Hai...so sleepy now...couldn't sleep all of last night. And the strangest thing was, I wasn't worried, upset, or excited about ANYTHING! This is the nth time its happened. Sian.
Still suffering from it now, I think. Still can't fall asleep.
My history paper is gonna suffer for this! I barely made it past physics!
3 papers in one day. It can't get more tortourous than that. Can it?
GOSH! Why the heck must history start at 2.30?
Groan. Me head hurts.
Haha oh wells. I CAN DO IT!
Planning to stay home for first month anyway. Can write!! ^^
Anyway, the youth ministry organised a car wash yesterday. SO FUN!!!
Argh...My head's killing me...better end here. LOL.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Monday, August 27, 2007
Thursday, August 23, 2007
One more day to my death day...
I am so going to die tomorrow. Have been mugging, but still don't understand a thing of amath.
And now, someone comes and tells me that there's geog lesson after amath. Like, MADNESS. I am never going to survive tomorrow. If anyone posts here, it will be my earthbound spirirt. ^^
Oh well...
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
And now, someone comes and tells me that there's geog lesson after amath. Like, MADNESS. I am never going to survive tomorrow. If anyone posts here, it will be my earthbound spirirt. ^^
Oh well...
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
HEYIO!
Okie got to use the internet, so am updating again.
Got a B4 for my Chinese! When my teacher asked if I wanted to retake, I thought, "Are you mad?". Considering I normally get C6s, this was like a miracle mark for me! Haha so quite obviously, I chose to be happy with my current results. FREE PERIODS DURING CHINESE!!!
Yea. Getting hyper just thinking bout it. Free from Chinese! For now. Haha.
And I had my English O'Level orals on Monday. Think I pretty much nailed it? Haha. Keeping my fingers crossed there? Uh...I got a similar conversation topic for my prelims? Wahaha. And the second one. "Tourism. Is it good or bad?" Whahaha. Geoggers, you had better have aced that one! Haha. Geog terms came spilling out of my mouth before I knew it. ^^
But not all has been smooth sailing. Had my Social Studies Prelims on Monday, and I think I'm gonna fail.. >.< Lost 20 marks due to poor time management. Hai. Thank goodness its still prelims.
And this Friday...Additional Mathematics Prelims! That shall be my death day. T.T
Oh well...Enough ranting. Haha.
Apparently, this was on some newspaper or magazine? "Singapore is a democratic socialist state." How bout that?
Riiiiiight. I still don't buy that. ^^
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Got a B4 for my Chinese! When my teacher asked if I wanted to retake, I thought, "Are you mad?". Considering I normally get C6s, this was like a miracle mark for me! Haha so quite obviously, I chose to be happy with my current results. FREE PERIODS DURING CHINESE!!!
Yea. Getting hyper just thinking bout it. Free from Chinese! For now. Haha.
And I had my English O'Level orals on Monday. Think I pretty much nailed it? Haha. Keeping my fingers crossed there? Uh...I got a similar conversation topic for my prelims? Wahaha. And the second one. "Tourism. Is it good or bad?" Whahaha. Geoggers, you had better have aced that one! Haha. Geog terms came spilling out of my mouth before I knew it. ^^
But not all has been smooth sailing. Had my Social Studies Prelims on Monday, and I think I'm gonna fail.. >.< Lost 20 marks due to poor time management. Hai. Thank goodness its still prelims.
And this Friday...Additional Mathematics Prelims! That shall be my death day. T.T
Oh well...Enough ranting. Haha.
Apparently, this was on some newspaper or magazine? "Singapore is a democratic socialist state." How bout that?
Riiiiiight. I still don't buy that. ^^
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Sunday, August 12, 2007
BACK! For the moment...
HELLO! It's been a long time since I've blogged, and its gonna be a long time again after this post! Haha
Sitting in macs and rotting now. My internet connection at home has been down for forever...SO SAD!
As you can see, I'm hyper now. All Teddy Bear's fault!!! Make me laugh only...and stop tsking me! WAHAHA.
SEE??? Tsk me again! Stupid bear! And no, Sebestian, I'm not talking bout you.
Hahaha. Anyway, tomorrow taking O' Level Mother Tongue results. I hope I pass. Then don't need to retake.
Sobs.
Oh yea. Need for speed most wanted. A must play for fans of racing games. Haha. I enjoy wrecking those irritating police cars. And Civi cars too! No no I'm not sadistic. It's just the way the game is.
Damn sian.
Oh well...that's it for now.
See Mich? I updated! Haha
Ja' ne!
Ade
Sitting in macs and rotting now. My internet connection at home has been down for forever...SO SAD!
As you can see, I'm hyper now. All Teddy Bear's fault!!! Make me laugh only...and stop tsking me! WAHAHA.
SEE??? Tsk me again! Stupid bear! And no, Sebestian, I'm not talking bout you.
Hahaha. Anyway, tomorrow taking O' Level Mother Tongue results. I hope I pass. Then don't need to retake.
Sobs.
Oh yea. Need for speed most wanted. A must play for fans of racing games. Haha. I enjoy wrecking those irritating police cars. And Civi cars too! No no I'm not sadistic. It's just the way the game is.
Damn sian.
Oh well...that's it for now.
See Mich? I updated! Haha
Ja' ne!
Ade
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Camp
Still sitting in coffee bean now, so I've decided to blog about the camp. Well, the first night was pretty much Praise and Worship and then we went to sleep.
Speaking of the first night...I ate FOUR packets of instant noodles for lunch, and I still ate a whole packet of rice for dinner! WHEE!!!
*Ahem* sorry for that sidetrack.
We girls studied for a little while, and then we conked out. Wah. Dolphin was power lar...one minute she was doing her jap composition, the next minute, she went "Don't want to do le! I'm tired!" And within two minutes, she was asleep.
Power. I could never do that unless I am SUPER tired.
Anyway, the aircon in the girls' room spoilt...it was so stuffy...Der and I had problems sleeping... T.T
Even when I had FINALLY managed to fall asleep, I still couldn't stay asleep. I woke up at 6am, and tried to go back to sleep. At 6.30, I gave up and went to freshen up. Then, stoned in the corridor cos I didn't want to take the chance of waking my roomates up. LOL. After stoning for more than an hour, I heard voices drifting up the stairs from the level below, and guessed that some of the guys were awake, so I went to keep my stuff and then helped them prepare breakfast. It was our group's forfeit for having lost a game the previous night.
After having put all the luncheon meat into the microwave, we sat around drinking coffee/milo, and in Jason's case, tea, and waited for the rest to wake up. One by one, people began drifting in. I waited and waited. And waited. I WAS THE ONLY GIRL AWAKE! Even the girls in my group were sleeping. PANG SEH! MICH!!! HAha.
Anyway, the girls finally woke up, and we began eating. I ate alot. ALOT. RIGHT?! HAHA. MICH! I know you were quite horrified by the amount that I ate. LOLZ.
NOT IN THE RIGHT MOOD FOR THE SERIOUS REFLECTIONS NOW. >.< BYE!
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Speaking of the first night...I ate FOUR packets of instant noodles for lunch, and I still ate a whole packet of rice for dinner! WHEE!!!
*Ahem* sorry for that sidetrack.
We girls studied for a little while, and then we conked out. Wah. Dolphin was power lar...one minute she was doing her jap composition, the next minute, she went "Don't want to do le! I'm tired!" And within two minutes, she was asleep.
Power. I could never do that unless I am SUPER tired.
Anyway, the aircon in the girls' room spoilt...it was so stuffy...Der and I had problems sleeping... T.T
Even when I had FINALLY managed to fall asleep, I still couldn't stay asleep. I woke up at 6am, and tried to go back to sleep. At 6.30, I gave up and went to freshen up. Then, stoned in the corridor cos I didn't want to take the chance of waking my roomates up. LOL. After stoning for more than an hour, I heard voices drifting up the stairs from the level below, and guessed that some of the guys were awake, so I went to keep my stuff and then helped them prepare breakfast. It was our group's forfeit for having lost a game the previous night.
After having put all the luncheon meat into the microwave, we sat around drinking coffee/milo, and in Jason's case, tea, and waited for the rest to wake up. One by one, people began drifting in. I waited and waited. And waited. I WAS THE ONLY GIRL AWAKE! Even the girls in my group were sleeping. PANG SEH! MICH!!! HAha.
Anyway, the girls finally woke up, and we began eating. I ate alot. ALOT. RIGHT?! HAHA. MICH! I know you were quite horrified by the amount that I ate. LOLZ.
NOT IN THE RIGHT MOOD FOR THE SERIOUS REFLECTIONS NOW. >.< BYE!
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Coffee Bean
HELLO!! I'm hyper now cos I've had a WHOLE MUG of coffee. HAHA thanks Mich! The coffee was good!! HAHA and the carrot cake was so sweet!!!! RARR am in overdrive now...
Hmm...Have yet to blog about the confirmation camp...Shall try and do it soon...
Things to note...WHO'S GOING TO CREATE THE CATHECHISM CLASS BLOG?! ROFL.
Anyway, perhaps I am a little too high?
Can't wait to start writing my fanfic when I get home. I've started on a new one!!! haha so basically, I have three ongoing at the same time...not like my updates are very regular...but yea...I just couldn't resist...The new idea hit me one night, and IT REFUSED TO GET OUT OF MY HEAD. RARR...
:)
Okok shall do some reflections about the camp here...the more light-hearted ones, since I'm not exactly in the mood for such serious things now. LOL.
OUR CLASS BECAME MORE BONDED DURING THE CAMP! Hahaha. Yeap cos the girls and guys NEVER used to mix, but over the camp, we just bonded. So happy now...Haha its a good feeling, everyone like one big happy family. It just makes you wanna smile. And Dolphin, I know you agree too! Haha.
Yes so Dolphin and I were thinking of a bonding lunch next week, after youth mass. HAHA. Hope it goes through, cos it's a really good thing.
Conducted during mass today...SCARY. haha but everyone said I improved lar...so I guess that its a good thing...honestly, when I conducted just now, I felt really weird. My hands just didn't want to move accordingly. So freaky...My hands felt like they belonged to someone else. Oh wells...guess I'm just sleepy...
Speaking of sleepiness...I was so tired over the camp, sleeping for all of three hours a night. And no. Its not that we weren't allowed to sleep. Just couldn't fall asleep, and after I had fallen asleep, just couldn't stay asleep.
A really physically draining camp. And yet, it was spiritually rejuvenating...LOL
Shall not go into a full force reflection right now...Sometime soon. BYE!!!!!
Ja' ne.
-Ade-
Hmm...Have yet to blog about the confirmation camp...Shall try and do it soon...
Things to note...WHO'S GOING TO CREATE THE CATHECHISM CLASS BLOG?! ROFL.
Anyway, perhaps I am a little too high?
Can't wait to start writing my fanfic when I get home. I've started on a new one!!! haha so basically, I have three ongoing at the same time...not like my updates are very regular...but yea...I just couldn't resist...The new idea hit me one night, and IT REFUSED TO GET OUT OF MY HEAD. RARR...
:)
Okok shall do some reflections about the camp here...the more light-hearted ones, since I'm not exactly in the mood for such serious things now. LOL.
OUR CLASS BECAME MORE BONDED DURING THE CAMP! Hahaha. Yeap cos the girls and guys NEVER used to mix, but over the camp, we just bonded. So happy now...Haha its a good feeling, everyone like one big happy family. It just makes you wanna smile. And Dolphin, I know you agree too! Haha.
Yes so Dolphin and I were thinking of a bonding lunch next week, after youth mass. HAHA. Hope it goes through, cos it's a really good thing.
Conducted during mass today...SCARY. haha but everyone said I improved lar...so I guess that its a good thing...honestly, when I conducted just now, I felt really weird. My hands just didn't want to move accordingly. So freaky...My hands felt like they belonged to someone else. Oh wells...guess I'm just sleepy...
Speaking of sleepiness...I was so tired over the camp, sleeping for all of three hours a night. And no. Its not that we weren't allowed to sleep. Just couldn't fall asleep, and after I had fallen asleep, just couldn't stay asleep.
A really physically draining camp. And yet, it was spiritually rejuvenating...LOL
Shall not go into a full force reflection right now...Sometime soon. BYE!!!!!
Ja' ne.
-Ade-
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Huggies!
Hey ya'll! Thanks for making this day such a great one for me! Thanks for all your well wishes and everything! Haha it has been a great birthday thanks to you guys!
Thanks to all the basketballers for the surprise cake! Hehe.
Thanks to all my friends, like my gor gor and da jie for all their well wishes! Hehe.
Thanks to 4/8! Haha it was a nice birthday song!
Thanks to all!
Anyway, my weekend was a spirit-filled one. No time now, so shall post a LONG reflection on Saturday.
Ja' ne!
PS: I started learning jap on my own le! Happy~
-Ade-
Thanks to all the basketballers for the surprise cake! Hehe.
Thanks to all my friends, like my gor gor and da jie for all their well wishes! Hehe.
Thanks to 4/8! Haha it was a nice birthday song!
Thanks to all!
Anyway, my weekend was a spirit-filled one. No time now, so shall post a LONG reflection on Saturday.
Ja' ne!
PS: I started learning jap on my own le! Happy~
-Ade-
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Heyio!
Haha whee! The internet is up and running again! On Monday, the phone line suddenly decided to crash. :( It was terrible...we couldn't even use the house phone to make calls! Haha.
Well, it's obviously working now...But we still don't know what happened before...Oh wells!
Well, right about now, my classmates would be taking their 2.4km run for their PFT. While I'm sitting at home, in front of the computer. Reason being? I sprained my ankle on Wednesday. Haha. I missed the 5 items on Thursday too. Damn. I wanted to get it over and done with...I'm gonna fail my 2.4km...I've gotten so unfit! :'(
^^ Oh wells. Might I add that I love inclined-pull ups? ^^ Many people think I'm crazy when I say that. Maybe I am! haha. Oh well...
I missed training yesterday because of my sprained ankle. :(
Thank goodness it's only a minor sprain, and should be up and running by Monday! WHEE!
Haha oh wells...that was a random rant, but I'm a random person! HEHE
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Well, it's obviously working now...But we still don't know what happened before...Oh wells!
Well, right about now, my classmates would be taking their 2.4km run for their PFT. While I'm sitting at home, in front of the computer. Reason being? I sprained my ankle on Wednesday. Haha. I missed the 5 items on Thursday too. Damn. I wanted to get it over and done with...I'm gonna fail my 2.4km...I've gotten so unfit! :'(
^^ Oh wells. Might I add that I love inclined-pull ups? ^^ Many people think I'm crazy when I say that. Maybe I am! haha. Oh well...
I missed training yesterday because of my sprained ankle. :(
Thank goodness it's only a minor sprain, and should be up and running by Monday! WHEE!
Haha oh wells...that was a random rant, but I'm a random person! HEHE
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Holy Darkness
Oh yea...there's this new song which the Choir is gonna sing for Easter Vigil...It's so nice...
The melody is so soothing, so peaceful, and yet, it leaves a haunting impression on you at the same time. Haunting not in the creepy, bad sense, but in the good, comfortable sense. The tune just sticks in your head...It's really really nice...
Sounds like something those angels would...
Well, actually, it is a solo...Haha and the person who's singing it...Let's just say that her voice was made for this song. Or maybe, it would be more appropriate to say that the song sounds like it was made for her...
So sweet...Too bad the choir humming the chorus is too soft, so we have to sing...
I know a lot of people in choir have powerful voices, but I sure hope we all remember to keep to the mood of the song and keep it soft...
Ahh...the song is so good.
Mich! I know you agree! Hehe.
SANDWICHES RAWK! Hehe.
You know, I realise now that I already have made 3 post rants about songs...I love music!
Jap anime music rawks! It makes up about 99.9% of my mp3 music? Haha.
Whee! Shall go write stories on my laptop now...
No school tomorrow, since there's E-learning! WHEE!
The teachers claim they left four hours worth of lesson on the E-portal...I finished everything in under an hour, including the tests...As did a whole lot of my classmates...
Haha I feel so sad tho...I failed the chinese test...
But I guess that's pretty normal, coming from me. I have never passed chinese close passages...I just put in random answers, since I don't recognise half the words...hehe
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
The melody is so soothing, so peaceful, and yet, it leaves a haunting impression on you at the same time. Haunting not in the creepy, bad sense, but in the good, comfortable sense. The tune just sticks in your head...It's really really nice...
Sounds like something those angels would...
Well, actually, it is a solo...Haha and the person who's singing it...Let's just say that her voice was made for this song. Or maybe, it would be more appropriate to say that the song sounds like it was made for her...
So sweet...Too bad the choir humming the chorus is too soft, so we have to sing...
I know a lot of people in choir have powerful voices, but I sure hope we all remember to keep to the mood of the song and keep it soft...
Ahh...the song is so good.
Mich! I know you agree! Hehe.
SANDWICHES RAWK! Hehe.
You know, I realise now that I already have made 3 post rants about songs...I love music!
Jap anime music rawks! It makes up about 99.9% of my mp3 music? Haha.
Whee! Shall go write stories on my laptop now...
No school tomorrow, since there's E-learning! WHEE!
The teachers claim they left four hours worth of lesson on the E-portal...I finished everything in under an hour, including the tests...As did a whole lot of my classmates...
Haha I feel so sad tho...I failed the chinese test...
But I guess that's pretty normal, coming from me. I have never passed chinese close passages...I just put in random answers, since I don't recognise half the words...hehe
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
New Blog!
Hey guys! I made another blog, for posting my stories so that it's easier for you all to read! Just click on the link, and then read and leave a comment k? Haha whee! High! Felt sick this morning, but after coming home and sleeping for like four hours, felt much better. And then, I just came back from dinner...Steamboat buffet...YUMMY >.< I loved the soups...tom yam on one side and herbs on the other. WHEE...
Then, I went to visit my grandma, my first time in goodness knows how long...
I can't wait for when we shift house...then I can see my grandma everyday... :)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Then, I went to visit my grandma, my first time in goodness knows how long...
I can't wait for when we shift house...then I can see my grandma everyday... :)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Friday, March 23, 2007
Me Against The World
Haha Whee! I heard this song when I was watching some AMVs on youtube, and I fell in love with it at first listen. I was looking for the lyrics when I found this site that gave the html lyrics for websites, so I decided to put it on my blog. WHEE!
Sadly, try as I might to find the blog background music, I couldn't find it. If any of you do find it, tell me k? Haha then I can put it on. WHEE!
Ok as you can tell, I'm really hyper right now. Listening to the song now. Couldn't download so I'm actually playing the youtube one over and over again. Hehe. Goodness I'm so in love with this song! Haha. Might even buy the album, just for this song.
Oh yes. Just in case, I'm talking about 'Me against the world' from Simple Plan. Not tupac or any other weird band which I've never heard of before. Come to think of it, I haven't heard of Tupac either...Weird name...not funky at all...Haha sorry if any Tupac fans read this! I'm an ignoramus ok? Haha.
Maybe part of the reason I like this song so much is because I can relate to it?
I won't give up my dreams for anybody. NO-BODY!
I don't care what society thinks of me. I am who I am, and I'm not gonna change. Whatever for? To become the same as everyone else? I want to be a unique person, not one who follows the latest trends and such. I follow my heart!
Hehe. And the chorus, I can sort of relate to.
My mum always complains about me. She seems to have an entire list of things she hates about me? Always comparing me to my sister. "Your sister so smart, can go RGS la." "Your sister never have teachers complaining about her la." "Your sister wasn't as tomboy as you la."
Goodness. When IS she going to realise that I am NOT my sis! I am my own person, and I'm not gonna follow in my sister's footsteps! I carve my own path in life, and I do what I do not cos my sis did the same, but because I want to!
Once, I asked a close friend what I struck him as. And he told me that I struck him as someone who went against the flow. Hehe.
Michelle! You know who that person is la. Haha is your SP. HEE.
Ok. Got sidetracked there. Back to how I can relate with the lyrics.
Yea. So no matter how much my mum considers me a lost cause, I'm gonna continue being who I am, and I'll prove her wrong one day. Then, she will finally see me for who I truly am, and not who she wants me to be.
Not that I'm ever going to conform to her wants anyway. Countless times, she has tried to get me to keep my hair long. She tried refusing to pay for my haircuts. I paid out of my own pocket. Like I'm gonna let a little thing like that stop me. And then, she tried a sort of debate on how I should let my hair grow, complaining that so many people were mistaking me for a boy.
My rebutt left her speechless. Hehe. I told her, "Why should I care what those aunties think? If they want to stereotype and think that just cos I've got short hair, I must be a boy, then let them! My face isn't very boyish anyway, so if they want to think of me as a boy, its their problem. Why should I conform to society's standards of how a girl should look and act? I want to stand out and be myself."
LOL.
And the teachers in school...I swear that they are trying to brainwash us! 2 years ago, they made my seniors go for some manicure course. UGH. And when I say made, I mean MADE. Those who didn't go got calls from the school, checking that they were really sick. EWWW.
Thank goodness they didn't have it for my year. I would have ponned, and if they called, I would have pretended to have lost my voice. Hehe.
They DID, however, replace it with an etiquette course.
You must seat this way, you must walk this way, you must behave this way.
UGH. Basic courtesy is one thing. Being forced to be something you're not is another thing altogether.
I'm not saying personal etiquette isn't important. It is. But there's a fine line between etiquette and...
I don't know how to say it. You guys know what I mean right?
After all, there ARE ways to be yourself, and be polite at the same time.
I got so pissed at the school for that course, that I did the exact opposite of what the instructors told me to. They told me to sit with my legs crossed, and I slammed my feet firmly onto the ground. They told me to walk nicely, the catwalk way, and I purposely slouched and stomped.
I've got an attitude problem? Haha maybe I do. I get this way whenever someone tries to force me into something I'm not interested in. Especially if they are trying to get me to be something I don't wanna be.
And that's that. Society can judge me however they want, I'm not going to change. I will not betray my heart.
Hmm...what was supposed to be a short, crappy post about the song and how much I liked it...became this uber long reflection of sorts?
Oh wells.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Sadly, try as I might to find the blog background music, I couldn't find it. If any of you do find it, tell me k? Haha then I can put it on. WHEE!
Ok as you can tell, I'm really hyper right now. Listening to the song now. Couldn't download so I'm actually playing the youtube one over and over again. Hehe. Goodness I'm so in love with this song! Haha. Might even buy the album, just for this song.
Oh yes. Just in case, I'm talking about 'Me against the world' from Simple Plan. Not tupac or any other weird band which I've never heard of before. Come to think of it, I haven't heard of Tupac either...Weird name...not funky at all...Haha sorry if any Tupac fans read this! I'm an ignoramus ok? Haha.
Maybe part of the reason I like this song so much is because I can relate to it?
I won't give up my dreams for anybody. NO-BODY!
I don't care what society thinks of me. I am who I am, and I'm not gonna change. Whatever for? To become the same as everyone else? I want to be a unique person, not one who follows the latest trends and such. I follow my heart!
Hehe. And the chorus, I can sort of relate to.
My mum always complains about me. She seems to have an entire list of things she hates about me? Always comparing me to my sister. "Your sister so smart, can go RGS la." "Your sister never have teachers complaining about her la." "Your sister wasn't as tomboy as you la."
Goodness. When IS she going to realise that I am NOT my sis! I am my own person, and I'm not gonna follow in my sister's footsteps! I carve my own path in life, and I do what I do not cos my sis did the same, but because I want to!
Once, I asked a close friend what I struck him as. And he told me that I struck him as someone who went against the flow. Hehe.
Michelle! You know who that person is la. Haha is your SP. HEE.
Ok. Got sidetracked there. Back to how I can relate with the lyrics.
Yea. So no matter how much my mum considers me a lost cause, I'm gonna continue being who I am, and I'll prove her wrong one day. Then, she will finally see me for who I truly am, and not who she wants me to be.
Not that I'm ever going to conform to her wants anyway. Countless times, she has tried to get me to keep my hair long. She tried refusing to pay for my haircuts. I paid out of my own pocket. Like I'm gonna let a little thing like that stop me. And then, she tried a sort of debate on how I should let my hair grow, complaining that so many people were mistaking me for a boy.
My rebutt left her speechless. Hehe. I told her, "Why should I care what those aunties think? If they want to stereotype and think that just cos I've got short hair, I must be a boy, then let them! My face isn't very boyish anyway, so if they want to think of me as a boy, its their problem. Why should I conform to society's standards of how a girl should look and act? I want to stand out and be myself."
LOL.
And the teachers in school...I swear that they are trying to brainwash us! 2 years ago, they made my seniors go for some manicure course. UGH. And when I say made, I mean MADE. Those who didn't go got calls from the school, checking that they were really sick. EWWW.
Thank goodness they didn't have it for my year. I would have ponned, and if they called, I would have pretended to have lost my voice. Hehe.
They DID, however, replace it with an etiquette course.
You must seat this way, you must walk this way, you must behave this way.
UGH. Basic courtesy is one thing. Being forced to be something you're not is another thing altogether.
I'm not saying personal etiquette isn't important. It is. But there's a fine line between etiquette and...
I don't know how to say it. You guys know what I mean right?
After all, there ARE ways to be yourself, and be polite at the same time.
I got so pissed at the school for that course, that I did the exact opposite of what the instructors told me to. They told me to sit with my legs crossed, and I slammed my feet firmly onto the ground. They told me to walk nicely, the catwalk way, and I purposely slouched and stomped.
I've got an attitude problem? Haha maybe I do. I get this way whenever someone tries to force me into something I'm not interested in. Especially if they are trying to get me to be something I don't wanna be.
And that's that. Society can judge me however they want, I'm not going to change. I will not betray my heart.
Hmm...what was supposed to be a short, crappy post about the song and how much I liked it...became this uber long reflection of sorts?
Oh wells.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Whee!
Haha I'm feeling really really hyper now! Hehe just posted chapter one of my newest fanfiction, from Final Fantasy VIII! Haha the title is 'Distant Memories'. So happy...Hehe considering I just got the idea yesterday, I think I made pretty good time. Haha I enjoyed myself thoroughly writing it, and I feel so much more light-hearted now. YAY!
Haha so as you can guess, I'm in a good mood now. Lalala. ^^
Forgive the hyperness. It's a regular affliction I suffer from, and might I add that I quite like it. Smiling makes everything seem so much better! As the saying goes, whether your cup is half-empty or half-full is up to you. I prefer to see mine as half-full! Haha. Although sometimes I fail miserably.
And like my friend's pencil case reads, "I don't suffer from insanity. I enjoy every minute of it."
hehe. Yes, I'm insane. But in a happy, hyper, harmless way, so why not?
Whoa...triple H...haha.
Ja' Ne!
(Those who are interested can find my story at www.fanfiction.net, under the author ade5kira...Know what? Shall just create a link for my author's profile right now...)
-Ade-
Haha so as you can guess, I'm in a good mood now. Lalala. ^^
Forgive the hyperness. It's a regular affliction I suffer from, and might I add that I quite like it. Smiling makes everything seem so much better! As the saying goes, whether your cup is half-empty or half-full is up to you. I prefer to see mine as half-full! Haha. Although sometimes I fail miserably.
And like my friend's pencil case reads, "I don't suffer from insanity. I enjoy every minute of it."
hehe. Yes, I'm insane. But in a happy, hyper, harmless way, so why not?
Whoa...triple H...haha.
Ja' Ne!
(Those who are interested can find my story at www.fanfiction.net, under the author ade5kira...Know what? Shall just create a link for my author's profile right now...)
-Ade-
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Confidence
Went out for lunch with my parents just now, apparently as way of celebrating my mum's birthday.
Somehow, my mum thinks that I have no self-confidence. Like, what in the world?
I dress the way I want to, I style my hair any way I feel like, I am able to express my own opinions, I do not conform to society's wants. I am my own person at all times, and I don't care what others say about that.
Isn't that in itself the ultimate expression of self-confidence?
If I were not confident, would I not dress the way people want me to? But I don't do that. Those people who know me should know. They've been trying to get me into a skirt forever, and they have yet to see the fruits of their labour.
If I am able to be myself under all circumstances, regardless of what others say or think about me. If I am comfortable with my every action, even if society deems it as 'crude' or 'inappropriate for a girl' or 'boorish'. If all these do not express my confidence, then what does?
Does she want me to put on a skirt, and look pretty for all the world to see before she is willing to stop putting me down, to stop commenting on my lack of confidence?
The way I see it, she seems to be the one with no confidence in me. I am fully comfortable with the way I am, and I will never compromise it for anyone or anything.
And either you accept it, or you don't.
I don't care what others think, I will always be who I am.
After all, the coolest thing to be, is yourself, isn't it?
-winks-
Haha corny ending, I know. XP
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Somehow, my mum thinks that I have no self-confidence. Like, what in the world?
I dress the way I want to, I style my hair any way I feel like, I am able to express my own opinions, I do not conform to society's wants. I am my own person at all times, and I don't care what others say about that.
Isn't that in itself the ultimate expression of self-confidence?
If I were not confident, would I not dress the way people want me to? But I don't do that. Those people who know me should know. They've been trying to get me into a skirt forever, and they have yet to see the fruits of their labour.
If I am able to be myself under all circumstances, regardless of what others say or think about me. If I am comfortable with my every action, even if society deems it as 'crude' or 'inappropriate for a girl' or 'boorish'. If all these do not express my confidence, then what does?
Does she want me to put on a skirt, and look pretty for all the world to see before she is willing to stop putting me down, to stop commenting on my lack of confidence?
The way I see it, she seems to be the one with no confidence in me. I am fully comfortable with the way I am, and I will never compromise it for anyone or anything.
And either you accept it, or you don't.
I don't care what others think, I will always be who I am.
After all, the coolest thing to be, is yourself, isn't it?
-winks-
Haha corny ending, I know. XP
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Friday, March 9, 2007
Haha!
Haha! I'm back! I guessed right...I got bored. Well, actually, not. For some reason, Final Fantasy glitched on me and refused to operate properly from a certain point. I got auto teleported back to a frickin island, stranded with no means of transport whatsoever. -.-"
I got stuck. And I don't even know why...Oh well...
Anyway, I was just playing the game, and during a transit movie (all fluffy), something hit me.
I want to write a Final Fantasy fanfiction! If possible, a SquallOC one. Haha. OC being own character, for those unfamiliar with the fanfiction writers' slang.
It'll be fun! Haha or maybe I could do a yaoi one, pairing Squall and Seifer up...Hmm...that would be hilarious. But...Just not my cup of tea. Reading yaoi is one thing. Writing it is another thing altogether! Haha.
But I can just imagine...Squall has been captured by the enemy, he's been traumatized (-evil grin- shall not say why...I have an evil idea, but I'll leave it up to your imagination for now...). And then, he becomes all weepy and stuff, and Seifer's like the big brother always there for him.
-shudders-
Oh well...maybe not...But a Final Fantasy fanfiction would be fun, all the same...
OOH...too many RenOC ideas...by the time I'm done with all of them...I'm gonna have white hair and a walking stick.
haha. Oh wells...thats it for now.
bored again...
-Ade-
I got stuck. And I don't even know why...Oh well...
Anyway, I was just playing the game, and during a transit movie (all fluffy), something hit me.
I want to write a Final Fantasy fanfiction! If possible, a SquallOC one. Haha. OC being own character, for those unfamiliar with the fanfiction writers' slang.
It'll be fun! Haha or maybe I could do a yaoi one, pairing Squall and Seifer up...Hmm...that would be hilarious. But...Just not my cup of tea. Reading yaoi is one thing. Writing it is another thing altogether! Haha.
But I can just imagine...Squall has been captured by the enemy, he's been traumatized (-evil grin- shall not say why...I have an evil idea, but I'll leave it up to your imagination for now...). And then, he becomes all weepy and stuff, and Seifer's like the big brother always there for him.
-shudders-
Oh well...maybe not...But a Final Fantasy fanfiction would be fun, all the same...
OOH...too many RenOC ideas...by the time I'm done with all of them...I'm gonna have white hair and a walking stick.
haha. Oh wells...thats it for now.
bored again...
-Ade-
Hmm...
Haha it has been quite awhile since I've updated, hasn't it? Well, I'm sitting at home now, enjoying, or rather, freezing my butt off in front of the computer. What I'm doing at home at 1230 hours on a school day, you might wonder. And if you're thinking that I played truant, that's not it at all. I've got the day off! My seniors did really well for their O' Levels, so the school decided to give the teachers a day off as a reward for their hard work. And a day off for teachers, means a day off for the students! Woo hoo!
Can you imagine, a class going to school, but with no teachers teaching them? Hilarious.
Anyway, I recently read this really good Shaman King fanfiction! The writer's really good, and he seems really familiar with the middle age english terms? What with all the honorifics and such. I wonder if I should be surprised? I mean...He (I'm assuming he's a guy here, due to the nick he used on fanfiction.net) does live in the UK after all.
Gosh...now I'm thinking...it'll be nice to go to the UK for a holiday. Sightseeing, exploring, eating. Nope no shopping, unless it's for sports equipment or anime stuff. AHHH...It'll be heavenly.
Speaking of holidays...My school organized a trip to Vietnam for those taking Geography. Unfortunately, due to my blurness, I messed up and thought that it was only for Sec 3s, so I didn't sign up for it. SOBS. I messed up big time...they should at least be on the plane by now...I wanna join them! T.T
Gosh, I'm such a blur sotong. Think somebody hitting me on the head will help?
Haha oh wells. No use crying over spilt milk. Well, that's it for now then...since I've got the WHOLE day at home, I might just post a few more times, if I get bored.
Well, I'm off to play Final Fantasy now! I've already spent half the day playing, so yea. I know I should be studying...but...I don't really care. (Should I be saying that?)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Can you imagine, a class going to school, but with no teachers teaching them? Hilarious.
Anyway, I recently read this really good Shaman King fanfiction! The writer's really good, and he seems really familiar with the middle age english terms? What with all the honorifics and such. I wonder if I should be surprised? I mean...He (I'm assuming he's a guy here, due to the nick he used on fanfiction.net) does live in the UK after all.
Gosh...now I'm thinking...it'll be nice to go to the UK for a holiday. Sightseeing, exploring, eating. Nope no shopping, unless it's for sports equipment or anime stuff. AHHH...It'll be heavenly.
Speaking of holidays...My school organized a trip to Vietnam for those taking Geography. Unfortunately, due to my blurness, I messed up and thought that it was only for Sec 3s, so I didn't sign up for it. SOBS. I messed up big time...they should at least be on the plane by now...I wanna join them! T.T
Gosh, I'm such a blur sotong. Think somebody hitting me on the head will help?
Haha oh wells. No use crying over spilt milk. Well, that's it for now then...since I've got the WHOLE day at home, I might just post a few more times, if I get bored.
Well, I'm off to play Final Fantasy now! I've already spent half the day playing, so yea. I know I should be studying...but...I don't really care. (Should I be saying that?)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Scared...
Heys! Haha am going for my school's self-awareness camp tomorrow. Like real I'm going to share my personal issues with them. Haha. NO WAY MAN!
Good thing is, we got the best retreat site, with air-conditioning and BEDS! Haha. WHEE!
And on Saturday, I'm going for some audition thingy? Haha scarey man...
Well, I'm looking forward to the camp! Haha. I shall enjoy myself without having to share too much...I'm not one to open up too much anyway. HAHA!
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Good thing is, we got the best retreat site, with air-conditioning and BEDS! Haha. WHEE!
And on Saturday, I'm going for some audition thingy? Haha scarey man...
Well, I'm looking forward to the camp! Haha. I shall enjoy myself without having to share too much...I'm not one to open up too much anyway. HAHA!
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Testing...
Yay! Haha Its working! What am I talking about? Well, basically, I'm sitting in macdonalds now, and I'm on the net! Yay! The wireless on my laptop works! Wahaha.
Just got out of CNY mass a little while ago, and am feeling all high and stuff. For some reason. I'm not too sure myself. Grins.
Ok...given, I'm on the net now...can't seem to install MSN messanger for some reason though...Hai...
Anyways, happy CNY people! Have fun visiting!
-Ade-
Just got out of CNY mass a little while ago, and am feeling all high and stuff. For some reason. I'm not too sure myself. Grins.
Ok...given, I'm on the net now...can't seem to install MSN messanger for some reason though...Hai...
Anyways, happy CNY people! Have fun visiting!
-Ade-
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Freedom
Just came back from my family's Chinese New Year Reunion dinner, and one of my suspicions all along was confirmed.
My mum did read my diary.
Normally, I would throw a big fit and stuff, shouting, INVASION OF PRIVACY.
But I just laughed.
I guessed that means that I have really managed to put the past behind me and move on.
And thats a good thing.
I've always been a person very concerned with freedom. I like to speak my mind, and do what I like. That, coupled with my stubborness, means that its very hard to make me do something against my will.
And that includes having me put on a skirt.
So, who wants to be held back by shackles of the past? Clinging to the past instead of moving on is just gonna hold you back.
And yet, there are some things not so easily forgotten.
Whatever it is, I want to stay free.
Free to soar into the sky like an eagle.
(I changed my blog title! ^^)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
(Three posts in one day? I'm really bored. Haha.)
My mum did read my diary.
Normally, I would throw a big fit and stuff, shouting, INVASION OF PRIVACY.
But I just laughed.
I guessed that means that I have really managed to put the past behind me and move on.
And thats a good thing.
I've always been a person very concerned with freedom. I like to speak my mind, and do what I like. That, coupled with my stubborness, means that its very hard to make me do something against my will.
And that includes having me put on a skirt.
So, who wants to be held back by shackles of the past? Clinging to the past instead of moving on is just gonna hold you back.
And yet, there are some things not so easily forgotten.
Whatever it is, I want to stay free.
Free to soar into the sky like an eagle.
(I changed my blog title! ^^)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
(Three posts in one day? I'm really bored. Haha.)
Bored...
Sitting at home in front of the computer, talking to a few of my friends on MSN but still feeling very bored.
So here I am! I have decided to post! Haha
There's this song from an anime which I REALLY REALLY like. It really struck me at first, because it really is quite true. Well, maybe not all of it, but most of it. Or...maybe just the first part?
Regardless, it is a really meaningful song, and I find a lot of truth in the lyrics.
Nothing can beat church hymns, though.
But here's the song lyrics!
Bleach- Life is like a boat (Rie Fu)
Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?
We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day
tooku de iki o shiteru
toomei ni natta mitai
kurayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku
shisareteta dake
inori o sasagete
atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi
sono hate made
Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong
hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku
mukedashiteku naru
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki
de mune o tsureteku
And every time I see your face
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
and soon I can't see the shore
Oh, I can't see the shore
When will I see the shore?
I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong
tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku
odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki
de ume o terashidasu
inori o sasagete
atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi
sono hate made
And every time I see your face
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
and soon I can't see the shore
Unmei no hune oko gi
nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to
watashi-tachi o sou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne,
dore mo suteki na tabi ne
Yeap. This is it. I got the lyrics from gendou.
Darn long, isn't it? Haha
But its really meaningful, due to how true it is. Maybe its just me, maybe its a whole lot of us. But all the same, this song struck me.
How many people know who we really are inside? People say that your friends know you better than you know yourself. And yet, how are others to know who you are, if you yourself don't know?
Some say that for others to know you, you must first know yourself. Others say that your friends will know you more than you will ever know yourself.
So which are we to believe?
So many people say, day in day out, that they are your friends, and that they will always be there for you.
But how many actually keep their promise?
I don't wanna be one of those hypocrites who only know how to talk. That is why every single word from my previous post came from my heart.
Life is a journey. One that all of us must go through.
This journey could end at any time.
That is why, I wanna live each day like its my last, and I wanna do as much as possible for my friends.
Live life with no regrets.
"Live each day like its your last, but dream like you have forever"- Unknown. (At least, to me)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
So here I am! I have decided to post! Haha
There's this song from an anime which I REALLY REALLY like. It really struck me at first, because it really is quite true. Well, maybe not all of it, but most of it. Or...maybe just the first part?
Regardless, it is a really meaningful song, and I find a lot of truth in the lyrics.
Nothing can beat church hymns, though.
But here's the song lyrics!
Bleach- Life is like a boat (Rie Fu)
Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?
We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day
tooku de iki o shiteru
toomei ni natta mitai
kurayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku
shisareteta dake
inori o sasagete
atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi
sono hate made
Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong
hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku
mukedashiteku naru
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki
de mune o tsureteku
And every time I see your face
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
and soon I can't see the shore
Oh, I can't see the shore
When will I see the shore?
I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong
tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku
odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki
de ume o terashidasu
inori o sasagete
atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi
sono hate made
And every time I see your face
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
and soon I can't see the shore
Unmei no hune oko gi
nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to
watashi-tachi o sou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne,
dore mo suteki na tabi ne
Yeap. This is it. I got the lyrics from gendou.
Darn long, isn't it? Haha
But its really meaningful, due to how true it is. Maybe its just me, maybe its a whole lot of us. But all the same, this song struck me.
How many people know who we really are inside? People say that your friends know you better than you know yourself. And yet, how are others to know who you are, if you yourself don't know?
Some say that for others to know you, you must first know yourself. Others say that your friends will know you more than you will ever know yourself.
So which are we to believe?
So many people say, day in day out, that they are your friends, and that they will always be there for you.
But how many actually keep their promise?
I don't wanna be one of those hypocrites who only know how to talk. That is why every single word from my previous post came from my heart.
Life is a journey. One that all of us must go through.
This journey could end at any time.
That is why, I wanna live each day like its my last, and I wanna do as much as possible for my friends.
Live life with no regrets.
"Live each day like its your last, but dream like you have forever"- Unknown. (At least, to me)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
I'll always be there...
Sometimes, it may seem like I'm in no mood to listen to you, either because I'm too hyper or too sad. Or it may seem like I'm too busy, too wrapped up in my own affairs, to take the time off to be there for a friend.
But that is never true.
I won't be able to sense your mood every single time. I'm no psychic. I'm only human, with no special abilities of any sort.
But all you have to do is ask...in fact, you only need to start talking to me, and I promise that I will listen. I will always be there for you, ready to lend a listening ear or to be a punching bag.
What you say doesn't have to be edited for me. You can rant, curse and swear all you want, because I will never complain. I don't mind. I really don't. As long as it helps you feel better.
All I want to do, is to use this life of mine and dedicate it to helping my friends.
No, I'm not noble or anything. Maybe I'm just doing this for selfish reasons. Because I get the most joy when I see my friends smile. So does that make me selfish?
Whatever it is, I just wanna let you know, I will always be there for you.
24/7, you can just drop me an sms, a call, anything. And I will try my very best to be there for you immediately.
I'm a walking network, always ready to listen.
This is meant for no one in particular. If anything, this is a message to ALL my friends out there. Every single one of you.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
But that is never true.
I won't be able to sense your mood every single time. I'm no psychic. I'm only human, with no special abilities of any sort.
But all you have to do is ask...in fact, you only need to start talking to me, and I promise that I will listen. I will always be there for you, ready to lend a listening ear or to be a punching bag.
What you say doesn't have to be edited for me. You can rant, curse and swear all you want, because I will never complain. I don't mind. I really don't. As long as it helps you feel better.
All I want to do, is to use this life of mine and dedicate it to helping my friends.
No, I'm not noble or anything. Maybe I'm just doing this for selfish reasons. Because I get the most joy when I see my friends smile. So does that make me selfish?
Whatever it is, I just wanna let you know, I will always be there for you.
24/7, you can just drop me an sms, a call, anything. And I will try my very best to be there for you immediately.
I'm a walking network, always ready to listen.
This is meant for no one in particular. If anything, this is a message to ALL my friends out there. Every single one of you.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
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