I wished for so badly I dreamed of it?

Then how do you explain why I didn't have it the days before?

I don't know. I might never know.

All I know is that I love you.

And then, on the car...An incident took place that got me thinking.

My mum was giving instructions to my sister softly, my sister accused her of shouting cos she said she had jumped. My mother started crying, and then it turned into a shouting match.

So...perhaps my unreasonable mummy...has just been a facade...to protect herself...like so many facades in the world.

Whatever the world throws at me, I will take.

So easy to say, so hard to do.

And in front of all my readers today, I have decided to make a vow. I vow to leave my hair, until the day everything is ok. When I say that, I mean the day I can smile truly again. So, I'd either have let go, or had my greatest wish fulfilled.

I will not cut my hair until that day.

This is the mark of how determined I am, how much you mean to me.

I just want to see you happy.

I love you.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-