And I realised how much I meant it.

I was talking to YX.

A flood of words came out.

Words that I had been playing around with, but wasn't sure I really meant.

Until I said them.

Then I saw how much I meant them.

For even if I had known I would be hurt this way.

I wouldn't have chosen not falling in love with Daryl, had I been given the choice.

Because, those 5 months were the happiest of my life.

And I'd sooner die than give up the chance for something like that.

Even if it comes with the hurt.

I guess this is what they mean when they say "It's better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all."

Words cannot fully convey the meaning behind that phrase.

You cannot fully comprehend until you've felt something like this before.

It is an enigma.

Mysterious, until you touch it.

And then you marvel at how simple it all is.

Unlike the complex explanations people like to come up with.

I love you.