Haha. Just had to do this. End the year on the 55th post. xD
And while everyone's partying and stuff, what am I doing?
Well, I shall usher in the new year with friends, books, and Planet Earth. Woo! What a great way to usher in the new year! And I'm not being sarcastic either.
Well, adieu, 2007.
I'm in love your hugs. (: But I more in love with you. "You're on my heart just
I will keep my memories locked deep within my heart.
like a tattoo, and like a tattoo, I'll always have you!"
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Monday, December 31, 2007
Sunday, December 30, 2007
The year is ending soon, and, OH! What a year it has been!
My tagbox is dying. I swear if it had feelings it'd be feeling depressed by now. Except I can't swear. Oh well.
School starting soon for most, and I'm going to be slacking around in the meantime. Even if I were to go to my mom's international school to try out the system there and check whether it actually suits me better than Singapore's stringent one, school only reopens on the 7th of January. Ahh I feel like such a slacker. (:
Well, its nearly the end of the year, and its the time when everyone starts thinking, "How was this year for me? Have I managed to keep to all the resolutions I made at the beginning of the year?" Sadly, the answer to that question for most, would be no. For me? Well...didn't really make any new year resolutions at the beginning of the year. Sorta gave up on that tradition.
Well, perhaps next year would be a good year to start again...
But enough of what has yet to come. What about what has past?
I'm sure that most of us have changed, however subtly, throughout the course of this year. I have changed quite drastically in certain senses, as those who know me well MIGHT know. And I do feel that I have grown, and that is something worth being proud of, I would think.
What with O'Levels and all, this has been a hectic year. Even through all the academic focus teachers were piling over us, I still managed to keep to my role as a slacker. Not exactly something to be proud of, but that has remained a constant.
Friendships made, friendships broken, through it all, I've managed to hold through to my values, and for that I am thankful. What with my mum not letting up with her behavior, I would definitely feel guilty if I did not dedicate at least a line to all my friends.
Thanks for putting up with me, through all the times when I was feeling grumpy, and when I felt like I was being torn to pieces. Without all of you guys, I would never have made it through in one piece.
Another important thing this year which I must not forget. Confirmation. Indeed, I changed immensely within the short duration of the camp. Perhaps it would be more accurate to refer to it as growing, rather than changing. How much the grace of God showed itself in each and every participant.
Blogging about that reminds me of something. I did say I would do a reflection of the camp, but I never got round to it, with all the internet problems and laziness and all. Oh well. Such precious memories will be locked up in my heart for the whole of my lifetime (I hope), and I might talk about it when I feel like.
If I could pick a word to describe this year, I would pick the word, change. Indeed, this has been a year of change for me. But have I changed for the better? Only time will tell.
Nonetheless, this year has been immensely gratifying. While I remain a self-proclaimed slacker, I have accomplished stuff outside of academic concerns, for which I honestly don't give a damn. >.<
And as I end off this post which is far too lengthy as it is, I wish for the year of 2008 to be as impactful as 2007 was, and I hope that 2008 will contain more joy for every single one of my friends. Do not forget, that I am always here to lend a listening ear.
Fare thee well, 2007. I will probably bid thee farewell at our inevitable parting in slightly more than 24 hours.
Damn, haven't done that for too long.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
School starting soon for most, and I'm going to be slacking around in the meantime. Even if I were to go to my mom's international school to try out the system there and check whether it actually suits me better than Singapore's stringent one, school only reopens on the 7th of January. Ahh I feel like such a slacker. (:
Well, its nearly the end of the year, and its the time when everyone starts thinking, "How was this year for me? Have I managed to keep to all the resolutions I made at the beginning of the year?" Sadly, the answer to that question for most, would be no. For me? Well...didn't really make any new year resolutions at the beginning of the year. Sorta gave up on that tradition.
Well, perhaps next year would be a good year to start again...
But enough of what has yet to come. What about what has past?
I'm sure that most of us have changed, however subtly, throughout the course of this year. I have changed quite drastically in certain senses, as those who know me well MIGHT know. And I do feel that I have grown, and that is something worth being proud of, I would think.
What with O'Levels and all, this has been a hectic year. Even through all the academic focus teachers were piling over us, I still managed to keep to my role as a slacker. Not exactly something to be proud of, but that has remained a constant.
Friendships made, friendships broken, through it all, I've managed to hold through to my values, and for that I am thankful. What with my mum not letting up with her behavior, I would definitely feel guilty if I did not dedicate at least a line to all my friends.
Thanks for putting up with me, through all the times when I was feeling grumpy, and when I felt like I was being torn to pieces. Without all of you guys, I would never have made it through in one piece.
Another important thing this year which I must not forget. Confirmation. Indeed, I changed immensely within the short duration of the camp. Perhaps it would be more accurate to refer to it as growing, rather than changing. How much the grace of God showed itself in each and every participant.
Blogging about that reminds me of something. I did say I would do a reflection of the camp, but I never got round to it, with all the internet problems and laziness and all. Oh well. Such precious memories will be locked up in my heart for the whole of my lifetime (I hope), and I might talk about it when I feel like.
If I could pick a word to describe this year, I would pick the word, change. Indeed, this has been a year of change for me. But have I changed for the better? Only time will tell.
Nonetheless, this year has been immensely gratifying. While I remain a self-proclaimed slacker, I have accomplished stuff outside of academic concerns, for which I honestly don't give a damn. >.<
And as I end off this post which is far too lengthy as it is, I wish for the year of 2008 to be as impactful as 2007 was, and I hope that 2008 will contain more joy for every single one of my friends. Do not forget, that I am always here to lend a listening ear.
Fare thee well, 2007. I will probably bid thee farewell at our inevitable parting in slightly more than 24 hours.
Damn, haven't done that for too long.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
What if...
Through an incident, I have...well, I wouldn't say learnt, since there is no right to teach. But, I have formulated my own opinion, and my conviction has strengthened. And all in this one night.
This is going to be part religious, part philosophical, so those who are opposed to it, read no further.
I used to think of a lot of "what ifs". But today, a new thought crossed my mind. Why must there be what ifs? Since we Catholics believe that our God is all-knowing, and that everything that happens, does so for his reasons, even if they remain strange and distant to us?
And of course, this thought goes hand in hand with another. One that I never really believed in. I never believed that God has planned our future, and I insisted strongly that we were the ones ruining our lives by ourselves, that everything that happened, did so because of us, and solely cos of us.
And yet, why did it have to be that way?
Since God is all-knowing, isn't it possible for him to lay down his plans for the future, and yet take into consideration our free will?
And that is why people make mistakes. But he knows we are going to make that mistakes, and he will guide us back in his unseen ways. He did not plan for us to commit sins. He hopes we will not. But he knows that we are humans, and thus not infalliable, and as such, he plans for us to realize our mistakes either through other people, or through shocks in our lives.
I know that many readers will want to dispute this and disagree with it. Feel free to. I never did say this is the one and only answer. This is simply my opinion, and you can dispute it as you will. I will stand firm.
And I do believe that God is watching over each and everyone of us. Without him, tonight would have ended quite differently.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
This is going to be part religious, part philosophical, so those who are opposed to it, read no further.
I used to think of a lot of "what ifs". But today, a new thought crossed my mind. Why must there be what ifs? Since we Catholics believe that our God is all-knowing, and that everything that happens, does so for his reasons, even if they remain strange and distant to us?
And of course, this thought goes hand in hand with another. One that I never really believed in. I never believed that God has planned our future, and I insisted strongly that we were the ones ruining our lives by ourselves, that everything that happened, did so because of us, and solely cos of us.
And yet, why did it have to be that way?
Since God is all-knowing, isn't it possible for him to lay down his plans for the future, and yet take into consideration our free will?
And that is why people make mistakes. But he knows we are going to make that mistakes, and he will guide us back in his unseen ways. He did not plan for us to commit sins. He hopes we will not. But he knows that we are humans, and thus not infalliable, and as such, he plans for us to realize our mistakes either through other people, or through shocks in our lives.
I know that many readers will want to dispute this and disagree with it. Feel free to. I never did say this is the one and only answer. This is simply my opinion, and you can dispute it as you will. I will stand firm.
And I do believe that God is watching over each and everyone of us. Without him, tonight would have ended quite differently.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Friday, December 28, 2007
Something insightful.
Well, another interesting email.
A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track.
The train is coming, and you are just beside the track interchange. You can make the train change its course to the disused track and save most of the kids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way?
Well, make your choices.... xD
Hmm...SUSPENSE...
Think...
Sure of your choice? Good.
Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child. You might think the same way, I guess. Exactly, to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally. But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place?
Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was. This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday. In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are. The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined. And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.
The great critic Leo Velski Julian who told the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use, and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens. If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track! Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe. If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.
While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.
'Remember that what's right isn't always popular... and what's popular isn't always right.'
Everybody makes mistakes; that's why they put erasers on pencils.
Interesting thought, isn't it? Sure sheds a whole new light on things. xD
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track.
The train is coming, and you are just beside the track interchange. You can make the train change its course to the disused track and save most of the kids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way?
Well, make your choices.... xD
Hmm...SUSPENSE...
Think...
Sure of your choice? Good.
Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child. You might think the same way, I guess. Exactly, to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally. But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place?
Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was. This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday. In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are. The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined. And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.
The great critic Leo Velski Julian who told the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use, and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens. If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track! Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe. If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.
While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.
'Remember that what's right isn't always popular... and what's popular isn't always right.'
Everybody makes mistakes; that's why they put erasers on pencils.
Interesting thought, isn't it? Sure sheds a whole new light on things. xD
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Life is cruel at times. But it is also that cruelty which enhances its beauty.
Haha. Title inspired by Planet Earth. Great documentary. I would highly recommend it to nature lovers. And to those who aren't normally interested, watch it and be awestruck and the greatness of the wilderness. More on this later anyway.
Christmas was pretty...uneventful. Haha except I went to see the sunrise with Daddy, Avril, Yi Lin, Daryl and Jason. xD In the end, there were too many dark clouds to see the sun rise. -.-"
Yea...uneventful Christmas. The play went well, and it ended on quite a good note. xD Was surprisingly wide awake throughout mass despite my severe and obvious lack of sleep. Christmas mass always has that magical effect on me. ^^
Uh huh...yea...
Haha. So anyway. On to Planet Earth. My sis got me the dvd set for Christmas. How awesome is that? xD
Enjoyed myself thoroughly watching the spectacular fliming, and the perks of dvds added to the experience. I was wowed by the amount of effort put into this series, and knowing the amount of effort invested in the series puts it in a whole new light.
The power of nature is beautiful. Tear-jerking. Inspiring.
And we are destroying that beauty for our own convenience. Damn.
Stupid Daryl. Stupid Dracula. Never say. Grr.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Christmas was pretty...uneventful. Haha except I went to see the sunrise with Daddy, Avril, Yi Lin, Daryl and Jason. xD In the end, there were too many dark clouds to see the sun rise. -.-"
Yea...uneventful Christmas. The play went well, and it ended on quite a good note. xD Was surprisingly wide awake throughout mass despite my severe and obvious lack of sleep. Christmas mass always has that magical effect on me. ^^
Uh huh...yea...
Haha. So anyway. On to Planet Earth. My sis got me the dvd set for Christmas. How awesome is that? xD
Enjoyed myself thoroughly watching the spectacular fliming, and the perks of dvds added to the experience. I was wowed by the amount of effort put into this series, and knowing the amount of effort invested in the series puts it in a whole new light.
The power of nature is beautiful. Tear-jerking. Inspiring.
And we are destroying that beauty for our own convenience. Damn.
Stupid Daryl. Stupid Dracula. Never say. Grr.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Monday, December 24, 2007
Christmas Eve!
Yay! 1 more day to christmas.
Today, or technically, yesterday, was a tiring day. Alot of things happened that made me feel that there was a lack of christmas spirit. And it also brought to mind this song I used to be the soloist for.
Christmas, isn't christmas, till it happens in your heart.
Nice song. And its true...the christmas spirit can only be found in your own heart. And in my opinion, you can't really sense the christmas spirit in others if you don't have it in your own heart.
So I guess...While I have been complaining about how christmas is so commercialised and stuff, I failed to realise that I myself have lost the christmas spirit. And that is one of the worst things.
And now, as I ask myself if I'm prepared to celebrate Christ's coming, I am unable to give a solid answer.
But, I am starting to feel it. Through my friends. Thank you all. Everyone of you. I guess I got too caught up by petty conflicts.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Today, or technically, yesterday, was a tiring day. Alot of things happened that made me feel that there was a lack of christmas spirit. And it also brought to mind this song I used to be the soloist for.
Christmas, isn't christmas, till it happens in your heart.
Nice song. And its true...the christmas spirit can only be found in your own heart. And in my opinion, you can't really sense the christmas spirit in others if you don't have it in your own heart.
So I guess...While I have been complaining about how christmas is so commercialised and stuff, I failed to realise that I myself have lost the christmas spirit. And that is one of the worst things.
And now, as I ask myself if I'm prepared to celebrate Christ's coming, I am unable to give a solid answer.
But, I am starting to feel it. Through my friends. Thank you all. Everyone of you. I guess I got too caught up by petty conflicts.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Why God allows pain.
My friend forwarded this to me by email, and I opened it thinking it was one of those chain mails that were only good for a laugh. Boy, was I wrong.
Still, its not a habit of mine to spam contacts' emails, so I'm posting the story on my blog instead. It's really quite a nice way of putting it.
A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.
As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.
They talked about so many things and various subjects.
When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said:
"I don't believe that God exists."
"Why do you say that?" asked the customer. "Well, you just
have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist.
Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?
Would there be abandoned children?
If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain.
I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."
The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't
want to start an argument.
The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.
Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long,
stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard.
He looked dirty and unkempt. The customer turned back and entered the barber
shop again and he said to the barber:
"You know what? Barbers do not exist."
"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber.
"I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"
"No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because
if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed
beards, like that man outside."
"Ah, but barbers DO exist! That's what happens when people do not
come to me."
"Exactly!" affirmed the customer. "That's the point! God,
too, DOES exist!
That's what happens when people do not go to Him and don't look to Him
for help.
That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."
Nice? (:
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Still, its not a habit of mine to spam contacts' emails, so I'm posting the story on my blog instead. It's really quite a nice way of putting it.
A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.
As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.
They talked about so many things and various subjects.
When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said:
"I don't believe that God exists."
"Why do you say that?" asked the customer. "Well, you just
have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist.
Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?
Would there be abandoned children?
If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain.
I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."
The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't
want to start an argument.
The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.
Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long,
stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard.
He looked dirty and unkempt. The customer turned back and entered the barber
shop again and he said to the barber:
"You know what? Barbers do not exist."
"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber.
"I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"
"No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because
if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed
beards, like that man outside."
"Ah, but barbers DO exist! That's what happens when people do not
come to me."
"Exactly!" affirmed the customer. "That's the point! God,
too, DOES exist!
That's what happens when people do not go to Him and don't look to Him
for help.
That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."
Nice? (:
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Strange woman...
Oh yea. After our practice for our skit, we were standing around the church canteen, when something really weird happened. But I wasn't really paying attention.
Well...apparently, this woman dragged this chair and hit Jolene's leg. There was an exchange of words which I didn't quite catch, because that woman was mumbling to herself. I did catch "asshole" though.
In church!
But anyway...apparently, she pointed a finger. And while I do not want to assume that it was the third finger, what else could it have been in such a situation?
And she was also making a big fuss about us taking a whole row of seats? When there were more than enough empty seats? O.O Wow she's fat. xD
Under normal circumstances, I would have been extremely sarcastic. Today was not exactly a normal day. >.<
Maybe it was because I didn't know what exactly had happened, and didn't want to jump to conclusions. Maybe, I was just sleepy. Or perhaps, I don't care anymore. Nonetheless, I was standing there, watching the drama before me in amusement.
Trisha did say some funny things. xD
And teddy bear and Derniese were laughing/smiling too.
My first time seeing Jaslene pissed. xD
That woman had an...err...attitude problem kinda face. xD
"I've always wanted to be an eagle. Perhaps all I ever was, was a sparrow."
Well, if the above is true...then perhaps I should change my blog title to, Hop little sparrow, hop away from the broken pieces. >.<
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Well...apparently, this woman dragged this chair and hit Jolene's leg. There was an exchange of words which I didn't quite catch, because that woman was mumbling to herself. I did catch "asshole" though.
In church!
But anyway...apparently, she pointed a finger. And while I do not want to assume that it was the third finger, what else could it have been in such a situation?
And she was also making a big fuss about us taking a whole row of seats? When there were more than enough empty seats? O.O Wow she's fat. xD
Under normal circumstances, I would have been extremely sarcastic. Today was not exactly a normal day. >.<
Maybe it was because I didn't know what exactly had happened, and didn't want to jump to conclusions. Maybe, I was just sleepy. Or perhaps, I don't care anymore. Nonetheless, I was standing there, watching the drama before me in amusement.
Trisha did say some funny things. xD
And teddy bear and Derniese were laughing/smiling too.
My first time seeing Jaslene pissed. xD
That woman had an...err...attitude problem kinda face. xD
"I've always wanted to be an eagle. Perhaps all I ever was, was a sparrow."
Well, if the above is true...then perhaps I should change my blog title to, Hop little sparrow, hop away from the broken pieces. >.<
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
I'm trying...but it's trying...
Credits for the title goes to Jonathan...it was his MSN nick for awhile and it struck me. Hope you don't mind me stealing it. xP
Tiring day. In part because I slept at 4 am and woke up at 7 plus. In part cos I went shopping. No matter what kind, it just tires me out. And in part cos, well...alot of time was spent walking around.
But while we didn't buy the gifts...we've pretty much settled on what to get everyone. Now I'm just left with my personal list of recipients.
Jigsaws are FUN! xD I saw so many cute doggy ones today...Shall buy them after christmas and fix them up. xD
Yea...
I'm sorry for that...uh...outburst just now. I wish you hadn't seen me in that...uh...pathetic state.
Am I just setting myself up for a fall? Regardless...I will have faith. But yea. It's trying.
Ja' ne!
-Ade- [zonked out.]
Tiring day. In part because I slept at 4 am and woke up at 7 plus. In part cos I went shopping. No matter what kind, it just tires me out. And in part cos, well...alot of time was spent walking around.
But while we didn't buy the gifts...we've pretty much settled on what to get everyone. Now I'm just left with my personal list of recipients.
Jigsaws are FUN! xD I saw so many cute doggy ones today...Shall buy them after christmas and fix them up. xD
Yea...
I'm sorry for that...uh...outburst just now. I wish you hadn't seen me in that...uh...pathetic state.
Am I just setting myself up for a fall? Regardless...I will have faith. But yea. It's trying.
Ja' ne!
-Ade- [zonked out.]
Monday, December 17, 2007
I wish for the same thing...
Listening to Jean to Leo now...nice song...sad melody and all...but still nice! xD
Anyway, today was sheck oink's birthday, so moomoo and I went to her house in the morning. We figured that she wouldn't be surprised by the cake, so we came up with a plan. xD
Moomoo ran up and told sheck oink that I'd sprained my ankle, and to go down and help me. Apparently, when sheck oink asked how I'd sprained my leg, moomoo came up with the most hilarious reply. "She got too excited when buying cake, so sprained her ankle."
LOL. Anyways, sheck oink fell for it and we managed to give her a surprise.
Sorry if we made you worried!!
My stuffed toy dog...has a big ass... >.< But its comfy to squeeze and all. ^^
Ahh...think its dinner time...
I'm sorry that I freaked out over nothing... >.<
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Anyway, today was sheck oink's birthday, so moomoo and I went to her house in the morning. We figured that she wouldn't be surprised by the cake, so we came up with a plan. xD
Moomoo ran up and told sheck oink that I'd sprained my ankle, and to go down and help me. Apparently, when sheck oink asked how I'd sprained my leg, moomoo came up with the most hilarious reply. "She got too excited when buying cake, so sprained her ankle."
LOL. Anyways, sheck oink fell for it and we managed to give her a surprise.
Sorry if we made you worried!!
My stuffed toy dog...has a big ass... >.< But its comfy to squeeze and all. ^^
Ahh...think its dinner time...
I'm sorry that I freaked out over nothing... >.<
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Lyrics: Anata ga Koko ni Iru Riyuu
Anime: D.Gray Man
Artist: Rie Fu
Song Title: Anata ga Koko ni Iru Riyuu
Well, the song title basically translates to "The reason why you are here". As always, any mistakes made in spelling of terms and names are purely unintentional.
Well, maybe its just cos this song is pretty much sung in a range that is comfortable to me, but it caught on pretty quickly. For me, this was a song I enjoyed singing. Then again, I enjoy singing several songs. The tune also caught my ear pretty quickly.
From the opening, you can tell that its going to be a meaningful song. And it doesn't disappoint. Even with my limited understanding of the Japanese language at this point of time, this song does bring tears to my eyes when I am in an emo mood. Well, it did that one time anyway.
Lyrics are pretty meaningful as well, and nice to sing. xD Unlike Daybreak's Bell, I don't think this song is from any one person to another. The lyrics are such that it really applies to most of the main D.gray Man characters. Yea, even the Noah clan.
My favourite lines for this song...Hmm...Hard to pick...
[私が今ここにいる理由を
これからも探してる]
{watashi ga ima koko ni iru riyuu o
kore kara mo sagashiteru}
Translating to,
The reason that I’m here,
I’ll continue searching for it
Thanks to gendou.com for providing the lyrics once again. ^^
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Artist: Rie Fu
Song Title: Anata ga Koko ni Iru Riyuu
Well, the song title basically translates to "The reason why you are here". As always, any mistakes made in spelling of terms and names are purely unintentional.
Well, maybe its just cos this song is pretty much sung in a range that is comfortable to me, but it caught on pretty quickly. For me, this was a song I enjoyed singing. Then again, I enjoy singing several songs. The tune also caught my ear pretty quickly.
From the opening, you can tell that its going to be a meaningful song. And it doesn't disappoint. Even with my limited understanding of the Japanese language at this point of time, this song does bring tears to my eyes when I am in an emo mood. Well, it did that one time anyway.
Lyrics are pretty meaningful as well, and nice to sing. xD Unlike Daybreak's Bell, I don't think this song is from any one person to another. The lyrics are such that it really applies to most of the main D.gray Man characters. Yea, even the Noah clan.
My favourite lines for this song...Hmm...Hard to pick...
[私が今ここにいる理由を
これからも探してる]
{watashi ga ima koko ni iru riyuu o
kore kara mo sagashiteru}
Translating to,
The reason that I’m here,
I’ll continue searching for it
Thanks to gendou.com for providing the lyrics once again. ^^
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Pure white, snow with all its delights. Stark black, the night sky and the stars which light our paths.
Another rainy day. Hahaha the sky cried again.
A fun day nonetheless! Yi Lin (moo moo), Daryl (vampire), Serjia (puppy) and teddy bear came over to my house today!
Hahaha moo moo, vampire, puppy and I all settled the details last night, but then kinda dragged teddy bear over at the last minute. xD
Anyway, we started off just playing bridge. Which then turned into a round of dai ti where puppy got 3 tis and 3 aces if I remember correctly. Of course he won. >.<
Halo-ed after that! xD Damn Halo 2 on legendary difficulty is just imba. BUT WE SURVIVED HUNTERS ON LEGENDARY! xD Although before we even got to the hunter part, we died many many many times. Single player legendary is HARD. xD And we did cheat with the hunters. We had a turret. THOSE DARN SNIPERS. xD
The way Serjia played was damn funny. The stupid "GOD" marine was not killing anything, so he tried to push him closer to the enemies. And the marine kept running back to his spot. So puppy pushed him off the roof, since he was on the edge. And then we sat back and watched as our little "GOD-MODE" marine sniped everyone's ass. xD
And then we went to the "park" behind my house and had a swing. WHEE!! xD I'm flying so high! And teddy can swing two swings! xD PRO.
"I'm willing to try and accept both black and white. But are you willing to share both colors with me?"
Ja' ne!
-Ade- [HYPER]
A fun day nonetheless! Yi Lin (moo moo), Daryl (vampire), Serjia (puppy) and teddy bear came over to my house today!
Hahaha moo moo, vampire, puppy and I all settled the details last night, but then kinda dragged teddy bear over at the last minute. xD
Anyway, we started off just playing bridge. Which then turned into a round of dai ti where puppy got 3 tis and 3 aces if I remember correctly. Of course he won. >.<
Halo-ed after that! xD Damn Halo 2 on legendary difficulty is just imba. BUT WE SURVIVED HUNTERS ON LEGENDARY! xD Although before we even got to the hunter part, we died many many many times. Single player legendary is HARD. xD And we did cheat with the hunters. We had a turret. THOSE DARN SNIPERS. xD
The way Serjia played was damn funny. The stupid "GOD" marine was not killing anything, so he tried to push him closer to the enemies. And the marine kept running back to his spot. So puppy pushed him off the roof, since he was on the edge. And then we sat back and watched as our little "GOD-MODE" marine sniped everyone's ass. xD
And then we went to the "park" behind my house and had a swing. WHEE!! xD I'm flying so high! And teddy can swing two swings! xD PRO.
"I'm willing to try and accept both black and white. But are you willing to share both colors with me?"
Ja' ne!
-Ade- [HYPER]
Friday, December 7, 2007
The Golden Compass
Haha. Watched The Golden Compass today. Excellent show! Haha ICE BEARS OWN! One is imba enough...imagine a whole army! xD
I like the protagonist's attitude. Haha. Stubborn, defiant and such. And a tomboy to boot. WHOO.
Anyway, after the movie, we stoned a little, then went to the kopitiam and shared $5 worth of Char Kway Teow. It was so good, that we got 3 more bowls. =x
PIG OUT! Hahaha!
Short post, but anyway...OFF TO WATCH GUNDAM 00!!
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
I like the protagonist's attitude. Haha. Stubborn, defiant and such. And a tomboy to boot. WHOO.
Anyway, after the movie, we stoned a little, then went to the kopitiam and shared $5 worth of Char Kway Teow. It was so good, that we got 3 more bowls. =x
PIG OUT! Hahaha!
Short post, but anyway...OFF TO WATCH GUNDAM 00!!
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
East Coast
Haha. Damn tired right now. Rain and cold really saps your energy.
Went to East Coast with Avril, Yi Lin, Daryl, Elphin, Jason, Jin He and Serjia today. It was raining the whole time. Damn. Haha not that it wasn't fun.
Met Yi Lin at 7.15, and went on to Yio Chu Kang to meet Daryl and Serjia. Serjia was late! xD We overshot our bus stop and had to take it back. =x
Anyway, when we got there, it was raining so we decided against starting to cycle without the rest. And then, went to macs a little wet and ate food. Jason called saying that they were reaching already, and started laughing at us cos we left our houses so much earlier. In the end, it took them another half an hour at least to get there. xD
Finally got ourselves to get up and move, so we all started cycling. Cycling in the rain is fun! Rain on your face, wind whipping at it. Nice and cooling.
Serjia and I rode really really far, towards the Bedok Jetty side, looking for Jin He and Daryl. Turns out they went in the opposite direction. Oh well, at least we got to ride. xD
I was playing in the sea with Yi Lin and Daryl, and we started a small scale water fight. While trying to dodge one of Daryl's attacks, I fell down into the water. =s Not that I wasn't wet already, but still...I was salty! xD Quite fun though.
Played Bridge after that. At first, I was damn lucky, and whoever was my partner would win. For 5 whole sets. WOOTZ~ xD
Ahh...alot more stuff, but feeling lazy. And I just realised this post isn't really like my usual style. Oh well.
Butt hurts from sitting on the bike seat. I should use a cushion next time.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Went to East Coast with Avril, Yi Lin, Daryl, Elphin, Jason, Jin He and Serjia today. It was raining the whole time. Damn. Haha not that it wasn't fun.
Met Yi Lin at 7.15, and went on to Yio Chu Kang to meet Daryl and Serjia. Serjia was late! xD We overshot our bus stop and had to take it back. =x
Anyway, when we got there, it was raining so we decided against starting to cycle without the rest. And then, went to macs a little wet and ate food. Jason called saying that they were reaching already, and started laughing at us cos we left our houses so much earlier. In the end, it took them another half an hour at least to get there. xD
Finally got ourselves to get up and move, so we all started cycling. Cycling in the rain is fun! Rain on your face, wind whipping at it. Nice and cooling.
Serjia and I rode really really far, towards the Bedok Jetty side, looking for Jin He and Daryl. Turns out they went in the opposite direction. Oh well, at least we got to ride. xD
I was playing in the sea with Yi Lin and Daryl, and we started a small scale water fight. While trying to dodge one of Daryl's attacks, I fell down into the water. =s Not that I wasn't wet already, but still...I was salty! xD Quite fun though.
Played Bridge after that. At first, I was damn lucky, and whoever was my partner would win. For 5 whole sets. WOOTZ~ xD
Ahh...alot more stuff, but feeling lazy. And I just realised this post isn't really like my usual style. Oh well.
Butt hurts from sitting on the bike seat. I should use a cushion next time.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Sunday, December 2, 2007
Mozilla Firefox
Well, switched to Mozilla Firefox for my internet browser for some reason. My first reaction when I saw my blog was, "WHOA. The widgets are whole! I'm sticking to it."
But when I saw my blog heading, T.T.
Oh wells. Shall stick to it for now.
"If I really gave you faith, then I am glad that my efforts have reached someone."
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
But when I saw my blog heading, T.T.
Oh wells. Shall stick to it for now.
"If I really gave you faith, then I am glad that my efforts have reached someone."
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Saturday, December 1, 2007
Random Things...
I'm the last person I would have expected to feel this way.
Anyway, now my mum tells me that I still have to entertain the guests for tonights housewarming, even though none of them are my friends. Grr...I wanted to go to my room and be anti-social, but looks like thats not gonna work.
My dad's side is coming, and I haven't seen most of them in a really long time. Not exactly close with the kids there either. They're either too young, or too umm...I shall not say anything. Now I'm wondering if my nephew who is a year younger than me is coming. Then at least got someone to talk anime with. >.<
And then...mum's collegues. Seriously. Apart from having had dinner with some of them, and talking to them when I was just a primary school kid going to my mum's office during the holidays, I don't really know them. Haha.
Man, and I'm supposed to entertain them? I'm not good at these kind of things. Hai...
Oh wells. I'm considering putting up another song review, but haven't found a suitable song yet.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Anyway, now my mum tells me that I still have to entertain the guests for tonights housewarming, even though none of them are my friends. Grr...I wanted to go to my room and be anti-social, but looks like thats not gonna work.
My dad's side is coming, and I haven't seen most of them in a really long time. Not exactly close with the kids there either. They're either too young, or too umm...I shall not say anything. Now I'm wondering if my nephew who is a year younger than me is coming. Then at least got someone to talk anime with. >.<
And then...mum's collegues. Seriously. Apart from having had dinner with some of them, and talking to them when I was just a primary school kid going to my mum's office during the holidays, I don't really know them. Haha.
Man, and I'm supposed to entertain them? I'm not good at these kind of things. Hai...
Oh wells. I'm considering putting up another song review, but haven't found a suitable song yet.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Friday, November 30, 2007
Halo 3
Hahaha. Tiring day. But fun at the same time.
Walking around aimlessly was boring but fun. xD
Haha. Went over to Yi Lin's house to play Halo 3 too. Detaching turrets are gay man. Master Chief looks like Heavy Weapons guy from team fortress 2 when he does that. But spamming turret fire at hunters = ownage.
I still like the swords though. The hammer is a really really cool melee weapon, but not my kind of thing.
Stupid scorpians don't have machine guns anymore. );
Haha. Friendly Fire is a real blast. xD
So are poke fury attacks. ^^
I'm a smart girl, Daryl. I guessed correctly! xD Told you they would go to your house to surprise you! Haha.
Halo 3, at least in terms of gameplay, is still a really fun game. I like the imba turrets. xD
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Walking around aimlessly was boring but fun. xD
Haha. Went over to Yi Lin's house to play Halo 3 too. Detaching turrets are gay man. Master Chief looks like Heavy Weapons guy from team fortress 2 when he does that. But spamming turret fire at hunters = ownage.
I still like the swords though. The hammer is a really really cool melee weapon, but not my kind of thing.
Stupid scorpians don't have machine guns anymore. );
Haha. Friendly Fire is a real blast. xD
So are poke fury attacks. ^^
I'm a smart girl, Daryl. I guessed correctly! xD Told you they would go to your house to surprise you! Haha.
Halo 3, at least in terms of gameplay, is still a really fun game. I like the imba turrets. xD
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Thursday, November 29, 2007
O.o! >.<
Oh wow. No there is no next song. I am bored, but I'm also tired, so I'm going to sleep.
I do have a complaint though. Why is it that blog entries about song lyrics always seem the be the longest? Ahaha.
Ok. Really really sleepy. Nights all.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
I do have a complaint though. Why is it that blog entries about song lyrics always seem the be the longest? Ahaha.
Ok. Really really sleepy. Nights all.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Lyrics: Daybreak's Bell
This is by far my most active blog yet, and in a bid to keep it this way, I've added a random part. I shall post jap lyrics here, with translation of course, to let all marvel at the beauty of japanese characters. Of course, some characters are exactly the same as Chinese, but lets just ignore that part. =x Oh and I might just add song "reviews" while I'm at it. ^^
Avril said I sound ang moh when I'm speaking in Chinese. Oh no. I have let down my mother tongue.
Hmm...think I shall start with an overall review, then go into my favourite lines.
Anyways, here goes. Any mistakes made in spelling of terms and names are purely unintentional.
Anime: Gundam 00 (WOO! NEW GUNDAM SERIES. EXIA <3)
Artist: L'Arc-en-Ciel
Song Title: Daybreak's Bell
Well, its a cool song, and although the opening is not say, as "shiok" or "awesome" as other Gundam Opening songs, the chorus is pretty good. Especially when the lead goes into the high notes. Awesome. No idea how he does that. Just gay. Haha "My wishes over their airspace" whoo! Gay pitch. I can never ever hit that, unless I tried really really hard, and even then, it wouldn't sound very nice.
I like the intro though. And then when it launches into the song, you might go a little o.o that's it? Especially if you have heard other Gundam Songs.
BUT. It catches on after awhile. And as you listen and get used to the style of this song, it sounds pretty good. Catchy chorus too. It got me humming along. I would have sang, except for the gay notes in there. I am not good enough. =s
Another thing about this song, like most songs that catch my eye. Its lyrics are pretty meaningful. The essence of it (In gundam 00 context) is, Marina Ismail, princess of Azadistan [Don't ask, I think its supposed to be some reference to Afghanistan. Or maybe not.] wants Setsuna, our dear Protaganist and Pilot of Exia Gundam, to stop killing and bringing pain upon himself, and to live for tomorrow. Yes. Chase your dream. Typical stuff. ^^ But its all good.
Now, for my favourite lines.
[振り向かず羽ばたけこの想いを運んで あの空を飛んでく
願いは誰にも撃ち落せない]
{Furimukazu habatake kono omoi wo hakonde ano sora wo tondeku
Negai wa dare ni mo uchiotosenai}
Which essentially means,
Fly away without looking back, embrace the feelings within you, and spread it across the sky
Wishes cannot be shot down by anyone.
Ooh. Pretty. Colorful. xD
Thanks to Gendou.com for providing the lyrics.
On to the next song!
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Avril said I sound ang moh when I'm speaking in Chinese. Oh no. I have let down my mother tongue.
Hmm...think I shall start with an overall review, then go into my favourite lines.
Anyways, here goes. Any mistakes made in spelling of terms and names are purely unintentional.
Anime: Gundam 00 (WOO! NEW GUNDAM SERIES. EXIA <3)
Artist: L'Arc-en-Ciel
Song Title: Daybreak's Bell
Well, its a cool song, and although the opening is not say, as "shiok" or "awesome" as other Gundam Opening songs, the chorus is pretty good. Especially when the lead goes into the high notes. Awesome. No idea how he does that. Just gay. Haha "My wishes over their airspace" whoo! Gay pitch. I can never ever hit that, unless I tried really really hard, and even then, it wouldn't sound very nice.
I like the intro though. And then when it launches into the song, you might go a little o.o that's it? Especially if you have heard other Gundam Songs.
BUT. It catches on after awhile. And as you listen and get used to the style of this song, it sounds pretty good. Catchy chorus too. It got me humming along. I would have sang, except for the gay notes in there. I am not good enough. =s
Another thing about this song, like most songs that catch my eye. Its lyrics are pretty meaningful. The essence of it (In gundam 00 context) is, Marina Ismail, princess of Azadistan [Don't ask, I think its supposed to be some reference to Afghanistan. Or maybe not.] wants Setsuna, our dear Protaganist and Pilot of Exia Gundam, to stop killing and bringing pain upon himself, and to live for tomorrow. Yes. Chase your dream. Typical stuff. ^^ But its all good.
Now, for my favourite lines.
[振り向かず羽ばたけこの想いを運んで あの空を飛んでく
願いは誰にも撃ち落せない]
{Furimukazu habatake kono omoi wo hakonde ano sora wo tondeku
Negai wa dare ni mo uchiotosenai}
Which essentially means,
Fly away without looking back, embrace the feelings within you, and spread it across the sky
Wishes cannot be shot down by anyone.
Ooh. Pretty. Colorful. xD
Thanks to Gendou.com for providing the lyrics.
On to the next song!
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Bowling and stuff.
Hey! For some reason, been really tired the whole day. Whenever I could, I went to a corner and "slept".
Anyways, want bowling with some friends today, and when I took my usual 11 pound ball, I was surprised at how much lighter it felt...
Perhaps it was all the push-ups at basketball camp...Not that I'm complaining!
Alright, Yi Lin is feeling bored, so I'm going to wintermaul solo with her, so lets cut this short.
Daryl, that line at Sembawang was SUPER corny. =x I like your shoes! I like stepping on it more!
Haha bowling was fun. Arcade was fun too! Lunch was...weird...Haha Jason just manages to make everyone laugh. xD
I saw a BIG FAT DOGGY being sold at Plaza Singapura...So cute! Haha but man...its huge. As in. HUGE. I think...it would leave me feeling very squashed on the bed. Ahh. But its cute. I'm lacking a vampire though.
Not everything was smooth sailing, but oh well. Lets just hope everything works out.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Anyways, want bowling with some friends today, and when I took my usual 11 pound ball, I was surprised at how much lighter it felt...
Perhaps it was all the push-ups at basketball camp...Not that I'm complaining!
Alright, Yi Lin is feeling bored, so I'm going to wintermaul solo with her, so lets cut this short.
Daryl, that line at Sembawang was SUPER corny. =x I like your shoes! I like stepping on it more!
Haha bowling was fun. Arcade was fun too! Lunch was...weird...Haha Jason just manages to make everyone laugh. xD
I saw a BIG FAT DOGGY being sold at Plaza Singapura...So cute! Haha but man...its huge. As in. HUGE. I think...it would leave me feeling very squashed on the bed. Ahh. But its cute. I'm lacking a vampire though.
Not everything was smooth sailing, but oh well. Lets just hope everything works out.
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Saturday, November 24, 2007
3-2-1 BOOM!
I've exploded. Over lunch too. My tomyam mee hoon kuey...NOOO. Couldn't I have finished eating before declaring that I had lost my appetite? Ah. So hungry now. But a mixture of pride, being too headstrong and erm...anger? compels me not to step out of my room.
Not angry with anyone. Just her. AS USUAL. Haha.
Sometimes, I really wish I could just up and leave. Like, maybe sleep in the park for a few days. But I like my bed! So. Lock the door and pretend it's another place. WAH. PEACE AND SAFETY AT LAST. HAHA.
Oh yea anyway, yesterday, Yi Lin, Avril (sheck sheck =x), teddy bear, Daryl, Jin He and Nicholas came over to my house after playing basketball. HAHA!
Teddy Bear was the best. Well, one of the best. "I'm not eating lunch cos I got lunch waiting at home." And what time did he leave? 6 plus with the rest. LOL.
And when my sister came in to tell us we were making too much noise, Daryl said "Sorry Aunty." BUAHAHAHA. XD
DOH.
And today, SHE had to spoil all of that. Damn. No mood to dota even. NOOOOOO.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Not angry with anyone. Just her. AS USUAL. Haha.
Sometimes, I really wish I could just up and leave. Like, maybe sleep in the park for a few days. But I like my bed! So. Lock the door and pretend it's another place. WAH. PEACE AND SAFETY AT LAST. HAHA.
Oh yea anyway, yesterday, Yi Lin, Avril (sheck sheck =x), teddy bear, Daryl, Jin He and Nicholas came over to my house after playing basketball. HAHA!
Teddy Bear was the best. Well, one of the best. "I'm not eating lunch cos I got lunch waiting at home." And what time did he leave? 6 plus with the rest. LOL.
And when my sister came in to tell us we were making too much noise, Daryl said "Sorry Aunty." BUAHAHAHA. XD
DOH.
And today, SHE had to spoil all of that. Damn. No mood to dota even. NOOOOOO.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
If all women from Venus are like that, thank goodness I'm from Pluto.
As of this moment, this is currently my MSN nickname. And I think it pretty much speaks for itself. Oh wells.
Err...but yea. If all the women in the world are like that one. I'm glad I'm a blur sotong who lives in my own world. ^^
On another note. I LIKE MY MSN FONT RIGHT NOW. haha.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Err...but yea. If all the women in the world are like that one. I'm glad I'm a blur sotong who lives in my own world. ^^
On another note. I LIKE MY MSN FONT RIGHT NOW. haha.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Breakfast at Coffee Bean
Haha had breakfast with my Godma today, perhaps my first time having a good ol' fashioned talk with her. It was an enjoyable breakfast, and yes, it was good to see my Godma after so long, the last having been on Confirmation.
Well, christmas is coming really soon! Haha but I realise that everytime christmas rolls round, I'm pretty much too broke to get gifts for anyone. NOOOOOOOO. Haha. So, this year might be another giftless year. Damn. Better save and economise for now. Haha.
My trip to Japan got cancelled. T.T Boo Hoo.
ZZZ. So. Sleepy.
Super short post. Who cares. ^^
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Well, christmas is coming really soon! Haha but I realise that everytime christmas rolls round, I'm pretty much too broke to get gifts for anyone. NOOOOOOOO. Haha. So, this year might be another giftless year. Damn. Better save and economise for now. Haha.
My trip to Japan got cancelled. T.T Boo Hoo.
ZZZ. So. Sleepy.
Super short post. Who cares. ^^
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Sunday, November 18, 2007
GRAH!
Well, switched on my lappy with every intention of updating my fanfiction before writing proper, and while I still have that intention, searching for a certain song led to a whole lot of songs being added to the page. Well, at least you guys have the music to accompany the lyrics now! I'll try and add more lyrics and songs here if you guys want, so yea.
Now, I have to go write.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Now, I have to go write.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Friday, November 16, 2007
Graduation
A night of glitz and glamour, in a different way for each individual. While most were dressed in pretty dresses and stunning gowns, there were those who, like me, wore pants! Haha! Aww. Haha. My table sported a total of 3 white ties! Haha and Savie's tie was the same color as mine. Except. My tie is a cheater. Haha its one of those zipper kinds...don't need to tie! WHEEEEEEE. Haha.
Shall post up the pictures at another time, when I do actually get them. Because I forgot to bring my camera along! Haha not that I'm complaining. Being camera man is great. It means you don't need to be IN the photos. HAHA.
It was a nice dinner, except I was still hungry! And I don't like strawberry deserts!! =x
After dinner, there was this activity where our form teacher took a ball of wool, and we each threw it to one person, saying something nice about that person at the same time. We tied a length of it around our fingers before throwing, so that it eventually formed a web. Many were the times the ball of wool went down before reaching its target, and seeing as how we were wearing pants, Savie and I picked it up whenever possible. But even with all thelaughter and misses, the web was eventually completed, and we were all linked. Then, came the next part.
Our form teacher took out a pair of scissors and cut the string, supposedly setting us free from our Secondary school memories so we could fly free. My classmates were shouting "NO! MRS KUNNA DON'T DO IT!"
On a mischievous streak, Savie and I did ask Mrs Kunna to do the evil laugh before she started cutting the string. =x "MUAHAHA."
Eventually, with much ado, the string was cut, and everybody got a piece of it to bring home with them. And so ends our journey as students of the school.
Grah. Shall stop here. Having hangover symptoms although I didn't drink. And when I do drink? No hangover. My body is contrary.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Shall post up the pictures at another time, when I do actually get them. Because I forgot to bring my camera along! Haha not that I'm complaining. Being camera man is great. It means you don't need to be IN the photos. HAHA.
It was a nice dinner, except I was still hungry! And I don't like strawberry deserts!! =x
After dinner, there was this activity where our form teacher took a ball of wool, and we each threw it to one person, saying something nice about that person at the same time. We tied a length of it around our fingers before throwing, so that it eventually formed a web. Many were the times the ball of wool went down before reaching its target, and seeing as how we were wearing pants, Savie and I picked it up whenever possible. But even with all thelaughter and misses, the web was eventually completed, and we were all linked. Then, came the next part.
Our form teacher took out a pair of scissors and cut the string, supposedly setting us free from our Secondary school memories so we could fly free. My classmates were shouting "NO! MRS KUNNA DON'T DO IT!"
On a mischievous streak, Savie and I did ask Mrs Kunna to do the evil laugh before she started cutting the string. =x "MUAHAHA."
Eventually, with much ado, the string was cut, and everybody got a piece of it to bring home with them. And so ends our journey as students of the school.
Grah. Shall stop here. Having hangover symptoms although I didn't drink. And when I do drink? No hangover. My body is contrary.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Should I?
Haha! My blog has more and more lyrics every day...RARR. Now, is that a good or bad thing?
Oh well...its all good. Nice music. Xp
On another, equally random note, should I join Nanowrimo this year? What with agreeing to help one of my friend's friend with english, and O's cutting into the month of november, and all the paegant practices that are going to be on, its gonna be a tight schedule.
November starts tomorrow, and I haven't even decided on a theme IF I'm gonna join Nano this year. Dang.
For all who don't know what the heck I'm talking about, Nanowrimo is a challange to writers. "Complete a 50,000 word Novel in the month of November." Grammar, story value, its all up to you. They just want to count the words. And that's where the biggest challange comes in. Will you choose to write a crappy story just for the sake of the word count? No prizes are given even if you win, so why torture yourself like that?
Because it's fun! ^^ You may think I'm mad, and perhaps I am. Mad about writing.
To those who are interested, here's the webbie:
www.nanowrimo.org
That should do it. Now, back to my contemplation of whether or not to join this year.
The challanging schedule I'm gonna have is SO appealing. It'll be so fun (as well as stressful) to try and reach the word count by the end of the month.
Rarr...
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Oh well...its all good. Nice music. Xp
On another, equally random note, should I join Nanowrimo this year? What with agreeing to help one of my friend's friend with english, and O's cutting into the month of november, and all the paegant practices that are going to be on, its gonna be a tight schedule.
November starts tomorrow, and I haven't even decided on a theme IF I'm gonna join Nano this year. Dang.
For all who don't know what the heck I'm talking about, Nanowrimo is a challange to writers. "Complete a 50,000 word Novel in the month of November." Grammar, story value, its all up to you. They just want to count the words. And that's where the biggest challange comes in. Will you choose to write a crappy story just for the sake of the word count? No prizes are given even if you win, so why torture yourself like that?
Because it's fun! ^^ You may think I'm mad, and perhaps I am. Mad about writing.
To those who are interested, here's the webbie:
www.nanowrimo.org
That should do it. Now, back to my contemplation of whether or not to join this year.
The challanging schedule I'm gonna have is SO appealing. It'll be so fun (as well as stressful) to try and reach the word count by the end of the month.
Rarr...
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Thanks!
Yes, that was a random emo post. And this is an equally random thank you post.
Thanks Teddy Bear! Just the fact that you were willing to listen helped a lot! A LOT!
Thanks Avril! For listening so sweetly, and giving me your thoughts and advice! -hugs-
Thanks gor! For encouraging me!
And thanks to the thrashtalk crew! You guys made me laugh! It helped loads!
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Thanks Teddy Bear! Just the fact that you were willing to listen helped a lot! A LOT!
Thanks Avril! For listening so sweetly, and giving me your thoughts and advice! -hugs-
Thanks gor! For encouraging me!
And thanks to the thrashtalk crew! You guys made me laugh! It helped loads!
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
I couldn't answer
I had a dream. I dreamed I was dead. And when I went up to heaven, the Lord asked me if I had lived a life with no regrets.
I couldn't answer.
He asked if I had lived a fulfilling life, and if I had managed to touch anyone's lives.
I couldn't answer.
He asked, if I had managed to forgive everyone who might have ever have irritated me.
I couldn't answer.
He shook his head sadly, and asked, "Then, my child, did you manage to forgive yourself?"
I stared at him. And stared. And the tears started to fall.
I couldn't answer him.
That heart of mine, so full of anger, self-hatred, and selfish thoughts. And I had to open it up and show it to him. I couldn't bear it. I had taken every single one of his expectations and thrown them to the ground, ground them in. How was it that I could still face him?
I hadn't used the gifts he had given me. I was like the servant who hid his master's talents into the ground, and when his master returned, gave the talents back saying "Here it is. I didn't spend it or take a piece from it."
What right did I have to talk to him?
I couldn't answer.
But it was too late. I was dead. And I couldn't turn back time. I regreted my life. And I cried.
"If only I had told my mum how much it hurt."
"If only I had told him how much he meant to me."
"If only I could have forgiven them."
"If only I could forgive myself."
And as I stood there, I stared at him. And I wept.
I found myself trembling. I was afraid. So afraid.
I didn't want to be thrown into eternal suffering.
And so I cried. The tears which had refused to be shed when I was alive fell now that I was dead.
And then he asked, "Do you think you deserve to enter these gates of heaven?"
And I couldn't answer.
No. This isn't a real dream. Was just feeling depressed, so I decided to write this random emo story. But, the fears in there are real. Well, mostly.
He asked me if I had given love.
And I couldn't answer.
I couldn't answer.
He asked if I had lived a fulfilling life, and if I had managed to touch anyone's lives.
I couldn't answer.
He asked, if I had managed to forgive everyone who might have ever have irritated me.
I couldn't answer.
He shook his head sadly, and asked, "Then, my child, did you manage to forgive yourself?"
I stared at him. And stared. And the tears started to fall.
I couldn't answer him.
That heart of mine, so full of anger, self-hatred, and selfish thoughts. And I had to open it up and show it to him. I couldn't bear it. I had taken every single one of his expectations and thrown them to the ground, ground them in. How was it that I could still face him?
I hadn't used the gifts he had given me. I was like the servant who hid his master's talents into the ground, and when his master returned, gave the talents back saying "Here it is. I didn't spend it or take a piece from it."
What right did I have to talk to him?
I couldn't answer.
But it was too late. I was dead. And I couldn't turn back time. I regreted my life. And I cried.
"If only I had told my mum how much it hurt."
"If only I had told him how much he meant to me."
"If only I could have forgiven them."
"If only I could forgive myself."
And as I stood there, I stared at him. And I wept.
I found myself trembling. I was afraid. So afraid.
I didn't want to be thrown into eternal suffering.
And so I cried. The tears which had refused to be shed when I was alive fell now that I was dead.
And then he asked, "Do you think you deserve to enter these gates of heaven?"
And I couldn't answer.
No. This isn't a real dream. Was just feeling depressed, so I decided to write this random emo story. But, the fears in there are real. Well, mostly.
He asked me if I had given love.
And I couldn't answer.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Strength comes from...genes?!
Ok. I'm guessing most you guys reading this went, "WHAT THE HELL?!" at the title. But that IS the main topic.
Was talking to my Dad over dinner just now, and he was saying something about how my grandma is old and sickly, and how she makes life difficult for the people around her. So I added that my mom probably got her tyrannical mood swings from my grandma. (Those of you who know me probably know what I'm talking about.) Anyway, I added that it had been passed from mother to daughter not once, but twice. From grandma to mom, from mom to sis.
"Thank goodness I'm the younger kid, so my sis took all the grumpy genes." LOLZ
Dad said maybe I got the grumpy genes too, so I said "Nah. I'm more like you."
Hot-tempered for sure, but not petty as well. I can forget why I blow up most of the time. Except in certain circumstances, that is. Anyway, my dad told me about how his mom, (who died when I was about 2 years of age) was very sick but never complained, and how she suffered in silence instead of making a big fuss. She was indeed a very strong woman, who brought up a whole gaggle of children on her own.
My dad, like her, is strong of heart. And I am glad to say that I inherited that quality from him! Those of you who have heard me share about how bad my mum can get and how unreasonable she is would understand what I mean. I guess most normal people would already have turned to drugs if they were in my shoes?
Then again, I probably would not have made it this far if not for the support of my friends. They gave me strength to carry on when I was at my weakest, and those who are really close to me have even seen my tears when I felt like I could go no further, and when I most felt like giving up.
Thanks to all of you guys!
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Was talking to my Dad over dinner just now, and he was saying something about how my grandma is old and sickly, and how she makes life difficult for the people around her. So I added that my mom probably got her tyrannical mood swings from my grandma. (Those of you who know me probably know what I'm talking about.) Anyway, I added that it had been passed from mother to daughter not once, but twice. From grandma to mom, from mom to sis.
"Thank goodness I'm the younger kid, so my sis took all the grumpy genes." LOLZ
Dad said maybe I got the grumpy genes too, so I said "Nah. I'm more like you."
Hot-tempered for sure, but not petty as well. I can forget why I blow up most of the time. Except in certain circumstances, that is. Anyway, my dad told me about how his mom, (who died when I was about 2 years of age) was very sick but never complained, and how she suffered in silence instead of making a big fuss. She was indeed a very strong woman, who brought up a whole gaggle of children on her own.
My dad, like her, is strong of heart. And I am glad to say that I inherited that quality from him! Those of you who have heard me share about how bad my mum can get and how unreasonable she is would understand what I mean. I guess most normal people would already have turned to drugs if they were in my shoes?
Then again, I probably would not have made it this far if not for the support of my friends. They gave me strength to carry on when I was at my weakest, and those who are really close to me have even seen my tears when I felt like I could go no further, and when I most felt like giving up.
Thanks to all of you guys!
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Saturday, October 20, 2007
True Love
Hmm...Well, was chatting with a couple of people, and somehow, this became the main topic.
"Do you think True Love exists?" (Between People)
From there, quite obviously, the conversation went two ways. The believers and the non-believers. And my answer to that question showed me how much my thinking had changed.
In the past, my answer would probably have been "YES! I believe that there is such a thing."
But perhaps that was never my honest opinion, right from the start.
However, what Jason and I said was this:
True Love does not exist. (SHOCK. I know some of you will be shocked that I had this reply. XP But wait. It goes deeper.)
Our reasoning was that since humans are imperfect, human love is flawed, and that true love needed to be flawless, so true love does not exist. Perhaps the only being that has true love is God. More on this later.
So then, the opposition (haha) YiLin and Elphin, said that True Love did not have to be flawless, as when both people in a relationship are able to believe in it, and imagine it, it will come true in the couple's heart eventually. In Elphin's words, "The definition of true love is only between the couple."
Well, it all rests on what your definition of True Love is right?
But I was honestly quite surprised with my answer at first. Yet it came out so naturally, and I think that this is what I honestly believe deep inside.
Not that I don't believe in Love. It's just that I think human love is limited to strong love, because of the weakness within the human heart. True Love comes ONLY from God, the one true perfect being, and the Trinity that forms God.
Catholic stuff. ^^
"For God so loved the world that he sent his only son to die for us."
Perhaps some might say, I can do that too! I'm willing to sacrifice my life for the one I love.
One CAN, however, look at it this way.
Perhaps the human mind can only understand so much, we are instead limiting the greater sacrifice behind that action, and the Love it took for that action to be carried out?
At the end of the day, it all lies on personal opinion doesn't it?
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
"Do you think True Love exists?" (Between People)
From there, quite obviously, the conversation went two ways. The believers and the non-believers. And my answer to that question showed me how much my thinking had changed.
In the past, my answer would probably have been "YES! I believe that there is such a thing."
But perhaps that was never my honest opinion, right from the start.
However, what Jason and I said was this:
True Love does not exist. (SHOCK. I know some of you will be shocked that I had this reply. XP But wait. It goes deeper.)
Our reasoning was that since humans are imperfect, human love is flawed, and that true love needed to be flawless, so true love does not exist. Perhaps the only being that has true love is God. More on this later.
So then, the opposition (haha) YiLin and Elphin, said that True Love did not have to be flawless, as when both people in a relationship are able to believe in it, and imagine it, it will come true in the couple's heart eventually. In Elphin's words, "The definition of true love is only between the couple."
Well, it all rests on what your definition of True Love is right?
But I was honestly quite surprised with my answer at first. Yet it came out so naturally, and I think that this is what I honestly believe deep inside.
Not that I don't believe in Love. It's just that I think human love is limited to strong love, because of the weakness within the human heart. True Love comes ONLY from God, the one true perfect being, and the Trinity that forms God.
Catholic stuff. ^^
"For God so loved the world that he sent his only son to die for us."
Perhaps some might say, I can do that too! I'm willing to sacrifice my life for the one I love.
One CAN, however, look at it this way.
Perhaps the human mind can only understand so much, we are instead limiting the greater sacrifice behind that action, and the Love it took for that action to be carried out?
At the end of the day, it all lies on personal opinion doesn't it?
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Cute Song!!
Still Alive
This was a triumph.
I’m making a note here: HUGE SUCCESS!
It’s hard to overstate my satisfaction
Aperture Science
We do what we must because we can
For the good of all of us
Except the ones who are dead.
But there’s no sense crying over every mistake,
You just keep on trying till you run out of cake
And the science gets done and you make a neat gun
For the people who are still alive!
I’m not even angry
I’m being so sincere right now
Even though you broke my heart and killed me.
And tore me to pieces
And threw every piece into afire
As they burned it hurt because
I was so happy for you
Now these points of data make a beautiful line
And we’re out of beta, we’re releasing on time
So I’m glad I got burned
Think of all the things we learned
For the people who are still alive!
Go ahead and leave me
I think I prefer to stay inside
Maybe you’ll find someone else to help you
Maybe Black Mesa.
That was a joke, HA HA
FAT CHANCE
Anyway, this cake is great
It’s so delicious and moist
Look at me, still talking when there’s science to do.
When I look up there, it makes me glad I’m not you
I’ve experiments to run
There is research to be done on the people who are still alive!
And believe me I am still alive
I’m doing science and I’m still alive
I feel fantastic and I’m still alive
While you’re dying, I’ll be still alive
And when you’re dead, I will be still alive
Still Alive~
OK. This song is just too cute! It's from this way cool game, Portal.
SUPER FUNNY.
Lolz.
Alright. That's it for now.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Friday, October 19, 2007
T.T!!!!!
Rarr. Another sleepless night, my second in a row...slept for all of 3 hours, then got up at four. Try as I might, I just couldn't get back to sleep. SOBS. So went and played audition. XP
Surprisingly, I'm not all that exhuasted right now. While there IS the slight nagging sensation at the back of my head, I'm actually quite wide awake. Maybe not as alert as I would normally be, and FAR from my normal processing speed, but still. It's surprising.
Still, wish I could have caught a few more hours of rest. Fiona and Sophia are coming over to my house to study today (though we probably will end up playing more), and it would have been good to have a brain ready to absorb info. The way things are going, I'm not gonna learn anything today. Nope. Nada. Zilch.
Haha...still...3 hours is better than nothing. Guess I should be thankful I even had those 3 hours. XP Better late than never, I say! Oh wait. Wrong quote. XP
Shucks...looks like my instinctive coping technique is leaping into action. Looks like I'm gonna be on high for the rest of the day. DANG. Oh well...I'm mostly always high anyway.
Haha. Fiona just told me that she and Sophia won't be able to make it. Oh no. I'm gonna be alone, with my poor aching head. T.T -sob sob- OVERDRAMATISATION!!!!!
O-k...Looks like my brain is kicking into overdrive. Should end this post here. Perhaps some coffee would sober me up? Or perhaps...it would just make me worse. XP
Oh wells.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Surprisingly, I'm not all that exhuasted right now. While there IS the slight nagging sensation at the back of my head, I'm actually quite wide awake. Maybe not as alert as I would normally be, and FAR from my normal processing speed, but still. It's surprising.
Still, wish I could have caught a few more hours of rest. Fiona and Sophia are coming over to my house to study today (though we probably will end up playing more), and it would have been good to have a brain ready to absorb info. The way things are going, I'm not gonna learn anything today. Nope. Nada. Zilch.
Haha...still...3 hours is better than nothing. Guess I should be thankful I even had those 3 hours. XP Better late than never, I say! Oh wait. Wrong quote. XP
Shucks...looks like my instinctive coping technique is leaping into action. Looks like I'm gonna be on high for the rest of the day. DANG. Oh well...I'm mostly always high anyway.
Haha. Fiona just told me that she and Sophia won't be able to make it. Oh no. I'm gonna be alone, with my poor aching head. T.T -sob sob- OVERDRAMATISATION!!!!!
O-k...Looks like my brain is kicking into overdrive. Should end this post here. Perhaps some coffee would sober me up? Or perhaps...it would just make me worse. XP
Oh wells.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
ThrashTalk Crew
One thing led to another, and before I knew it, I was part of the thrashtalk crew. Got promoted to senior post by the president the very next day too! o.O Now...is that a good or bad thing?
I can't deny that I enjoy myself though. Many are the times I find myself lost in the sea of words, and yet I still find the experience nothing short of enjoyable. In that kind of environment, it's just much easier to relax and be yourself, and you don't have to be worried about someone taking your insults seriously. Well, not much anyway.
But seriously...how can you enjoy yourself so much when you are surrounded by all things horny and little things sweet? I have no idea, but it just works that way.
Oh and I have dubbed myself wondergirl, with GT as my pro sidekick. o.O (Don't ask me. He came up with the name himself. XP)
YES! This post is finally shaping out to be what its supposed to be! A random, corny, lame post! Lol.
My rank in the crew is now P-V. (Self-appointed.) It was supposed to be written PV but YL said it looked like pervert, so I added the dash for good measure.
I know I aint exactly making much sense right now. There are a couple of VERY good (really!) explanations for that. First and foremost, I slept at 2 am yesterday, and my stupid internal alarm system couldn't cope, and woke me up at 7.30 am. I did try to go back to sleep, but was left tossing and turning till I gave up at 8 plus. I did try to take a nap in the afternoon, but that didn't work either, cos the workers came over to fix up my new bookshelf. Gosh, all that hammering left my brain reverbarating within my skull. XD Stupid thing is still hurting now. =S
Speaking of Migraines, that is the second reason behind my incoherency. My brain exploded you see, and no brain equates to dumbness. Well, and death as well. So I'm a shinigami now. FEAR ME. MUAHAHAHA!
Now what WAS the third reason? I seem to have forgotten...Oh yea! My brain is on reverse gear today, and the shift is jammed, so I'm stuck this way for now. Oh wells.
On to more serious things. Science practical is tomorrow. AHHH! Oh well..freaking out won't help much. So anyway...I shall just try my best.
Deco rocks my socks, though the grammar and sentence structure leave much to be desired...
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
I can't deny that I enjoy myself though. Many are the times I find myself lost in the sea of words, and yet I still find the experience nothing short of enjoyable. In that kind of environment, it's just much easier to relax and be yourself, and you don't have to be worried about someone taking your insults seriously. Well, not much anyway.
But seriously...how can you enjoy yourself so much when you are surrounded by all things horny and little things sweet? I have no idea, but it just works that way.
Oh and I have dubbed myself wondergirl, with GT as my pro sidekick. o.O (Don't ask me. He came up with the name himself. XP)
YES! This post is finally shaping out to be what its supposed to be! A random, corny, lame post! Lol.
My rank in the crew is now P-V. (Self-appointed.) It was supposed to be written PV but YL said it looked like pervert, so I added the dash for good measure.
I know I aint exactly making much sense right now. There are a couple of VERY good (really!) explanations for that. First and foremost, I slept at 2 am yesterday, and my stupid internal alarm system couldn't cope, and woke me up at 7.30 am. I did try to go back to sleep, but was left tossing and turning till I gave up at 8 plus. I did try to take a nap in the afternoon, but that didn't work either, cos the workers came over to fix up my new bookshelf. Gosh, all that hammering left my brain reverbarating within my skull. XD Stupid thing is still hurting now. =S
Speaking of Migraines, that is the second reason behind my incoherency. My brain exploded you see, and no brain equates to dumbness. Well, and death as well. So I'm a shinigami now. FEAR ME. MUAHAHAHA!
Now what WAS the third reason? I seem to have forgotten...Oh yea! My brain is on reverse gear today, and the shift is jammed, so I'm stuck this way for now. Oh wells.
On to more serious things. Science practical is tomorrow. AHHH! Oh well..freaking out won't help much. So anyway...I shall just try my best.
Deco rocks my socks, though the grammar and sentence structure leave much to be desired...
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Whee!
Shifted house a few weeks ago, and thanks to that, I FINALLY got internet connection! YAY! Haha
Well, two people whom I haven't seen in church for a really long time came back today. HURRAH! Haha.
Anyway, this is an UBER random post, cos I just felt like it. Haha.
Hai...Exams coming... T.T
Oh yea! There's this jap song I really really like, cos the words are meaningful! Shall post the lyrics another day, but there are these three consecutive lines that have got to be my fav!
「未来を遠くにかざしてる・・・」
"Mirai o tooku ni kazashiteru"
煌めいた世界 遠い記憶は
Kirameita sekai to iki oku wa
見上げた空 夢を呼び起こす
Miageta sora yume o yobi okosu
Simply translated:
"I'm hoisting the future up, far in the distance..."
My far off memories are of a world that shined
I look up to the sky, and call my dreams to mind.
Thanks to gendou from which I got the lyrics. ^^
Anyway, gotta go study for Amath.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Well, two people whom I haven't seen in church for a really long time came back today. HURRAH! Haha.
Anyway, this is an UBER random post, cos I just felt like it. Haha.
Hai...Exams coming... T.T
Oh yea! There's this jap song I really really like, cos the words are meaningful! Shall post the lyrics another day, but there are these three consecutive lines that have got to be my fav!
「未来を遠くにかざしてる・・・」
"Mirai o tooku ni kazashiteru"
煌めいた世界 遠い記憶は
Kirameita sekai to iki oku wa
見上げた空 夢を呼び起こす
Miageta sora yume o yobi okosu
Simply translated:
"I'm hoisting the future up, far in the distance..."
My far off memories are of a world that shined
I look up to the sky, and call my dreams to mind.
Thanks to gendou from which I got the lyrics. ^^
Anyway, gotta go study for Amath.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Monday, August 27, 2007
Insomnia???
Hai...so sleepy now...couldn't sleep all of last night. And the strangest thing was, I wasn't worried, upset, or excited about ANYTHING! This is the nth time its happened. Sian.
Still suffering from it now, I think. Still can't fall asleep.
My history paper is gonna suffer for this! I barely made it past physics!
3 papers in one day. It can't get more tortourous than that. Can it?
GOSH! Why the heck must history start at 2.30?
Groan. Me head hurts.
Haha oh wells. I CAN DO IT!
Planning to stay home for first month anyway. Can write!! ^^
Anyway, the youth ministry organised a car wash yesterday. SO FUN!!!
Argh...My head's killing me...better end here. LOL.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Still suffering from it now, I think. Still can't fall asleep.
My history paper is gonna suffer for this! I barely made it past physics!
3 papers in one day. It can't get more tortourous than that. Can it?
GOSH! Why the heck must history start at 2.30?
Groan. Me head hurts.
Haha oh wells. I CAN DO IT!
Planning to stay home for first month anyway. Can write!! ^^
Anyway, the youth ministry organised a car wash yesterday. SO FUN!!!
Argh...My head's killing me...better end here. LOL.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Thursday, August 23, 2007
One more day to my death day...
I am so going to die tomorrow. Have been mugging, but still don't understand a thing of amath.
And now, someone comes and tells me that there's geog lesson after amath. Like, MADNESS. I am never going to survive tomorrow. If anyone posts here, it will be my earthbound spirirt. ^^
Oh well...
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
And now, someone comes and tells me that there's geog lesson after amath. Like, MADNESS. I am never going to survive tomorrow. If anyone posts here, it will be my earthbound spirirt. ^^
Oh well...
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
HEYIO!
Okie got to use the internet, so am updating again.
Got a B4 for my Chinese! When my teacher asked if I wanted to retake, I thought, "Are you mad?". Considering I normally get C6s, this was like a miracle mark for me! Haha so quite obviously, I chose to be happy with my current results. FREE PERIODS DURING CHINESE!!!
Yea. Getting hyper just thinking bout it. Free from Chinese! For now. Haha.
And I had my English O'Level orals on Monday. Think I pretty much nailed it? Haha. Keeping my fingers crossed there? Uh...I got a similar conversation topic for my prelims? Wahaha. And the second one. "Tourism. Is it good or bad?" Whahaha. Geoggers, you had better have aced that one! Haha. Geog terms came spilling out of my mouth before I knew it. ^^
But not all has been smooth sailing. Had my Social Studies Prelims on Monday, and I think I'm gonna fail.. >.< Lost 20 marks due to poor time management. Hai. Thank goodness its still prelims.
And this Friday...Additional Mathematics Prelims! That shall be my death day. T.T
Oh well...Enough ranting. Haha.
Apparently, this was on some newspaper or magazine? "Singapore is a democratic socialist state." How bout that?
Riiiiiight. I still don't buy that. ^^
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Got a B4 for my Chinese! When my teacher asked if I wanted to retake, I thought, "Are you mad?". Considering I normally get C6s, this was like a miracle mark for me! Haha so quite obviously, I chose to be happy with my current results. FREE PERIODS DURING CHINESE!!!
Yea. Getting hyper just thinking bout it. Free from Chinese! For now. Haha.
And I had my English O'Level orals on Monday. Think I pretty much nailed it? Haha. Keeping my fingers crossed there? Uh...I got a similar conversation topic for my prelims? Wahaha. And the second one. "Tourism. Is it good or bad?" Whahaha. Geoggers, you had better have aced that one! Haha. Geog terms came spilling out of my mouth before I knew it. ^^
But not all has been smooth sailing. Had my Social Studies Prelims on Monday, and I think I'm gonna fail.. >.< Lost 20 marks due to poor time management. Hai. Thank goodness its still prelims.
And this Friday...Additional Mathematics Prelims! That shall be my death day. T.T
Oh well...Enough ranting. Haha.
Apparently, this was on some newspaper or magazine? "Singapore is a democratic socialist state." How bout that?
Riiiiiight. I still don't buy that. ^^
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Sunday, August 12, 2007
BACK! For the moment...
HELLO! It's been a long time since I've blogged, and its gonna be a long time again after this post! Haha
Sitting in macs and rotting now. My internet connection at home has been down for forever...SO SAD!
As you can see, I'm hyper now. All Teddy Bear's fault!!! Make me laugh only...and stop tsking me! WAHAHA.
SEE??? Tsk me again! Stupid bear! And no, Sebestian, I'm not talking bout you.
Hahaha. Anyway, tomorrow taking O' Level Mother Tongue results. I hope I pass. Then don't need to retake.
Sobs.
Oh yea. Need for speed most wanted. A must play for fans of racing games. Haha. I enjoy wrecking those irritating police cars. And Civi cars too! No no I'm not sadistic. It's just the way the game is.
Damn sian.
Oh well...that's it for now.
See Mich? I updated! Haha
Ja' ne!
Ade
Sitting in macs and rotting now. My internet connection at home has been down for forever...SO SAD!
As you can see, I'm hyper now. All Teddy Bear's fault!!! Make me laugh only...and stop tsking me! WAHAHA.
SEE??? Tsk me again! Stupid bear! And no, Sebestian, I'm not talking bout you.
Hahaha. Anyway, tomorrow taking O' Level Mother Tongue results. I hope I pass. Then don't need to retake.
Sobs.
Oh yea. Need for speed most wanted. A must play for fans of racing games. Haha. I enjoy wrecking those irritating police cars. And Civi cars too! No no I'm not sadistic. It's just the way the game is.
Damn sian.
Oh well...that's it for now.
See Mich? I updated! Haha
Ja' ne!
Ade
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Camp
Still sitting in coffee bean now, so I've decided to blog about the camp. Well, the first night was pretty much Praise and Worship and then we went to sleep.
Speaking of the first night...I ate FOUR packets of instant noodles for lunch, and I still ate a whole packet of rice for dinner! WHEE!!!
*Ahem* sorry for that sidetrack.
We girls studied for a little while, and then we conked out. Wah. Dolphin was power lar...one minute she was doing her jap composition, the next minute, she went "Don't want to do le! I'm tired!" And within two minutes, she was asleep.
Power. I could never do that unless I am SUPER tired.
Anyway, the aircon in the girls' room spoilt...it was so stuffy...Der and I had problems sleeping... T.T
Even when I had FINALLY managed to fall asleep, I still couldn't stay asleep. I woke up at 6am, and tried to go back to sleep. At 6.30, I gave up and went to freshen up. Then, stoned in the corridor cos I didn't want to take the chance of waking my roomates up. LOL. After stoning for more than an hour, I heard voices drifting up the stairs from the level below, and guessed that some of the guys were awake, so I went to keep my stuff and then helped them prepare breakfast. It was our group's forfeit for having lost a game the previous night.
After having put all the luncheon meat into the microwave, we sat around drinking coffee/milo, and in Jason's case, tea, and waited for the rest to wake up. One by one, people began drifting in. I waited and waited. And waited. I WAS THE ONLY GIRL AWAKE! Even the girls in my group were sleeping. PANG SEH! MICH!!! HAha.
Anyway, the girls finally woke up, and we began eating. I ate alot. ALOT. RIGHT?! HAHA. MICH! I know you were quite horrified by the amount that I ate. LOLZ.
NOT IN THE RIGHT MOOD FOR THE SERIOUS REFLECTIONS NOW. >.< BYE!
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Speaking of the first night...I ate FOUR packets of instant noodles for lunch, and I still ate a whole packet of rice for dinner! WHEE!!!
*Ahem* sorry for that sidetrack.
We girls studied for a little while, and then we conked out. Wah. Dolphin was power lar...one minute she was doing her jap composition, the next minute, she went "Don't want to do le! I'm tired!" And within two minutes, she was asleep.
Power. I could never do that unless I am SUPER tired.
Anyway, the aircon in the girls' room spoilt...it was so stuffy...Der and I had problems sleeping... T.T
Even when I had FINALLY managed to fall asleep, I still couldn't stay asleep. I woke up at 6am, and tried to go back to sleep. At 6.30, I gave up and went to freshen up. Then, stoned in the corridor cos I didn't want to take the chance of waking my roomates up. LOL. After stoning for more than an hour, I heard voices drifting up the stairs from the level below, and guessed that some of the guys were awake, so I went to keep my stuff and then helped them prepare breakfast. It was our group's forfeit for having lost a game the previous night.
After having put all the luncheon meat into the microwave, we sat around drinking coffee/milo, and in Jason's case, tea, and waited for the rest to wake up. One by one, people began drifting in. I waited and waited. And waited. I WAS THE ONLY GIRL AWAKE! Even the girls in my group were sleeping. PANG SEH! MICH!!! HAha.
Anyway, the girls finally woke up, and we began eating. I ate alot. ALOT. RIGHT?! HAHA. MICH! I know you were quite horrified by the amount that I ate. LOLZ.
NOT IN THE RIGHT MOOD FOR THE SERIOUS REFLECTIONS NOW. >.< BYE!
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Coffee Bean
HELLO!! I'm hyper now cos I've had a WHOLE MUG of coffee. HAHA thanks Mich! The coffee was good!! HAHA and the carrot cake was so sweet!!!! RARR am in overdrive now...
Hmm...Have yet to blog about the confirmation camp...Shall try and do it soon...
Things to note...WHO'S GOING TO CREATE THE CATHECHISM CLASS BLOG?! ROFL.
Anyway, perhaps I am a little too high?
Can't wait to start writing my fanfic when I get home. I've started on a new one!!! haha so basically, I have three ongoing at the same time...not like my updates are very regular...but yea...I just couldn't resist...The new idea hit me one night, and IT REFUSED TO GET OUT OF MY HEAD. RARR...
:)
Okok shall do some reflections about the camp here...the more light-hearted ones, since I'm not exactly in the mood for such serious things now. LOL.
OUR CLASS BECAME MORE BONDED DURING THE CAMP! Hahaha. Yeap cos the girls and guys NEVER used to mix, but over the camp, we just bonded. So happy now...Haha its a good feeling, everyone like one big happy family. It just makes you wanna smile. And Dolphin, I know you agree too! Haha.
Yes so Dolphin and I were thinking of a bonding lunch next week, after youth mass. HAHA. Hope it goes through, cos it's a really good thing.
Conducted during mass today...SCARY. haha but everyone said I improved lar...so I guess that its a good thing...honestly, when I conducted just now, I felt really weird. My hands just didn't want to move accordingly. So freaky...My hands felt like they belonged to someone else. Oh wells...guess I'm just sleepy...
Speaking of sleepiness...I was so tired over the camp, sleeping for all of three hours a night. And no. Its not that we weren't allowed to sleep. Just couldn't fall asleep, and after I had fallen asleep, just couldn't stay asleep.
A really physically draining camp. And yet, it was spiritually rejuvenating...LOL
Shall not go into a full force reflection right now...Sometime soon. BYE!!!!!
Ja' ne.
-Ade-
Hmm...Have yet to blog about the confirmation camp...Shall try and do it soon...
Things to note...WHO'S GOING TO CREATE THE CATHECHISM CLASS BLOG?! ROFL.
Anyway, perhaps I am a little too high?
Can't wait to start writing my fanfic when I get home. I've started on a new one!!! haha so basically, I have three ongoing at the same time...not like my updates are very regular...but yea...I just couldn't resist...The new idea hit me one night, and IT REFUSED TO GET OUT OF MY HEAD. RARR...
:)
Okok shall do some reflections about the camp here...the more light-hearted ones, since I'm not exactly in the mood for such serious things now. LOL.
OUR CLASS BECAME MORE BONDED DURING THE CAMP! Hahaha. Yeap cos the girls and guys NEVER used to mix, but over the camp, we just bonded. So happy now...Haha its a good feeling, everyone like one big happy family. It just makes you wanna smile. And Dolphin, I know you agree too! Haha.
Yes so Dolphin and I were thinking of a bonding lunch next week, after youth mass. HAHA. Hope it goes through, cos it's a really good thing.
Conducted during mass today...SCARY. haha but everyone said I improved lar...so I guess that its a good thing...honestly, when I conducted just now, I felt really weird. My hands just didn't want to move accordingly. So freaky...My hands felt like they belonged to someone else. Oh wells...guess I'm just sleepy...
Speaking of sleepiness...I was so tired over the camp, sleeping for all of three hours a night. And no. Its not that we weren't allowed to sleep. Just couldn't fall asleep, and after I had fallen asleep, just couldn't stay asleep.
A really physically draining camp. And yet, it was spiritually rejuvenating...LOL
Shall not go into a full force reflection right now...Sometime soon. BYE!!!!!
Ja' ne.
-Ade-
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Huggies!
Hey ya'll! Thanks for making this day such a great one for me! Thanks for all your well wishes and everything! Haha it has been a great birthday thanks to you guys!
Thanks to all the basketballers for the surprise cake! Hehe.
Thanks to all my friends, like my gor gor and da jie for all their well wishes! Hehe.
Thanks to 4/8! Haha it was a nice birthday song!
Thanks to all!
Anyway, my weekend was a spirit-filled one. No time now, so shall post a LONG reflection on Saturday.
Ja' ne!
PS: I started learning jap on my own le! Happy~
-Ade-
Thanks to all the basketballers for the surprise cake! Hehe.
Thanks to all my friends, like my gor gor and da jie for all their well wishes! Hehe.
Thanks to 4/8! Haha it was a nice birthday song!
Thanks to all!
Anyway, my weekend was a spirit-filled one. No time now, so shall post a LONG reflection on Saturday.
Ja' ne!
PS: I started learning jap on my own le! Happy~
-Ade-
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Heyio!
Haha whee! The internet is up and running again! On Monday, the phone line suddenly decided to crash. :( It was terrible...we couldn't even use the house phone to make calls! Haha.
Well, it's obviously working now...But we still don't know what happened before...Oh wells!
Well, right about now, my classmates would be taking their 2.4km run for their PFT. While I'm sitting at home, in front of the computer. Reason being? I sprained my ankle on Wednesday. Haha. I missed the 5 items on Thursday too. Damn. I wanted to get it over and done with...I'm gonna fail my 2.4km...I've gotten so unfit! :'(
^^ Oh wells. Might I add that I love inclined-pull ups? ^^ Many people think I'm crazy when I say that. Maybe I am! haha. Oh well...
I missed training yesterday because of my sprained ankle. :(
Thank goodness it's only a minor sprain, and should be up and running by Monday! WHEE!
Haha oh wells...that was a random rant, but I'm a random person! HEHE
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Well, it's obviously working now...But we still don't know what happened before...Oh wells!
Well, right about now, my classmates would be taking their 2.4km run for their PFT. While I'm sitting at home, in front of the computer. Reason being? I sprained my ankle on Wednesday. Haha. I missed the 5 items on Thursday too. Damn. I wanted to get it over and done with...I'm gonna fail my 2.4km...I've gotten so unfit! :'(
^^ Oh wells. Might I add that I love inclined-pull ups? ^^ Many people think I'm crazy when I say that. Maybe I am! haha. Oh well...
I missed training yesterday because of my sprained ankle. :(
Thank goodness it's only a minor sprain, and should be up and running by Monday! WHEE!
Haha oh wells...that was a random rant, but I'm a random person! HEHE
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Holy Darkness
Oh yea...there's this new song which the Choir is gonna sing for Easter Vigil...It's so nice...
The melody is so soothing, so peaceful, and yet, it leaves a haunting impression on you at the same time. Haunting not in the creepy, bad sense, but in the good, comfortable sense. The tune just sticks in your head...It's really really nice...
Sounds like something those angels would...
Well, actually, it is a solo...Haha and the person who's singing it...Let's just say that her voice was made for this song. Or maybe, it would be more appropriate to say that the song sounds like it was made for her...
So sweet...Too bad the choir humming the chorus is too soft, so we have to sing...
I know a lot of people in choir have powerful voices, but I sure hope we all remember to keep to the mood of the song and keep it soft...
Ahh...the song is so good.
Mich! I know you agree! Hehe.
SANDWICHES RAWK! Hehe.
You know, I realise now that I already have made 3 post rants about songs...I love music!
Jap anime music rawks! It makes up about 99.9% of my mp3 music? Haha.
Whee! Shall go write stories on my laptop now...
No school tomorrow, since there's E-learning! WHEE!
The teachers claim they left four hours worth of lesson on the E-portal...I finished everything in under an hour, including the tests...As did a whole lot of my classmates...
Haha I feel so sad tho...I failed the chinese test...
But I guess that's pretty normal, coming from me. I have never passed chinese close passages...I just put in random answers, since I don't recognise half the words...hehe
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
The melody is so soothing, so peaceful, and yet, it leaves a haunting impression on you at the same time. Haunting not in the creepy, bad sense, but in the good, comfortable sense. The tune just sticks in your head...It's really really nice...
Sounds like something those angels would...
Well, actually, it is a solo...Haha and the person who's singing it...Let's just say that her voice was made for this song. Or maybe, it would be more appropriate to say that the song sounds like it was made for her...
So sweet...Too bad the choir humming the chorus is too soft, so we have to sing...
I know a lot of people in choir have powerful voices, but I sure hope we all remember to keep to the mood of the song and keep it soft...
Ahh...the song is so good.
Mich! I know you agree! Hehe.
SANDWICHES RAWK! Hehe.
You know, I realise now that I already have made 3 post rants about songs...I love music!
Jap anime music rawks! It makes up about 99.9% of my mp3 music? Haha.
Whee! Shall go write stories on my laptop now...
No school tomorrow, since there's E-learning! WHEE!
The teachers claim they left four hours worth of lesson on the E-portal...I finished everything in under an hour, including the tests...As did a whole lot of my classmates...
Haha I feel so sad tho...I failed the chinese test...
But I guess that's pretty normal, coming from me. I have never passed chinese close passages...I just put in random answers, since I don't recognise half the words...hehe
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
New Blog!
Hey guys! I made another blog, for posting my stories so that it's easier for you all to read! Just click on the link, and then read and leave a comment k? Haha whee! High! Felt sick this morning, but after coming home and sleeping for like four hours, felt much better. And then, I just came back from dinner...Steamboat buffet...YUMMY >.< I loved the soups...tom yam on one side and herbs on the other. WHEE...
Then, I went to visit my grandma, my first time in goodness knows how long...
I can't wait for when we shift house...then I can see my grandma everyday... :)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Then, I went to visit my grandma, my first time in goodness knows how long...
I can't wait for when we shift house...then I can see my grandma everyday... :)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Friday, March 23, 2007
Me Against The World
Haha Whee! I heard this song when I was watching some AMVs on youtube, and I fell in love with it at first listen. I was looking for the lyrics when I found this site that gave the html lyrics for websites, so I decided to put it on my blog. WHEE!
Sadly, try as I might to find the blog background music, I couldn't find it. If any of you do find it, tell me k? Haha then I can put it on. WHEE!
Ok as you can tell, I'm really hyper right now. Listening to the song now. Couldn't download so I'm actually playing the youtube one over and over again. Hehe. Goodness I'm so in love with this song! Haha. Might even buy the album, just for this song.
Oh yes. Just in case, I'm talking about 'Me against the world' from Simple Plan. Not tupac or any other weird band which I've never heard of before. Come to think of it, I haven't heard of Tupac either...Weird name...not funky at all...Haha sorry if any Tupac fans read this! I'm an ignoramus ok? Haha.
Maybe part of the reason I like this song so much is because I can relate to it?
I won't give up my dreams for anybody. NO-BODY!
I don't care what society thinks of me. I am who I am, and I'm not gonna change. Whatever for? To become the same as everyone else? I want to be a unique person, not one who follows the latest trends and such. I follow my heart!
Hehe. And the chorus, I can sort of relate to.
My mum always complains about me. She seems to have an entire list of things she hates about me? Always comparing me to my sister. "Your sister so smart, can go RGS la." "Your sister never have teachers complaining about her la." "Your sister wasn't as tomboy as you la."
Goodness. When IS she going to realise that I am NOT my sis! I am my own person, and I'm not gonna follow in my sister's footsteps! I carve my own path in life, and I do what I do not cos my sis did the same, but because I want to!
Once, I asked a close friend what I struck him as. And he told me that I struck him as someone who went against the flow. Hehe.
Michelle! You know who that person is la. Haha is your SP. HEE.
Ok. Got sidetracked there. Back to how I can relate with the lyrics.
Yea. So no matter how much my mum considers me a lost cause, I'm gonna continue being who I am, and I'll prove her wrong one day. Then, she will finally see me for who I truly am, and not who she wants me to be.
Not that I'm ever going to conform to her wants anyway. Countless times, she has tried to get me to keep my hair long. She tried refusing to pay for my haircuts. I paid out of my own pocket. Like I'm gonna let a little thing like that stop me. And then, she tried a sort of debate on how I should let my hair grow, complaining that so many people were mistaking me for a boy.
My rebutt left her speechless. Hehe. I told her, "Why should I care what those aunties think? If they want to stereotype and think that just cos I've got short hair, I must be a boy, then let them! My face isn't very boyish anyway, so if they want to think of me as a boy, its their problem. Why should I conform to society's standards of how a girl should look and act? I want to stand out and be myself."
LOL.
And the teachers in school...I swear that they are trying to brainwash us! 2 years ago, they made my seniors go for some manicure course. UGH. And when I say made, I mean MADE. Those who didn't go got calls from the school, checking that they were really sick. EWWW.
Thank goodness they didn't have it for my year. I would have ponned, and if they called, I would have pretended to have lost my voice. Hehe.
They DID, however, replace it with an etiquette course.
You must seat this way, you must walk this way, you must behave this way.
UGH. Basic courtesy is one thing. Being forced to be something you're not is another thing altogether.
I'm not saying personal etiquette isn't important. It is. But there's a fine line between etiquette and...
I don't know how to say it. You guys know what I mean right?
After all, there ARE ways to be yourself, and be polite at the same time.
I got so pissed at the school for that course, that I did the exact opposite of what the instructors told me to. They told me to sit with my legs crossed, and I slammed my feet firmly onto the ground. They told me to walk nicely, the catwalk way, and I purposely slouched and stomped.
I've got an attitude problem? Haha maybe I do. I get this way whenever someone tries to force me into something I'm not interested in. Especially if they are trying to get me to be something I don't wanna be.
And that's that. Society can judge me however they want, I'm not going to change. I will not betray my heart.
Hmm...what was supposed to be a short, crappy post about the song and how much I liked it...became this uber long reflection of sorts?
Oh wells.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Sadly, try as I might to find the blog background music, I couldn't find it. If any of you do find it, tell me k? Haha then I can put it on. WHEE!
Ok as you can tell, I'm really hyper right now. Listening to the song now. Couldn't download so I'm actually playing the youtube one over and over again. Hehe. Goodness I'm so in love with this song! Haha. Might even buy the album, just for this song.
Oh yes. Just in case, I'm talking about 'Me against the world' from Simple Plan. Not tupac or any other weird band which I've never heard of before. Come to think of it, I haven't heard of Tupac either...Weird name...not funky at all...Haha sorry if any Tupac fans read this! I'm an ignoramus ok? Haha.
Maybe part of the reason I like this song so much is because I can relate to it?
I won't give up my dreams for anybody. NO-BODY!
I don't care what society thinks of me. I am who I am, and I'm not gonna change. Whatever for? To become the same as everyone else? I want to be a unique person, not one who follows the latest trends and such. I follow my heart!
Hehe. And the chorus, I can sort of relate to.
My mum always complains about me. She seems to have an entire list of things she hates about me? Always comparing me to my sister. "Your sister so smart, can go RGS la." "Your sister never have teachers complaining about her la." "Your sister wasn't as tomboy as you la."
Goodness. When IS she going to realise that I am NOT my sis! I am my own person, and I'm not gonna follow in my sister's footsteps! I carve my own path in life, and I do what I do not cos my sis did the same, but because I want to!
Once, I asked a close friend what I struck him as. And he told me that I struck him as someone who went against the flow. Hehe.
Michelle! You know who that person is la. Haha is your SP. HEE.
Ok. Got sidetracked there. Back to how I can relate with the lyrics.
Yea. So no matter how much my mum considers me a lost cause, I'm gonna continue being who I am, and I'll prove her wrong one day. Then, she will finally see me for who I truly am, and not who she wants me to be.
Not that I'm ever going to conform to her wants anyway. Countless times, she has tried to get me to keep my hair long. She tried refusing to pay for my haircuts. I paid out of my own pocket. Like I'm gonna let a little thing like that stop me. And then, she tried a sort of debate on how I should let my hair grow, complaining that so many people were mistaking me for a boy.
My rebutt left her speechless. Hehe. I told her, "Why should I care what those aunties think? If they want to stereotype and think that just cos I've got short hair, I must be a boy, then let them! My face isn't very boyish anyway, so if they want to think of me as a boy, its their problem. Why should I conform to society's standards of how a girl should look and act? I want to stand out and be myself."
LOL.
And the teachers in school...I swear that they are trying to brainwash us! 2 years ago, they made my seniors go for some manicure course. UGH. And when I say made, I mean MADE. Those who didn't go got calls from the school, checking that they were really sick. EWWW.
Thank goodness they didn't have it for my year. I would have ponned, and if they called, I would have pretended to have lost my voice. Hehe.
They DID, however, replace it with an etiquette course.
You must seat this way, you must walk this way, you must behave this way.
UGH. Basic courtesy is one thing. Being forced to be something you're not is another thing altogether.
I'm not saying personal etiquette isn't important. It is. But there's a fine line between etiquette and...
I don't know how to say it. You guys know what I mean right?
After all, there ARE ways to be yourself, and be polite at the same time.
I got so pissed at the school for that course, that I did the exact opposite of what the instructors told me to. They told me to sit with my legs crossed, and I slammed my feet firmly onto the ground. They told me to walk nicely, the catwalk way, and I purposely slouched and stomped.
I've got an attitude problem? Haha maybe I do. I get this way whenever someone tries to force me into something I'm not interested in. Especially if they are trying to get me to be something I don't wanna be.
And that's that. Society can judge me however they want, I'm not going to change. I will not betray my heart.
Hmm...what was supposed to be a short, crappy post about the song and how much I liked it...became this uber long reflection of sorts?
Oh wells.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Whee!
Haha I'm feeling really really hyper now! Hehe just posted chapter one of my newest fanfiction, from Final Fantasy VIII! Haha the title is 'Distant Memories'. So happy...Hehe considering I just got the idea yesterday, I think I made pretty good time. Haha I enjoyed myself thoroughly writing it, and I feel so much more light-hearted now. YAY!
Haha so as you can guess, I'm in a good mood now. Lalala. ^^
Forgive the hyperness. It's a regular affliction I suffer from, and might I add that I quite like it. Smiling makes everything seem so much better! As the saying goes, whether your cup is half-empty or half-full is up to you. I prefer to see mine as half-full! Haha. Although sometimes I fail miserably.
And like my friend's pencil case reads, "I don't suffer from insanity. I enjoy every minute of it."
hehe. Yes, I'm insane. But in a happy, hyper, harmless way, so why not?
Whoa...triple H...haha.
Ja' Ne!
(Those who are interested can find my story at www.fanfiction.net, under the author ade5kira...Know what? Shall just create a link for my author's profile right now...)
-Ade-
Haha so as you can guess, I'm in a good mood now. Lalala. ^^
Forgive the hyperness. It's a regular affliction I suffer from, and might I add that I quite like it. Smiling makes everything seem so much better! As the saying goes, whether your cup is half-empty or half-full is up to you. I prefer to see mine as half-full! Haha. Although sometimes I fail miserably.
And like my friend's pencil case reads, "I don't suffer from insanity. I enjoy every minute of it."
hehe. Yes, I'm insane. But in a happy, hyper, harmless way, so why not?
Whoa...triple H...haha.
Ja' Ne!
(Those who are interested can find my story at www.fanfiction.net, under the author ade5kira...Know what? Shall just create a link for my author's profile right now...)
-Ade-
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Confidence
Went out for lunch with my parents just now, apparently as way of celebrating my mum's birthday.
Somehow, my mum thinks that I have no self-confidence. Like, what in the world?
I dress the way I want to, I style my hair any way I feel like, I am able to express my own opinions, I do not conform to society's wants. I am my own person at all times, and I don't care what others say about that.
Isn't that in itself the ultimate expression of self-confidence?
If I were not confident, would I not dress the way people want me to? But I don't do that. Those people who know me should know. They've been trying to get me into a skirt forever, and they have yet to see the fruits of their labour.
If I am able to be myself under all circumstances, regardless of what others say or think about me. If I am comfortable with my every action, even if society deems it as 'crude' or 'inappropriate for a girl' or 'boorish'. If all these do not express my confidence, then what does?
Does she want me to put on a skirt, and look pretty for all the world to see before she is willing to stop putting me down, to stop commenting on my lack of confidence?
The way I see it, she seems to be the one with no confidence in me. I am fully comfortable with the way I am, and I will never compromise it for anyone or anything.
And either you accept it, or you don't.
I don't care what others think, I will always be who I am.
After all, the coolest thing to be, is yourself, isn't it?
-winks-
Haha corny ending, I know. XP
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Somehow, my mum thinks that I have no self-confidence. Like, what in the world?
I dress the way I want to, I style my hair any way I feel like, I am able to express my own opinions, I do not conform to society's wants. I am my own person at all times, and I don't care what others say about that.
Isn't that in itself the ultimate expression of self-confidence?
If I were not confident, would I not dress the way people want me to? But I don't do that. Those people who know me should know. They've been trying to get me into a skirt forever, and they have yet to see the fruits of their labour.
If I am able to be myself under all circumstances, regardless of what others say or think about me. If I am comfortable with my every action, even if society deems it as 'crude' or 'inappropriate for a girl' or 'boorish'. If all these do not express my confidence, then what does?
Does she want me to put on a skirt, and look pretty for all the world to see before she is willing to stop putting me down, to stop commenting on my lack of confidence?
The way I see it, she seems to be the one with no confidence in me. I am fully comfortable with the way I am, and I will never compromise it for anyone or anything.
And either you accept it, or you don't.
I don't care what others think, I will always be who I am.
After all, the coolest thing to be, is yourself, isn't it?
-winks-
Haha corny ending, I know. XP
Ja'ne!
-Ade-
Friday, March 9, 2007
Haha!
Haha! I'm back! I guessed right...I got bored. Well, actually, not. For some reason, Final Fantasy glitched on me and refused to operate properly from a certain point. I got auto teleported back to a frickin island, stranded with no means of transport whatsoever. -.-"
I got stuck. And I don't even know why...Oh well...
Anyway, I was just playing the game, and during a transit movie (all fluffy), something hit me.
I want to write a Final Fantasy fanfiction! If possible, a SquallOC one. Haha. OC being own character, for those unfamiliar with the fanfiction writers' slang.
It'll be fun! Haha or maybe I could do a yaoi one, pairing Squall and Seifer up...Hmm...that would be hilarious. But...Just not my cup of tea. Reading yaoi is one thing. Writing it is another thing altogether! Haha.
But I can just imagine...Squall has been captured by the enemy, he's been traumatized (-evil grin- shall not say why...I have an evil idea, but I'll leave it up to your imagination for now...). And then, he becomes all weepy and stuff, and Seifer's like the big brother always there for him.
-shudders-
Oh well...maybe not...But a Final Fantasy fanfiction would be fun, all the same...
OOH...too many RenOC ideas...by the time I'm done with all of them...I'm gonna have white hair and a walking stick.
haha. Oh wells...thats it for now.
bored again...
-Ade-
I got stuck. And I don't even know why...Oh well...
Anyway, I was just playing the game, and during a transit movie (all fluffy), something hit me.
I want to write a Final Fantasy fanfiction! If possible, a SquallOC one. Haha. OC being own character, for those unfamiliar with the fanfiction writers' slang.
It'll be fun! Haha or maybe I could do a yaoi one, pairing Squall and Seifer up...Hmm...that would be hilarious. But...Just not my cup of tea. Reading yaoi is one thing. Writing it is another thing altogether! Haha.
But I can just imagine...Squall has been captured by the enemy, he's been traumatized (-evil grin- shall not say why...I have an evil idea, but I'll leave it up to your imagination for now...). And then, he becomes all weepy and stuff, and Seifer's like the big brother always there for him.
-shudders-
Oh well...maybe not...But a Final Fantasy fanfiction would be fun, all the same...
OOH...too many RenOC ideas...by the time I'm done with all of them...I'm gonna have white hair and a walking stick.
haha. Oh wells...thats it for now.
bored again...
-Ade-
Hmm...
Haha it has been quite awhile since I've updated, hasn't it? Well, I'm sitting at home now, enjoying, or rather, freezing my butt off in front of the computer. What I'm doing at home at 1230 hours on a school day, you might wonder. And if you're thinking that I played truant, that's not it at all. I've got the day off! My seniors did really well for their O' Levels, so the school decided to give the teachers a day off as a reward for their hard work. And a day off for teachers, means a day off for the students! Woo hoo!
Can you imagine, a class going to school, but with no teachers teaching them? Hilarious.
Anyway, I recently read this really good Shaman King fanfiction! The writer's really good, and he seems really familiar with the middle age english terms? What with all the honorifics and such. I wonder if I should be surprised? I mean...He (I'm assuming he's a guy here, due to the nick he used on fanfiction.net) does live in the UK after all.
Gosh...now I'm thinking...it'll be nice to go to the UK for a holiday. Sightseeing, exploring, eating. Nope no shopping, unless it's for sports equipment or anime stuff. AHHH...It'll be heavenly.
Speaking of holidays...My school organized a trip to Vietnam for those taking Geography. Unfortunately, due to my blurness, I messed up and thought that it was only for Sec 3s, so I didn't sign up for it. SOBS. I messed up big time...they should at least be on the plane by now...I wanna join them! T.T
Gosh, I'm such a blur sotong. Think somebody hitting me on the head will help?
Haha oh wells. No use crying over spilt milk. Well, that's it for now then...since I've got the WHOLE day at home, I might just post a few more times, if I get bored.
Well, I'm off to play Final Fantasy now! I've already spent half the day playing, so yea. I know I should be studying...but...I don't really care. (Should I be saying that?)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Can you imagine, a class going to school, but with no teachers teaching them? Hilarious.
Anyway, I recently read this really good Shaman King fanfiction! The writer's really good, and he seems really familiar with the middle age english terms? What with all the honorifics and such. I wonder if I should be surprised? I mean...He (I'm assuming he's a guy here, due to the nick he used on fanfiction.net) does live in the UK after all.
Gosh...now I'm thinking...it'll be nice to go to the UK for a holiday. Sightseeing, exploring, eating. Nope no shopping, unless it's for sports equipment or anime stuff. AHHH...It'll be heavenly.
Speaking of holidays...My school organized a trip to Vietnam for those taking Geography. Unfortunately, due to my blurness, I messed up and thought that it was only for Sec 3s, so I didn't sign up for it. SOBS. I messed up big time...they should at least be on the plane by now...I wanna join them! T.T
Gosh, I'm such a blur sotong. Think somebody hitting me on the head will help?
Haha oh wells. No use crying over spilt milk. Well, that's it for now then...since I've got the WHOLE day at home, I might just post a few more times, if I get bored.
Well, I'm off to play Final Fantasy now! I've already spent half the day playing, so yea. I know I should be studying...but...I don't really care. (Should I be saying that?)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Scared...
Heys! Haha am going for my school's self-awareness camp tomorrow. Like real I'm going to share my personal issues with them. Haha. NO WAY MAN!
Good thing is, we got the best retreat site, with air-conditioning and BEDS! Haha. WHEE!
And on Saturday, I'm going for some audition thingy? Haha scarey man...
Well, I'm looking forward to the camp! Haha. I shall enjoy myself without having to share too much...I'm not one to open up too much anyway. HAHA!
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Good thing is, we got the best retreat site, with air-conditioning and BEDS! Haha. WHEE!
And on Saturday, I'm going for some audition thingy? Haha scarey man...
Well, I'm looking forward to the camp! Haha. I shall enjoy myself without having to share too much...I'm not one to open up too much anyway. HAHA!
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Testing...
Yay! Haha Its working! What am I talking about? Well, basically, I'm sitting in macdonalds now, and I'm on the net! Yay! The wireless on my laptop works! Wahaha.
Just got out of CNY mass a little while ago, and am feeling all high and stuff. For some reason. I'm not too sure myself. Grins.
Ok...given, I'm on the net now...can't seem to install MSN messanger for some reason though...Hai...
Anyways, happy CNY people! Have fun visiting!
-Ade-
Just got out of CNY mass a little while ago, and am feeling all high and stuff. For some reason. I'm not too sure myself. Grins.
Ok...given, I'm on the net now...can't seem to install MSN messanger for some reason though...Hai...
Anyways, happy CNY people! Have fun visiting!
-Ade-
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Freedom
Just came back from my family's Chinese New Year Reunion dinner, and one of my suspicions all along was confirmed.
My mum did read my diary.
Normally, I would throw a big fit and stuff, shouting, INVASION OF PRIVACY.
But I just laughed.
I guessed that means that I have really managed to put the past behind me and move on.
And thats a good thing.
I've always been a person very concerned with freedom. I like to speak my mind, and do what I like. That, coupled with my stubborness, means that its very hard to make me do something against my will.
And that includes having me put on a skirt.
So, who wants to be held back by shackles of the past? Clinging to the past instead of moving on is just gonna hold you back.
And yet, there are some things not so easily forgotten.
Whatever it is, I want to stay free.
Free to soar into the sky like an eagle.
(I changed my blog title! ^^)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
(Three posts in one day? I'm really bored. Haha.)
My mum did read my diary.
Normally, I would throw a big fit and stuff, shouting, INVASION OF PRIVACY.
But I just laughed.
I guessed that means that I have really managed to put the past behind me and move on.
And thats a good thing.
I've always been a person very concerned with freedom. I like to speak my mind, and do what I like. That, coupled with my stubborness, means that its very hard to make me do something against my will.
And that includes having me put on a skirt.
So, who wants to be held back by shackles of the past? Clinging to the past instead of moving on is just gonna hold you back.
And yet, there are some things not so easily forgotten.
Whatever it is, I want to stay free.
Free to soar into the sky like an eagle.
(I changed my blog title! ^^)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
(Three posts in one day? I'm really bored. Haha.)
Bored...
Sitting at home in front of the computer, talking to a few of my friends on MSN but still feeling very bored.
So here I am! I have decided to post! Haha
There's this song from an anime which I REALLY REALLY like. It really struck me at first, because it really is quite true. Well, maybe not all of it, but most of it. Or...maybe just the first part?
Regardless, it is a really meaningful song, and I find a lot of truth in the lyrics.
Nothing can beat church hymns, though.
But here's the song lyrics!
Bleach- Life is like a boat (Rie Fu)
Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?
We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day
tooku de iki o shiteru
toomei ni natta mitai
kurayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku
shisareteta dake
inori o sasagete
atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi
sono hate made
Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong
hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku
mukedashiteku naru
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki
de mune o tsureteku
And every time I see your face
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
and soon I can't see the shore
Oh, I can't see the shore
When will I see the shore?
I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong
tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku
odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki
de ume o terashidasu
inori o sasagete
atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi
sono hate made
And every time I see your face
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
and soon I can't see the shore
Unmei no hune oko gi
nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to
watashi-tachi o sou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne,
dore mo suteki na tabi ne
Yeap. This is it. I got the lyrics from gendou.
Darn long, isn't it? Haha
But its really meaningful, due to how true it is. Maybe its just me, maybe its a whole lot of us. But all the same, this song struck me.
How many people know who we really are inside? People say that your friends know you better than you know yourself. And yet, how are others to know who you are, if you yourself don't know?
Some say that for others to know you, you must first know yourself. Others say that your friends will know you more than you will ever know yourself.
So which are we to believe?
So many people say, day in day out, that they are your friends, and that they will always be there for you.
But how many actually keep their promise?
I don't wanna be one of those hypocrites who only know how to talk. That is why every single word from my previous post came from my heart.
Life is a journey. One that all of us must go through.
This journey could end at any time.
That is why, I wanna live each day like its my last, and I wanna do as much as possible for my friends.
Live life with no regrets.
"Live each day like its your last, but dream like you have forever"- Unknown. (At least, to me)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
So here I am! I have decided to post! Haha
There's this song from an anime which I REALLY REALLY like. It really struck me at first, because it really is quite true. Well, maybe not all of it, but most of it. Or...maybe just the first part?
Regardless, it is a really meaningful song, and I find a lot of truth in the lyrics.
Nothing can beat church hymns, though.
But here's the song lyrics!
Bleach- Life is like a boat (Rie Fu)
Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?
We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day
tooku de iki o shiteru
toomei ni natta mitai
kurayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku
shisareteta dake
inori o sasagete
atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi
sono hate made
Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong
hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku
mukedashiteku naru
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki
de mune o tsureteku
And every time I see your face
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
and soon I can't see the shore
Oh, I can't see the shore
When will I see the shore?
I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong
tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku
odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki
de ume o terashidasu
inori o sasagete
atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi
sono hate made
And every time I see your face
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
and soon I can't see the shore
Unmei no hune oko gi
nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to
watashi-tachi o sou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne,
dore mo suteki na tabi ne
Yeap. This is it. I got the lyrics from gendou.
Darn long, isn't it? Haha
But its really meaningful, due to how true it is. Maybe its just me, maybe its a whole lot of us. But all the same, this song struck me.
How many people know who we really are inside? People say that your friends know you better than you know yourself. And yet, how are others to know who you are, if you yourself don't know?
Some say that for others to know you, you must first know yourself. Others say that your friends will know you more than you will ever know yourself.
So which are we to believe?
So many people say, day in day out, that they are your friends, and that they will always be there for you.
But how many actually keep their promise?
I don't wanna be one of those hypocrites who only know how to talk. That is why every single word from my previous post came from my heart.
Life is a journey. One that all of us must go through.
This journey could end at any time.
That is why, I wanna live each day like its my last, and I wanna do as much as possible for my friends.
Live life with no regrets.
"Live each day like its your last, but dream like you have forever"- Unknown. (At least, to me)
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
I'll always be there...
Sometimes, it may seem like I'm in no mood to listen to you, either because I'm too hyper or too sad. Or it may seem like I'm too busy, too wrapped up in my own affairs, to take the time off to be there for a friend.
But that is never true.
I won't be able to sense your mood every single time. I'm no psychic. I'm only human, with no special abilities of any sort.
But all you have to do is ask...in fact, you only need to start talking to me, and I promise that I will listen. I will always be there for you, ready to lend a listening ear or to be a punching bag.
What you say doesn't have to be edited for me. You can rant, curse and swear all you want, because I will never complain. I don't mind. I really don't. As long as it helps you feel better.
All I want to do, is to use this life of mine and dedicate it to helping my friends.
No, I'm not noble or anything. Maybe I'm just doing this for selfish reasons. Because I get the most joy when I see my friends smile. So does that make me selfish?
Whatever it is, I just wanna let you know, I will always be there for you.
24/7, you can just drop me an sms, a call, anything. And I will try my very best to be there for you immediately.
I'm a walking network, always ready to listen.
This is meant for no one in particular. If anything, this is a message to ALL my friends out there. Every single one of you.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
But that is never true.
I won't be able to sense your mood every single time. I'm no psychic. I'm only human, with no special abilities of any sort.
But all you have to do is ask...in fact, you only need to start talking to me, and I promise that I will listen. I will always be there for you, ready to lend a listening ear or to be a punching bag.
What you say doesn't have to be edited for me. You can rant, curse and swear all you want, because I will never complain. I don't mind. I really don't. As long as it helps you feel better.
All I want to do, is to use this life of mine and dedicate it to helping my friends.
No, I'm not noble or anything. Maybe I'm just doing this for selfish reasons. Because I get the most joy when I see my friends smile. So does that make me selfish?
Whatever it is, I just wanna let you know, I will always be there for you.
24/7, you can just drop me an sms, a call, anything. And I will try my very best to be there for you immediately.
I'm a walking network, always ready to listen.
This is meant for no one in particular. If anything, this is a message to ALL my friends out there. Every single one of you.
Ja' ne!
-Ade-
Friday, February 16, 2007
Lost
Sometimes, I ask myself...What is my heart really feeling? And most of the time, I find no answer. And the only thing I can do is to keep smiling, and keep trying to figure out what exactly I'm feeling.
Beneath that smiling hyper bunny, there is the quiet contemplative side. It shows when I'm alone, but flees when company arrives. And then, I put on a smile, and act as if nothing was wrong.
Like what's happening to me right now. One of my friends got angry with me out of the blue, and I didn't even know why. Then, I spotted some pretty direct hints on her blog. It hurt, but day in, day out, I continued smiling. What else should I do? Crying won't help right? And yet, my friends all tell me that its not good to hold in your emotions.
Also, feelings are stirring deep within me, feelings that I thought were long gone, and all because of a simple encounter. What can I say? I don't want these feelings to exist, and yet, at the same time, I do. Its really quite confusing, and the only thing I can say is, I am at a loss.
Thank goodness for my great friends around me, who help me keep going.
Ja' ne! Gomen' ne, for making you guys sit through this.
[I'm jap inclined...shall download Kanji next time!]
-Ade-
Beneath that smiling hyper bunny, there is the quiet contemplative side. It shows when I'm alone, but flees when company arrives. And then, I put on a smile, and act as if nothing was wrong.
Like what's happening to me right now. One of my friends got angry with me out of the blue, and I didn't even know why. Then, I spotted some pretty direct hints on her blog. It hurt, but day in, day out, I continued smiling. What else should I do? Crying won't help right? And yet, my friends all tell me that its not good to hold in your emotions.
Also, feelings are stirring deep within me, feelings that I thought were long gone, and all because of a simple encounter. What can I say? I don't want these feelings to exist, and yet, at the same time, I do. Its really quite confusing, and the only thing I can say is, I am at a loss.
Thank goodness for my great friends around me, who help me keep going.
Ja' ne! Gomen' ne, for making you guys sit through this.
[I'm jap inclined...shall download Kanji next time!]
-Ade-
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