Random Kendo stuff!

So, being bored and emo like I am, I have decided to kill some time...PREEEEESENTING! KENDO STUFFS! Fashion show. (:

My stuff cam whore but I don't. ;)

My very first Shinai Bag, with the Shinai inside so it stands straight and tall. My chinese sucks, but I think the three words are read "Bu Dong Xin" in Chinese...In Jap? Well...errr... xD

Did I mention I hate the flower base? =x *Change topic*
THE STUPID RED INSIDE OF THE BAG. xD (You'll see why.) And yes, that's an owl you see. I didn't like the flower ones.

By the way, my mum's camera sucks. It says "Picture is blurred" for fine ones, and ignores screwed up ones like this.
Umm...My darling Shinai. Which got turned PINK by the stupid red inside of the first bag.
Even more pink. T.T By the way, the string you see going down the Shinai...Well, besides holding everything together, it also tells us that that would be the back if we were holding a real katana.

Try smacking string on string. COMMON SENSE DUH. xD
My slick new leather Shinai bag, which has an AWESOME STRAP SO I CAN CARRY IT ON MY SHOULDER! Plus, no more tying strings. AND NO MORE STUPID RED INSIDE! xD
The awesome useless straps hanging around, and the shoulder strap over there. xD I need to hang some keychains over there! The useless one that is.

That's it! =D

Kendo is awesome.

I miss you. I love you.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

And the tears come down unbidden

I don't want you to split ways with us...

I tried to be strong, but I can't...

I'd rather you always treat me as a friend, no chance of anything else, then let you go your own way for that tiny chance.

I wanna be able to talk to you.

I wanna be able to hear you laugh.

I wanna be able to love you, even if you don't return it.

I wanna be able to see you smile.

But I wanna respect your choice too.

But the tears...they're just coming down.

God...please bring him back soon...safely...happy...

The prodigal son

"For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found!"

You remember your promise.

Take care.

We'll all be waiting for you.

My heart will always wait for you.

It feels good to part without hatred.

T.T

You accused me of so many things that you think to be truth.

Just think carefully Daryl. Think of how you've distorted the facts.

You don't even let me try to explain.

You said you told me all this. The fact of the matter? You didn't, not all. You just have been wrapped up in your mindset that everything is my fault.

You said you had to kowtow every week. It was a one off Daryl. A freaking one off. That only occurred because you forgot what I had told you made me upset in the first place. Of course, it was my fault that I had taken so long to budge. But it was a one off. Not every week.

You said we'd been fighting for about a month, 2-3 times every week. That is just untrue.

And I wasn't really insecure about everything. It was only choir remember? I only became super insecure after you told me you couldn't care anymore. Anyone would become insecure man...

So that's what has been draining you emotionally. Yourself. Your own distortion of the facts that you believe to be true.

So that's what caused the break up. Lying to yourself. And some honest mistakes on my part that I admit I made. But so much of your anger and hatred stems from the lies.

I'm upset.

I love you.

Why do I love you, even after knowing all this?

Why am I such a fool?

And here's an extra note. Open your eyes to the people around you. You'll see something.

I love you.

And when I heard this song, I was struck at how apt it was at describing what I feel now.

You have a way of coming easily to me.
And when you take, you take the very best of me.
So I start a fight 'cause I need to feel somethin'
And you do what you want 'cause I'm not what you wanted.

(CHORUS)
Oh, what a shame.
What a rainy ending given to a perfect day.
Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say.
And now that I'm sittin' here thinkin' it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you.

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray.
And I stood there lovin' you and washed them all away.
And you come away with a great little story of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you.

(CHORUS)
Oh, what a shame.
What a rainy ending given to a perfect day.
So just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say.
And now that I'm sittin' here thinkin' it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you.

You never did give a damn thing, honey.
But I cried, cried for you.
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you.
(Died for you)

Oh, what a shame.
What a rainy ending give to a perfect day. Every smile you fake is so condescending.
Counted all the scars you made.
Now that I'm sitting here thinking it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you

I don't care if you're the coldest person to be around. I love you.

You gave me so much, but now its cold.

I want to be with you. But you don't let me in.

You've changed. Warm and fuzzy to cold and silent.

But I still love you.

Loving and emoing.

-Ade-

Secrets

Secrets kill a relationship. I swear.

The root cause of a split is often miscommunication, untold stuff.

But friends keep secrets. So, when at such a decision, what do you say?

Well, I agree with what Joji did. Not tell. It's the person's secret to tell, not anyone elses.

But still...my heart yearns to know the reasons that might have caused part of the hurt.

I love you.

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I see myself now, and I like the me before the 5 months better. When I was independent, happy, unhurt.

But, I do like myself now too. I've grown from all this.

But I'm still wishing for...

And if I had to choose whether to have the 5 months all over again, whether I'd go through it, my answer would be yes.

I would get hurt all over again. Because I love you, I don't mind being hurt by you.

I still love you, stupid as it may be.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

I miss you, come home soon.

I miss you Daryl. I miss the real you. Come home soon.

And you know, I'm not the only one to pray for God to take my life. Tobit and Sarah did too. Forgot where, page 465 of my bible. xD

And God didn't kill them. He was with them. He helped them out of their slump. He gave Tobit his sight, gave Sarah a husband who lived past their first night together.

I love God. How could I ever have hated him?

The devil works in tricky ways. He toys with us, in an attempt to hurt us, bring us further from God.

When did the devil come in, Daryl?

I guess it was when we started fighting. For the devil is strong where there is hate, anger and sorrow...

But God is stronger.

Just let him into your life...

The devil's been taking us for fools, tossing us around like you would toss a fruit.

I guess he first came in when we started our fights. Caused all these tears. Caused all the hurt.

I'm sorry I hurt you Joji.

I'm sorry...you're sorry too...lets just forget the apologies and move on. (:

I miss you. Come home soon...

I think...I will go pray the prayer for travelers now.

God...bring him safely back to me...to us...

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Some people are just not worth saving?

I can't say I agree with that statement. Even if they're "chicken shit (HAHA MARION. XD), no matter if they're jerks, bastards, bitches, sluts, they are all worth saving.

Life is important. I lost sight of that.

God loves us all, no matter what we do, and he sacrificed his son for ALL of us.

He didn't discriminate, "YOU SINNER! YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BE SAVED." or, "YOU KILL MY SON, I DON'T SAVE YOU."

God doesn't do that.

So why can't we, as humans, forgive the petty crimes?

And when it seems that you can't do anything for that person. Pray. Pray for him/her.

I'm praying for you. That God will give you your sight like he did to Tobit.

Because, you have really changed. Changed for the worse.

So unreasonable, so obsessed, so blind. So cold. So cruel.

But that's not who you are. The real Daryl is kind. Caring. Patient. Warm. Loving. Someone who gave me so much joy. Nothing like who he is now.

I miss you, come home soon...

After even more thought...

I still love you. It's not the memories I hold dear. Its you. I still love you, despite all you've done, how you've changed. I'm willing to accept you wholly. Stupid or not? Up to you to decide.

On another note. Serjia was talking about how Job lost everything, and then God gave it back twicefold right?

I thought of something funny. xD

2 times the wives= 2 times the nagging.

Poor Job. xDDD

And yet another thing.

Only cowards trying to escape a fact they cannot avoid block people. Only people with something to hide block people. Only people who dare not see the truth block people. Which are you?

I block my sis cos I couldn't have her seeing my nicks. xDDD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Where am I heading?

What the heck just happened? I went to sleep, full of hope and so much stronger.

And when I woke up, it was all gone. The tears came back.

But, I realised something.

What I can't let go of are the memories.

And I still associate the memories with him, I refuse to admit that he's changed.

And really. He has.

"I guess I'm still young." Ha! That line you said when you broke up with me was so damn funny. You know why? That was barely 2 days ago. Guess what man. You're still young. You felt like you loved me so much man. And you still were fickle of heart. I don't see this going anywhere good, but I'll be praying. Praying that no one gets hurt.

When I imagine...you two...doing the things we used to do...The tears come back unwanted.

It was all taken away from me in the blink of an eye. Given to someone else.

I'm amazed that your heart can be given away that easily...

Now, let's see what a good girlfriend does. Besides the love and all that.

Firstly, when you KNOW that your boyfriend is going on the wrong path, you know what you say?

You definitely don't say, "He's being unreasonable, that's true." Well, at least you admitted it. But what about when you say, "It's not my problem! I'm staying out of this..."

PLEASE. You know that he is unreasonable and you don't do a thing about this? Dismiss it as not your problem and conveniently ignore it?

He is hurting other people man. Don't be so selfish.

Think of it this way. Even if you hate the person who's being hurt like shit, even if you think they are a bitch or bastard, DO YOU REALLY WANT YOUR BOYFRIEND TO MAKE THE MISTAKE THAT YOU KNOW GOD WON'T LIKE?

I guess I fulfilled this point to the best of my ability. When he picked a fight with Elphin cos of some mis-said words, I told him to stop fighting because of me. And guess what? I wasn't his girlfriend at that time? XD

Another thing a girlfriend does not do, is hurt others, and then act like she's the ONLY one who has been hurt. Now, that's just not nice.

I guess I did that. Oh well. I'm a failure as a girlfriend then.

Oh well. Whatever it is, I'll be praying. That no one gets hurt. That your blind eyes may see, that you may go back to the kind person you were before I hurt you unwittingly.

The paragraph before this was just confusing, like I was talking to a thousand people at once. xD Ok, fine, it just felt like what it was. Talking to two.

I really don't see how asking someone to give me sometime, and stay as friends with him is hurting? I mean, think of it this way. He just broke up with me. Do you seriously want to jump into another relationship with him? Sure you don't wanna give it some thought? It has been what. 2 days. A day then. XD

Sigh...Life is so confusing.

A note to all readers, only 2 or 3 paragraphs of this is dedicated to people. The rest, esp some in the what a girlfriend should do list, well, all self reflection actually. Some instigated some not. (:

I haven't been all that great. But nobody's perfect.

Neither are you. Or you. Or you. Or you. I can go on for a million billion yous. Cos fact of life is, NO ONE IS PERFECT.

1 week of arguments, 5 months of love. Which would you wanna focus on?

People just like focusing on the bad things.

WOO! NEXT JOURNAL ENTRY FOUND! =D

I love you, you love me, we are happy family...

If only life were that perfect, Barney...if only...

I will be praying. For myself. For you. For you. For you. For everyone I care about. For the strangers I have yet to know.

God, open our eyes that we may see your light. Open our hearts that we may hear the cries of others' hearts. Open our tongue that we may speak only words that are not hurtful, and words pleasing to your ear. Open our mouth, that we may proclaim your goodness to the world. Open our ears, that we be discerning in what we hear. Open our minds, Lord, that we may be thoughtful of the consequences of the future.

I wonder how long all this will last...I want to move on, leave you two be, truly give you two my blessings.

And if this post struck the sore points of anyone, I guess it just means
1. Guilty
2. Acknowledgement
3. Understanding
4. Acceptance

Oh...acceptance looks so out of place there. >.< Haha

>_____< Is supposed to look guilty? Looks like a happy person acting guilty to me. Emoticon, oh emoticon. Why art thou face so confusing, that when I look upon it, I am lost in false emotion?

Amazing what a few lines can do.
>_<
Vs.
>___________<

Another journal entry! I like! Hope the ideas keep pouring in.

Now, if you'll pardon me, I got a speech to prepare for. Feel so unprepared. >.< LOL.

I pray that I switch into my "Ad libbing genius impromptu perfectus" when I go in front of the class.

Ahaha. That's just crap. xD

I am the mould. >.< I guess that's what I get for telling God to use me as he will. xD

Lord, use me as you will. But keep me strong, for my shortcomings are many, and my strengths few.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

PS: STUPID BLOGGER IS SCREWING UP MY ENTRY, BUNCHING PARAGRAPHS TOGETHER AND TAKING OUT WORDS! T.T

To Joji

I'm not pretty! You're the pretty one! You and Shayne and Rachel!

Updatesss

SPAM. RANDOM SPAM.

I love Kendo.

And I still love Daryl even if he doesn't love me. Even if all he feels is indifference.

I love Kendo. No really. xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Thanks for the chance...

I'm still scared...

I DON'T WANNA BATHE. DETTOL STINGS!

Regarding my previous post.

I know that I had just judged in making that post.

It was just food for thought. (:

I love my friends...

Thanks all.

Too bad I'm still emoing.

Ja'ne...

-Ade-

Hypocrites

For who are we to judge?

"Do not judge, so that you may not be judged. For with the judgement you make you will be judged, and the measure you give will be the measure you get. Why do you see the speck in your neighbour's eye, but do not notice the log in your own eye? Or how can you say to your neighbour, 'Let me take the speck out of your own eye', while the log is in your own eye?

You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly enough to take the speck out of your neighbour's eye." (Matthew 7)

Perhaps that is why I'm being judged now. For I had judged.

But are you not judging too?

Who are you to judge if you know nothing? A hypocrite?

But I guess it doesn't apply to perfect people.

But is anyone perfect?

I guess you're close to it.

You're the perfect person...

I'm a hypocrite...

And to the other you.

I guess I gave you only a small measure.

And I expected too much?

I guess that must be the case.

But I can't help but remember.

How hard it was for me to tell you.

"It's okay. I'm okay with that."

For how many could say that after hearing what I did?

Maybe I'm a hypocrite. Maybe that's why it was so hard for me.

That's me. What can I say?

I won't judge anymore. I'll try.

But you judged me.

And you.

"Selfish. Irritating. Immature. Weird."

Why do we put labels on people?

It's just not fair...

To ostracize is human nature.

To ostracize those who we dub "weird", "selfish" and so on.

But at the end of the day, who's the biggest hypocrite?

Can we not just let go of our instincts, and let our conscience act for once?

Do not show concern about a person and then judge that person behind his/her back.

That makes you a hypocrite.

"Get better soon" on one corner, and calling the person stupid on another.

That is selfishness. That is hypocrisy.

I will not judge.

Maybe you're perfect enough that you can judge.

I know I'm not.

I'll leave all the judging to God now.

Forgive me if I slip.

I hate my gut feeling

I hate it when my gut feeling is so accurate...

I just wish I could stab my guts...get rid of the feeling...

Screw you gut feeling...

WHEEEEEEEE!

Kendo rocks, I tell you.

I got my Shinai already. WHOOO. xD

TRAINING!!!!!!!!!

Grading test in June. =\

WHEEEEE.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

WHEEHEEHEE.

Now I understand why classic tricks of the book are classic. xD

You know, where the guy says he doesn't care and the girl and friends put together an act where she's dying in hospital? And the guy turns up? xD

Andand. I'm getting my Shinai tomorrow. WOOOO!!

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Lyrics- Happy Ending

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love [repeat]

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

This is how it ends?
The way you left me...seriously hurts like shit.
Goodbye.
Forever.
World.

Eternal Sleep.

OneNote! =D

Thanks guys!

XD Thanks Yi Lin and Avril and Jonny and Daryl! I had lots of fun! (:

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Obviously...

Some people don't get what I'm mad about.

Since you think that I'm that unreasonable, SO BE IT.

I'll be the monster you make me out to be.

What a load of bull.

What the title says.

Rose

Please. A rose. A rose. Please...No...

145- New web browser.

Soooo...using Opera now. Those who thought mozilla was awesome, this is awesomer.

Random points. Doesn't seem to have spell check.

My blog looks awesome on this.

Pretty fast.

It'll be a bother to transfer everything. And I kinda liked mozilla's quick find. =\

Okie. Conclusion, Not using. xDDD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

What to do, what to say?

Perhaps this is for the best...

I have no idea what to do, or whether I'm doing to right thing.

But I hate having all this bullshit.

And perhaps, I just wanted to say, "It's too late, to apologize..."

=\

Just kill me. I hate this. I hate fighting. I HATE THIS.

OMGIOSH.

I just realised...my com ram is 1gig. Not 2. DAAAAAAAAAAMN. No wonder its so slow starting up. xD

ANYONE KNOWS WHERE TO UPGRADE LAPTOP RAM?

Random Updates (And one less random)

It's fun to help Daddy clear the roof when it's clogged up and flooded. =D Remember the old days when we had so much fun getting wet, sometimes in the hot sun, clearing clogs. (: SUN TAN. WOOTZ. It was raining today though. (: And lightning. Can you imagine if I had gone BZZT. xD Fried Ade!

Scriptwriting teacher is boring, and in Bezner's words, Sleep-Making, but its still my favorite module! =D

Stupid textbook cost me 23.50. Lucky for me, Daddy said he's going to sponsor. =.= But honestly, I've read through some of it (I'M A NERD AND PROUD OF IT) and it actually seems interesting. xD

It's nice to stone on the bed with your laptop...too bad about the battery though...WHO CARES there are chargers all over the place. =D

I have to set up anyways cos I wanna play C&C. =D

I like this new blogging style, but I like the old one too.

Daryl and Celine are in the same class. How cool is that? xD

Orientation Day 2 was tiring but fun.

I've got a bus buddy, who's not going to be a bus buddy no more. ): Bye when you move Bez. =D

On the bus, he mentioned protagonists who are generally outcasts of society and are pure at heart. Bad in the shallow way, good in the deep way. And he also mentioned antagonists who are generally the popular ones but submit to their inner demons. And I responded with how that idea was so cliche.

But really...what makes that idea so cliche? Is it because people feel "Sigh, they're such geeks with so little opportunity in life, so lets make them good.", or is it because somewhere deep inside, people wish there wasn't such discrimination, that they themselves didn't discriminate, and thus like seeing this supposed "just" reward for those socially outcast?

I hope that neither is the case. IMO however, it could have something to do with how people think that people who have a tough life tend to be more mature, more sympathetic. While this isn't entirely true, this isn't all there is to the picture. In fact, having a tough life, being ostracized, could in fact have a negative impact on a person.

So comes in my favourite thought, Nature+ Nurture. Neither outweighs the other, both play their part in the formation of a person.

Ok. Serious part over, on with random updates.

Daryl and I can own C&C AI brutal, as long as we have bait. =D

We got bored and killed our own allies cos they were KS-ing.

I'm tired.

I'm happy. =D

I LOVE BM0601!

It's fun to type out secret messages to the people behind you. xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

MS0802! <3

My class rocks. =D

Lets see the names I can remember just like that, without seeing the faces. xD

Bezner. I keep spelling it with an A. =\ Hahaha DAO LOOKING GUY who is MANY MANY BEARS! xD You better answer me or else!

Andy. My name-a-like! =D Scared of pokes. POKE POKE.

Cheng Hao. Person who lost his wallet on day one. xD Threatened to whack me if I poked him. ): I WILL WHACK BACK!

Julian. Soccer-playing lookalike, who doesn't play soccer. xDDD

Osward (Sp?). TALL GUY! I MAKE YOU SHORT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xD

Jasmine. The girl who looks like Viktoria, but has a softer voice. =x

Priscilla. Took so long to change. xD We all thought something happened to her.

Malcom. Guy who came today and is pro-er than me at remembering names.

Rachel. Uh...green shirt today right? xD

Lydia. Cracked toenail. xD

Shit. Out of witty remarks. xD

Fiona. Same name as Fiona. xD

Hanista (Sp?). Innocent who got water poured on her.

Layla. MS FRESHIE! =D

Rhihanna. Short. =x

Marian. The girl who got called up to do the CMS infront of everyone.

Fa...Fa...AHH DAMN I FORGOT YOUR NAME AGAIN. T.T

Hmm...

Annie. Red hair. xD

Sheng Yang. Another tall guy WHO PONNED TODAY! My dance partner pang seh me. ): xD

Elizabeth. The first of my class I met. =D

Sharlene. Classmates again. xD

Andand I KNOW I FORGOT SOME PEOPLE.

I'm sorry! ):

I PROMISE I'll remember on Monday when I see your faces! =D

And this (Plus more) is my class for the next three years. Hopefully we all stick together and graduate together! =)

MS0802 is the love! You guys are awesome!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Thanks to our two wonderful OGLs too! =D

HIP HIP HOORAY!

And thanks to ALL the OGLs.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

DURIANS

I love durians!

Durians are the lurrrrrve! =D

I LOVE DURIANS. (:

Lyrics: Indescribable

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
INCOMPARABLE, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

AWESOME VIDEO! =D THANKS JOJI! +.+

Running?

Maybe I am...

I'm sorry...

I don't know what to do...

BOO!

I suck. =)

Selfishness as a virtue

Now, this is an interesting thought, and it's thanks to Nadia that I started thinking about this. Now, my first thought was, HOW CAN SELFISHNESS BE GOOD?

And then, I began thinking. What one person considers selfish, might not be considered selfish to another. Who can tell? No one opinion explains everything.

If a hungry man comes up to a rich boy and asks for the lobster spaghetti he is holding, and instead the boy gives him a biscuit. Would that be selfish? I'm guessing many people say yes.

BUT! What if the boy had noticed some contamination in the food? And therefore had avoided giving it to the hungry man so that he wouldn't get food poisoning? Was the boy not earlier deemed as selfish? But didn't his selfishness SAVE the hungry man?

Another point. I'm sure we've all heard the stories of concentration camps and Jews in Germany during WWII. So, US military stumbles upon such a camp, and the privates start feeding them. Then, the commander tells them to stop.

First reaction, WHAT A SELFISH, STINGY old man.

However, what we consider his selfishness, was actually a virtue! If people have not eaten properly for a long time, and you suddenly give them an all you can eat, they would die! Sure, they'd be hungry if you didn't feed them much. But, that's better than being dead, right?

*Under construction, cos I really gotta go. >.<*

**I HATE THINKING IN A HURRY**

HUGGLES!

On a less serious note, you mum was right. I like hugs!

Especially when they're from you. (:

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

CIP

Now, I was thinking this morning, and one thing led to another, and then, I arrived on the topic of CIP.

Now, is it really all that sensible a decision to make CIP compulsory? I understand that the Government is simply trying to make Singaporean students more civic minded, but, is it really working?

By making CIP compulsory, they are in fact making most students look at community service as a bother, something they HAVE to complete to make the cut for their CCA grades. As such, they begin viewing it as an irritating task that they have no choice but to do.

Also, by making CIP compulsory, the students embark on community service with a grudging heart, and is that really what we want? If you go and do community service unwillingly, doesn't it lose all meaning altogether?

Sure, there are the exceptional ones who do it with all their heart and soul. But those are only the minority.

Shouldn't Community Service be done as such? To treat it as a chore, something one HAS to complete, doesn't that defeat the original intention of the Government?

On to how universities of today look at Community Service records. Now, that is all fine and dandy, as we want more people of fine morals in our universities. But isn't it ridiculous if you look at it from another angle?

Before university application period, there is a flurry to do CIP. And after that? What happens? Suddenly, all the men and women of fine substance who were let into the universities lose their substance. Ok, maybe not all. But most.

What about those who do not glorify their deeds?

Are we not forgetting them?

For are the best people not those who do community service willingly, and do not announce how good they are to the world?

What of those people?

DAMN YOU SUNRISE! YOU MADE ME CRY!

*Spoiler alert*

How many more people are gonna die? T.T

They're running out of people. =x

I think I can see where this is going.

But still.

DAMN YOU! WHY!!!!!!

Cyborg. =x

But still died. ):

Louise too.

WHYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

*EMO*

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I DON'T LIKE YOU DTWH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BLEAH!

I DON'T LIKE YOU cos I LOVE you. =x

=D =) =D ='D

I never thought I could feel so happy. (:

QUIZ!

Toopid Toopid Derek. Why meeeeeeeeeeeee? xD Hahaha joking! I'm honored to be the top of the list. =x

A. List seven habits/ quirks/ facts about yourself

1. I'm a girl.

2. I'm straight, whatever people assume cos of my short hair.

3. I am HYPER

4. I like writing.

5. I love Daryl.

6. I quit piano cos I couldn't be bothered to practice. =x

7. I eat a lot. But aint fat. =x

B. Tag seven people to do the same. Not the person who tagged you. (:

1. Daryl

2. Yi Lin

3. Joji/ Rachel

4. Jonny

5. Brandon

6. Angelin

7. Uhh...YOU! xD Whoever you are. =x

OK. That was FUN! xD

Oh joy!

=D

I wanna cry... =\ Too happy.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. (:

I don't know what to say.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. (:

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. (:

OHCRAPOHCRAP!

No... T.T

Just kill me already.

Damn flight delays.

BLAHH. 1 more day. T.T

Was reading a friend's friend's blog today =x, and I saw this rather...meaningful post? xD

It was about love. Love is blind, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, blah. But what I wanna start with is this. "Love: A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person."

But can there truly be a dictionary or default definition for something so expansive? Love holds its own meaning for each person. How else to you explain how, with some, when they are with the one they love, they feel profoundly happy, whilst others, feel more of nervousness?

At least, that's always what I thought. I don't know. I still do. I feel that for something so immense, no explanation of words would suffice.

For God so loved the world that he gave his only son.

How can such great love be encompassed by the given explanation?

Farther than the farthest land, Deeper than the deepest sea, Higher than the highest mountain.

How can words describe something so much MORE than everything else in this world?

And on another note. Last day. (: I made it through, somehow. T.T Never want to go through that again. But then...there's always NS. =\ DAAAAAAAAAAAMN.

I'm going for NS too!!!!! xDDDDD

I never thought I'd feel this way for anyone. Never. All past 'crushes' are nothing compared to this feeling.

I used to get nervous around them. Around you I'm myself. =D

WHEEEEEEEEEOOOOOOOOOOEEEEEEEEEEEOOOOOOO.

Madd Ade= Crazy= @.@

Hehe.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Happy Easter!

Easter Mass today was great! I think I'm going to lose my voice tomorrow though. >.<

Out of darkness the light of Christ will shine....

WOOOOOOOOOO. xD

After that, went for Prata supper with Choir. =D Ate mutton and chicken mutabak! Hahaha! I eat more than my two gors, Mich and Marie. =D

COFFEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Maybe that's the reason why I'm so wide-awake now. xD

I'm quite high today. Was fooling around with the Easter eggs over supper. xDD

Butbut...I'm also still emo. ):

Where'd you goooooo......

3 more days. 3 more days. 3 days have never passed this slowly.

I AM WAKING UP EARLY TO WATCH KIDS CENTRAL! xD

Tomorrow got family gathering at my house. Then, somehow, gotta get through Monday, and then, the morning of Tuesday. >.<

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Lyrics: Where'd you go

"Where'd You Go?"

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

Lyrics: Come Home Soon- Pug Jelly

It's been two days and I'm missin' you already
Never really thought you could mean
So much in such a little time

Think about the nights when I'm lyin' in your bed
With my chest resting your head
Now that you're gone I'm here to stay

Chorus
I think I'm fallin' down. Down down down
With a bad case of love. Love love love
I think I'm falling for you. You you you
I think, I'm falling in love

Verse 2
When you come back all I wanna do is hold you
Have a blast even though there's nothing to do
Hold you close and look you in the eyes

So just come back and I'll tell you how I feel
Never knew how easy you could steal
My heart I miss you come home soon

(Chorus)

I think, I'm fallin' in love
I think, I'm fallin' in love

Bridge:
Cause I know that you won't be home when I call you
You're in England now, I hope that you'll be home soon
Cause I know that you won't be there when I call you, NOW

(Chorus)

I think, I'm fallin' in love
(slow) I think, I'm fallin' in love

I Miss you, and 3 days aren't ending soon enough. ):

I'm not falling in love. I already am in Love. And I don't think. I know.

Come back soon.

T.T

Wanted: Will pay with priceless things for the guy in the picture.

I miss you. ):

I'm crazy...If family sees this, I'm dead. >.<

Congratulations!

Congratulations to the AJC choir, for clinching the Grand Prize in the Riva Competition! xD

Great job guys. ((:

Ok. Back to emo. >.<

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Bored and Missing someone, so...

HAHAHA!

Hope family doesn't see this. >.<

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

SMS SMS SMS! (:

But I still miss you... ):

Our bills are gonna blow >.< Overseas SMS leh. Lol.

Thanks for smsing me and I'm sorry for not replying earlier...I didn't check my phone.

Glad you're having fun!

Glad you're in the most united group! (:

Photos!

Good job on doing well in the competition. I hope you guys made it to the grand finals!

Crap. Starting to tear now.

Bye.

Missing someone in progress

Sigh...Now I realise, 2 weeks IS indeed a long time. A very long time. I thought I'd be fine, but perhaps not...
I love you.
Glad you arrived safely in Milan. Will be praying for your safety the whole time. (:
I miss you.
Photos! xD
I want you back with me. Now.
ENJOY YOURSELF! xDD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

NO MORE HEADACHE!

Haha, so, I was racking my brains on which CCA to join, and today, ALL MY PROBLEMS HAVE BEEN SOLVED. NYP HAS A KENDO CLUB! SO COOL! That owns over all else. I've been wanting to take Kendo for like...FOREVER. xDD WHEEEEEEEEEEEE!

KENDO KENDO KENDO KENDO!

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

CCA.

WHICH CCA TO JOIN?!!! ZOMG.

Photography club, Basketball, Archery, WEI QI (Go basically), SO MANY! xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

PETS!

I got new virtual pets!

No offense was meant by the names. It's all in the nickname. ;)

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

PS: If any of you find it offensive, I'll remove it asap. ((:

MOTTO!

I was thinking, if I had a motto, what would it be?

So, while playing TW, my Tribal Leader was teasing me with stuff like

Me:No prob. You know my motto.
Oh wait. I don't have one. xDD

Him:LOL - you're crazy! How's that for a motto? :-P

Me:Hmm. How about, Hyper Ade to the rescue, flooding the world with smiles and laughter? xDD
THAT SOUNDS SO CHEESY. xD

Hahaha. xD

So anyway, I'm not sure if this is considered a Motto, but, it's something I've always believed in.

Sadness enhances the beauty of life, like the rainbow after a thunderstorm. Therefore, sadness is key to life. For without it, life would simply be an empty shell, where we only know one experience. Happiness. Emptiness. For without sadness, what gives happiness its allure?

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

You didn't notice when I started crying...

So wrapped up were you in that rectangle you were holding.

Cast aside with a coldly said "No."

I apologise for any morbid feelings from this post.

Ja'ne.

-Ade-

Sleepy... -o-

Really tired. Been tired the whole day. Actually nodded off during homily today.

But was surprisingly awake for Choir Practice. Even though it lasted until 9pm, it was fun.

Daryl! That song I was telling you about is Out of Darkness. 663. Remember it for me. ;) I sing it for your send off present. xDD

TAKE LOADS OF PICS YEA. ): Vatican City ESP. CHURCHES. WHEEE. xDD STS PETER SQUARE. BETTER TAKE PICS FOR ME!!! xDD

Zomg. Mummy was talking about a trip to Japan. I hope she wasn't serious when she say they go when my school starts. That would be plain evil. T.T

On to a more serious noted...Easter is coming. And before that, Maundy Thursday. I started thinking about it on the bus. And then I felt like crying. That and because of something else.

I realise what a lucky person I am. I've got great friends, a companion, and while my family is not the best, and I feel like we aren't truly whole sometimes, it's better than having been brought up in a single parent family.

A good house, comfort, and all the things I ever need, with some wants granted as well. A roof over my head.

And above all, I've got a God that loves me. He loves all of us, so in that sense, everyone of us have untold wealth.

But I believe in that God. And that just makes me so lucky. He's touched my life, given me so much, carried me through so much. That I was born into a Catholic Family, brought up to know such a loving father (not my blood father I'm talking about here...it's God for those who don't know), that truly makes me lucky.

The knowledge of his love was practically handed to me on a silver platter. And I didn't begin to full appreciate it until I hit Sec One. I never really thought about it. I missed so much, back then. =\

And I know I've said this, how I really think that Jews ARE God's Chosen race, because, look at them, they've got money, and everything. And yet, they don't believe that God has already sent his son down to us. They are still waiting.

But, we, Catholics, Christians, whatever, we are equally lucky, because we believe. And that means so much more to me than money ever could.

The sacrifice he made for us. I cry when I think of having to sacrifice someone. And yet, he gave his OWN SON. He gave himself for us.

This Maundy Thursday, I think I will not fast because I have to. I will fast because I want to.

The day Christ died for us.

And the most important day in the Catholic calender. Easter.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

PS: Daryl, my mum says when traveling, it's fine not to fast. But it's up to you. (: Try your best to go for mass k? But don't fret if you don't get to. God will understand. (:

HYPER LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW!!!

Ok. I wanted my 105th post to be a happy one. I GOT MY WISH! xDD

ZOMG. I could kill myself for being so blur.

So, anyway, appeal results were supposed to be released on Thursday. I didn't get any letter or anything, which was kinda weird. So today, I decided to check the appeal form, and there, sitting in BIG BOLD BEAUTIFUL BLUE words was:

Your JAE appeal result is: C93 Media Studies & Management

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! THE WORLD IS GOOD.

It's really lucky that I got in, considering it wasn't even in my 12 choices. I guess it's a good thing I got into NYP's Digital Media Technology. xDD If not, I would have never checked the website. And then, I would never have known NYP had Mass Comm. And then, I would be stuck in some ulu course I never really wanted. xDDD

Ok. That makes a beautiful 105th post. Ok. Not beautiful. But a very happy one.

Watch as your destiny unfolds before you.

You are safe in my hands. Just trust. Like a father watches over his son, I watch over you.

May there always be a smile on your face, as you pursue your dreams.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

I might just like flowers ;)

I think I'm starting to like flowers more now.
Because it was that sweeet blog post title.
Yep. xD

Except it would be wrong to say that, since I've generally always liked flowers. I just don't like them plucked/ in a bouquet. They're essentially dead. =\ I prefer, say, a FIELD OF FLOWERS. Woo. Preetty!! xDD

Of course, an on the spur gesture would be much appreciated. Hahaha.

Just be who you are.
There's no need to live up to my expectations.
Because those expectations aren't important anyway.
What's important is the here and now.

The you and me.

ZOMG! I just got reminded of this song we used to sing in Primary School Choir.

Wherever we go, whatever we do, we're gonna go through it, together.

It even had dance steps. Well, actions. Not really dance steps. -.-"

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

PS: 1 more post to the big 10FIVE!!!

The Knights' Code

Got this off FanFic, not sure where the original source is but I like it. ((:

A Knight is sworn to valour.

His heart knows only virtue.

His blade defends the helpless.

His might upholds the weak.

His word speaks only truth.

His wrath undoes the wicked.

There. ((:

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Story: Jealousy rears its ugly head.

Always, always, this feeling seems to surface. Whether he wants it that way or not, such ugly monsters are bound to make their presence known.

And such monsters are unwelcome, but yet they do not care. They still encroach onto his happiness, and take away his joy.

But, this is something he knows he has to fight.

Much as he hates it.

Much as it drains him.

Much as he loses himself to it.

*To be Continued*

I'm sorry...I'm too tired to write a long story, but just felt like making this post. xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Edit: You and your big ego.

I'll probably regret the title later, but who cares.

Forgive me for the swearing, Lord.

Look. This outing was planned FOR OUR GROUP. So if you want to bring your friends, you damn well organize your own. What do you think you are? Indisposable? HA! Only to that big ego of yours.

I won't die if you don't come. None of us will.

And you were the one who wanted a "talk". Shows you how important it is to you.

I have a good mind to give you a trashing you will never forget.

Ok. I'm done with swearing. Now to do my penance. I'm off my PSP for 3 days. That should be enough. Especially with Crisis Core on its way into my PSP.

Edit: I was right. Regretted the title as soon as I posted it. Still, my penance stands, cos I still swore.

Story: My greatest enemy is no one but myself.

A sudden fear eats me, and I find that I'm wishing death unto myself. It's as if I have been struck down and my sight snatched away from me. The feeling of insurmountable obstacles leave me grasping blindly around me, wishing for something, anything, which would lead me past this seemingly impassable mountain.

A sudden thought strikes me. What is this menacing mountain? I don't even know what gave birth to such fear. That thought does nothing, serving only to bring tears to my eyes. For what enemy is harder to defeat than one that is unseen to the naked eye? I question my fate, wondering what I did to deserve such a foe, one who has struck me down and ground my face into the ground with the sole of his shoe before taking a step back, waiting for me to get up just so he can beat me down again.

A sudden image comes to mind, and I feel a hot wetness at my eyes as tears of humiliation flow down at the sight of his mocking smile. I am nothing but a toy to this foe, one to be thrown into the dust when he grows weary of my feeble attempts to resist his dominance.

A sudden burst of strength and courage gained from false bravado, as my stubborn nature kicks in and tempts my entire being with illusions of sunny victories, cheers of the people I hold dear to me as I ride into the stadium, straight and tall on my mount, the proud victor over...

Nothing. Reality sinks in as I attempt the unclimbable, only to find myself sliding dejectedly back into the embrace of the silent earth. I give up, and I feel myself crumble to the ground as all strength in my legs abandon me. This is the end. I will remain here, to fade away into nothingness in due time. I look around in a final attempt to see if there is any route of escape, and find...

Nothing. I lie down, and close my eyes, wishing the end would hurry over.

I sleep restlessly, and dream of nothing. For hours, which turn into days, I do nothing, eat nothing.

One day, I don't know how many days after I had given up, I awaken at a slight scrabbling sound. My eyes slide listlessly, and I watch as a mouse mother sniffs around a boulder. My mind laughs at her futile attempts to shift the boulder, for what seemed like no proper reason. But one part of me, the part that still wants to live, is listening. I hear frightened squeaks, and I realize that her babies are trapped under the boulder, kept alive only by the tiny indent in the earth. Such small creatures are saved, and a human, so much more important, is left to die.

I continue watching the mother mouse, who has shifted her effort from attempting to shift the boulder, to attempting to dig a tunnel to her babies. I laugh once more, and close my eyes again.

When I open my eyes, I see the mother staring up at a house cat, her frightened eyes not backing down in the least. She is already wounded in several areas, yet her tiny squeaks seem to speak the language of brave soldiers who step into the battlefield embracing death. Something about her movements touch me, and I get up slowly, arduously, and with sudden gusto, flap my arms to chase the cat away. The mother mouse looks up at me, her eyes seemingly thanking me, but without further ado, goes back to her task of digging her tunnel.

I look from the mother mouse to my mountain, and find myself wondering why such a tiny, insignificant creature could find the courage to surpass the obstacle in its path, while I am left trembling in fear.

A sudden epiphany. The clouds of darkness seem to clear, and I stare into the face of my foe, and see...

Myself. The me, who disillusions herself from the true task at hand. The me, who escapes when she finds a task too difficult. The me, who puts herself before others.

But even as realisation dawns upon me, I feel the strength leaving me. I have, after all, not eaten for days. A weird thought crosses my mind, the first of its kind. I decide that if I am to leave this earth, I will do so with a noble finish to mark the end of my life. With the last of my strength, I roll the boulder aside, and watch as the mother mouse and her babies reunite. A smile crosses my face, and I like the feeling, strange as it feels on my face instead of someone else's. To die with such a picture of joy in front of me, I really wouldn't have it any other way.

But after a quick check to see if her babies are fine, the mother mouse scurries off. I watch in confusion, as the previously concerned mother mouse suddenly turns into an indifferent rat. There, that was the me of illusions, painting an all too pretty picture of the world.

Before long, I see something approaching me, which opens my eyes to see another side of me. The pessimist. The one who thinks the worst of anything happening.

The mother mouse has returned as a big hearted lion, and lays out such a spread before me that I have never seen before. It roars encouragingly as if urging me to eat, before it shrinks back to its mouse form and scurries away with its babies. Such oddities I had never seen before, and I eat with wonderment. I find strength finding its way back into me with each bite, and soon, I feel as strong as I did in the beginning, when I first came upon this strange land.

I turn back to the mountain, my mountain, and clamber up slowly, step by step, and as I do so, I vow never to lose to myself again. For which enemy is more terrifying than the darkness of your heart whose existence you refuse to acknowledge? Which enemy can be stronger than one who has his hold on you by your denial?

I reach the peak, and for the second time in my entire life, I smile. It's a welcome feeling, one I could get used to.

I close my eyes to take in a deep breath of the fresh mountain air. And when I open my eyes, I see,

Life, in all its fullness.

HAHAHA! I just felt like writing. Alright, it looks like I'm really rusty. Need to polish up on my skills more. ((: Still have the same old bad habits...

Writing never fails to cheer me up. YAY! It's been awhile since I've let loose like this.

Nothing written here was done with prior planning. In other words, I know its not excellent. But it contains my own effort and thoughts. So no idea stealing please! You can always ask me if you want to use it. xD

AND I THINK I GOT AN IDEA FOR A NEW STORY!

WHEEE!

Perhaps everything that happens, does happen for a reason. ((:

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

PS: This story was completely fictional in nature. Any resemblance to persons, living or dead, is purely unintentional.

This seriously has to stop.

STOP EMOING ALREADY. There's enough emo people around without you adding one more.

And I hope tomorrow goes well.

Back to emoing. GRRR.

ZOMG.

Serious bout of emoing. What in the world am I thinking? I really have no idea.

Ok. Note to self to STOP reading other people's blogs. Somehow that gets me emo? Well, not all blogs but some. =\

I'm currently angry at someone. Not planning to talk till my anger has abated. Not that he cares anyways. He's sleeping soundly right now.

Grah. You keep doing this...Why the heck do you keep getting mad?!! Ade!!!

Ok. Shit. I'm seriously emoing.

And now there are some problems on TW. ZZZZZZ.

No mood to sleep, no mood to do nothing. =\

GRAH. Just...I don't know...stop emoing already!

Bored. AGAIN.

Ok. This sucks. I'm bored, and I've got nothing to do. =\

Maybe I should consider taking my sister's blades and going roller blading outside...Although, I can't brake. And considering the cars in the area...zzz

I'M REALLY REALLY UBER SUPER DUPER BORED.

So, I'm going to sleep. But before then, yesterday.

I was so sleepy throughout the whole of yesterday, and I was unlucky as well. Thank goodness Jolene and Jaslene were lifesavers. Thanks to the gals who helped me ask around! ((:

Then, prac was funny. We were learning this new song, and there was this verse that sounded like it came out of a broadway musical, so Calvin gorgor and Rachel jiejie were making fun of it, and everybody started laughing. They were making quite a few jokes, and that actually helped keep me awake, so I'm glad I'm in the altos now and sitting closer to the funnies. xDD

Then after that was lunch. CHICKEN RICE. WHEEEE. xDD

Had a good chat with Jolene. When she heard I had a PSP, her reaction was "You also arh? Like everyone crazy over it." xDD

After that, we got down to business. Comm meeting was long, but there were some funnies. Imagine, FUNNIES WHILE REWRITING THE CONSTITUTION.

Yea. There was this rule which Jaslene kept picking on. "No Cecilian should stroll in after 9.45 a.m. or in the midst of Mass."

So we started laughing about how to change the rule, like, "If you're late, make sure to run in!" xD

Of course, we didn't use that. =\

So, meeting was uber long and Daryl kept me entertained throughout that long thing.

Then suddenly, they reached the part of rules on practices, so they brought up their previous plan to appoint section leaders. So we brought up names to appoint, and for altos, I appointed aunty Jo or Rachel. Then aunty jo said "Adeline." I nearly died. I'm a noob, the only role that suits me is as understudy, and you make me section leader.

My protests were ignored, so I'm the section leader for Altos now. T.T

And then, discussing the music comm and who would be in it, I suggested that besides the Choir Master and Assistant Choir Master, and the musician head, why not include the section leaders.

Stupid me. Now I've got comm meetings to attend and Music Comm meetings to attend. Thank goodness those take place once every four months. Comm meetings are once every two months. =\ What the heck...I'm planning to drop out of comm anyways. Although I get the feeling I'll just end up staying on.

Still remember being elected at P6, for position of chairman. They think too highly of a slacker like me. xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Ice skating. WHEEE! xD

Went Ice Skating today. xD Was fun, but it was kinda sad that so many people couldn't make it. ):

Stupid Daryl, choo choo train pull me down, now my butt is wet. GRRRR.

Hahahaha. After they resurfaced the ice, a gazillion people fell down. xD And Daryl started the chain. One by one people whammed their butts onto the ice. I didn't! Not till much later. xDD

Got this one guy...he fall down...skate like 3 meters...then fall down again. xDD I started laughing so much.

Then another one was, there were too small kids using the metal supports, then they crashed into each other. The funny thing was, they both fell down. Even funnier, the second kid to fall down, kinda did it in slow motion. I wonder if he was thinking. 'WHAM. Ahh. Eh? He fall down. Maybe I'm supposed to fall down too. Ok. I shall fall." xDD He was so funny...he really set me off. =\

And they all fell down.

HAHAHA. At first, I was doing quite well. Then started jerking a lot, so I thought to myself "Damn, I'm a noob." Later found out that when I tighten my laces, I go ZOOMZOOM. =\

I'm a kamikaze skater. WOOSH. SHIT NO BRAKE NO BRAKE. Yes, I can't brake for nuts, much as I zoom around. So, my only option is to slam into the wall. xDD

This one time, I grabbed hold of Daryl instead. Pulled him down onto the floor, lost my balance, slid forward, grabbed Avril, fell, pulled her down a little, and did a split myself. OWWW. My body is not that of a gymnast, thats for sure.

Met Viktoria there! What a small world! xD She's so funny. xD

GOOD JOB LEARNING ON THE SPOT AVRIL AND DARYL! Nice memory Jonny! xD And Jason's pro-er at ice-skating than roller blading leh. I didn't see him slide and slide and bang into someone. xD

I'm not a pro, but I guess I'm steady enough. Hahaha I'm so touched at what Viktoria said.

"Go away. I'm not gonna move unless Ade's the one supporting me."

YAY! I scammed someone into thinking I'm a pro! xDD

WAKAKA I still think the way I fell was so noobish. =\

Even the best fall down sometimes.

xD

WHAM into Sheck once, and Daryl the other.

I somehow find, you and I, collide.

ZOMG. I seriously think that song was written for ice skating. xD

Thanks for the sweets Jonny! ((: PRO. When your leg better we go zoom together ok? =D

To those who couldn't make it, LETS GO NEXT TIME AND OWN THE PLACE. WHOOO!

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Edit: ZOMG. The Ice Skating Rink was like a swimming pool today. =\ Then so funny, when we were walking out, a man overheard me saying so, and said "You can say that again, soon it'll be a diving pool." xDD SO FUNNY.

To all JJC students.

ZOMG. What has your school done to you? You can't access his blog so you hate mail him? That heightens the meaning of obsession altogether. And it's not the JJ spirit or whatever you call it. It's just insanity, close mindedness and dictatorship.

Singapore is a semi-democratic nation (even though we can't go up to the Istana and declare our love for the country), so get used to it then. If you guys are so unhappy, why don't you move JJC to say...China or something. xD I'm sure you could create a Jurong Road seeing how passionate you all are. Not happy, DON'T SEE LA! (In the Singaporean spirit.)

Puh-lease. I think other issues such as using tissue paper to "chope" tables are much better worth arguing over. =\ Really. At least that's actually an issue which questions people's level of civility. Which, considering Singapore is branded as a "First World Nation", is horrifyingly low.

Puh-lease. Mindless drones like you are old school. WELCOME TO DEMOCRATIC SINGAPORE GUYS. WE'RE NO LONGER UNDER THE JAPANESE OCCUPATION. Damn what do your history books teach you. Another reason why JJC sucks I guess? Bad teaching.

Hahaha. Just remembered the Japanese Occupation and what I learned about it from FIRST HAND stories. "DEFY US? WE KEEL YOU."

Stop being immature kids. You are in college for goodness' sake. GET A LIFE AND STOP RUINING OTHERS'.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

PS: I STILL HATE JJC. LALALA. xD

Sheesh.

Yes, my title says it all. SHEESH. Don't people have the freedom of speech anymore? For expressing how you feel about a school you got posted to (not by any means your first choice), you get flamed? xD Well, those unjust flamers just got their butts roasted.

CHESTBUTTS ROASTING ON AN OPEN FIRE. =D

So I'll say this. I'm not from JJC but seeing the MINDLESS DRONES and INCONSIDERATE people at JJC, with a serious dash of SELF-JUSTIFICATION, I think that JJC sucks too. Thank God it has people in there who redeem it.

JJ_Leader, TO HELL WITH YOU. =\

Yanling, NICE ARGUMENT. =D Thanks for helping our cause, and nice job dissing your own cause. =D

Miso, YOU ROCK! xD

I HATE JJC.

There I'm saying it. So flame me. If you wanna get roasted again. xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

D.gray Man 71! HOORAH!

D.gray man 71 came out!!! It was a great episode, and its great to see Allen with his left hand again even if it was black and all. xD

His hair grew longer...not as...defiant now... xDD

AHH. NOW I GOTTA WAIT TILL NEXT WEEK FOR 72!!! T.T

Nearly forgot this.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-


PS: ICE SKATING TOMORROW WILL BE FUN! WHEE!!! =\

Still bored... =|

Who's up for Ice Skating tomorrow?
I don't understand this...the more I think or learn about
Haha so sad Yi Lin cannot make it. ):
your past, the more it hurts, the more emo I become.
GRAH I'm really really bored. =\ And tired. AND MY CHOCOLATES GOT STOLEN. zzzzz.
Is this obsession? I think it is. Together with greed,
Gosh but the kit kat daddy bought for me...the caramel fudge one...is really oishi...
and Selfishness and possessiveness. I'm so sickening at times...
Ja'ne!
I'm sorry for waiting till now to tell you this...
-Ade-
I just didn't want to spoil your fun at orientation.

.........

I wanted to write something. But I forgot what. =\

Blah.
I love you.
Ja'ne!

-Ade-

I'm bored. =\

Bored bored bored bored. Very bored sitting at home like this.

Felt much better when I woke up this morning. Haha.

And I just felt like saying something, but the thought of my sister finding my blog is stopping me. But I really feel like proclaiming it. xD
I LOVE DARYL TAN WEN HUI AKA VAMPIRE AKA
Oh well. I guess I really can't proclaim it. (: But you know I mean it.
VAMPIRE PIG AKA ROTAN AKA ROTI PRATA.
Ja'ne!
AKA LARDY AKA DARYL AKA the love of my life.
-Ade-

Unknown Darkness.

Feelings you never knew you had. Jealousy of a person you barely know. Fear of losing someone important to a shadow of the past.

How many of us hide such feelings without knowing about it? I know I sure did. And I don't really know how much the talk helped, but I AM sure of one thing. It helped me acknowledge my negative feelings, embrace them in a sense. And I told you about something I should have told you about long ago.

I guess it was a good idea to start talking about the past. Sometimes you have to look back to move on.

I just need to say this last line, and it's off to bed for naughty me who's staying up late yet again.

Thanks. (:

Ja'ne.

-Ade-

Gundam 00

ZOMG. I HATE THOSE THREE NEW GUNDAMS. BUGGERS. WTF. LIKE SHINN. GRAH. STUPID PEOPLE. KILL THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously, they're misusing the Gundams' power. And they are such snobs. GRAH. GO DIE.

STUPID PINKY GIRL. WEAR PINK SUIT SOMEMORE. SO BIMBOTIC.

=\

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Edit:

WTH! That stupid girl just shot innocent folks at the wedding just cos they were enjoying themselves when she was slogging her guts out!!!!!! WHAT KIND OF SCREWY LOGIC IS THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Since she has so many complaints about slogging her guts out, just quit being a meister already. WTF MAN. I'm so glad Setsuna fought against them. GRAH. KEEL THEM!

D.gray Man.

Zomg. Finally caught up on the D.gray Man series. Haha Crown Clown is good...The true face of Allen's innocence huh? Sounds cool. xD

EPISODE 71 QUICKLY COME OUT!!!!!!! xDD

But it was quite sad when Bak let Fou go in and hold the Akuma off. ):

Ok. On to Gundam 00!!! Then D.gray Man Manga after that!!!

ZOMG! CROWN CLOWN! xD COOL MASK!!!

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

What a small world!

So anyway, shall blog about today. Went to watch a movie with Daryl at AMK hub, then ate BEEF NOODLES after that! HAHAHA YI LIN I ATE YOU!!! ((:

After that, went to buy a cover for my PSP. Then, we went down to basement 1, looking to take a seat at the fountain. On our way, I saw a guy in a white shirt ahead of me.

"Eh? That shirt looks familiar. Eh. Isn't that the shirt Jason wore to church today?"

So I run up to them, chocolates being jostled in their box (SORRY DARYL), then, I notice 2 girls! Both skinny, 1 tall, and one not so tall. HAHAHA. xD YI LIN AND AVRIL! YEA!

So, I change plan in a split second, from booing Jason to transforming into a silent assassin and delivering my killing blow. *POKE*

A scream pierces the busy air of the shopping mall. xD

Avril really got a scare. xD She thought what stranger go poke her. She said it was a pleasant surprise to see me though, since we were planning to meet up soon. A lot sooner than expected. xD

So, the whole BIG group stops, and come towards us and we start chatting, blocking up the pathway. xD Someone leaves first, although I would have expected that. Honestly didn't see him till after I poked Avril and they all came tho. =\

WHEE! The world is really such a small place. xD

So anyways, after that, they went their own way to pool and join Nicholas Chang. Daryl and I then continued on our (not so merry now) way to the fountain, where we started fixing the cover onto the PSP. I was complaining the whole way, like how the button holes weren't in their proper place and all. Nothing fit well at all. =\ So I thought, "Eh, MAYBE this is PSP one."

So we went back to check. Turned out we bought the wrong one. That was for PSP. Mine is PSP slim. =\

We two are so bodo. xD

And the box clearly wrote PSP too. =\

Oh well, got my new case in the end! WHEE.

Initial D Street Stage FTW! xD

Then, got pei-ed onto the bus, and fell asleep. =\ Comfy pillow. xD

Woke up was like, "Huh? Where am I?"

xD I am such a bodo. Sotong. BLUR GIRL. xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Memories

Ok. So, Pearl just came to me and asked me to think of a line related to memories. Don't actually think I did a good job, but, I kinda like SOME of the lines I came up with.

So, anyway, here's my favourite. Dreams of the past, leading to the future.

Okok, not very good, I know. But that's not my main point.

I was sort of thinking of words I would personally associate with Memories, and the first few words that came out were Timeless and Eternity. Yea, yea, so they mean the same thing. I know, but each sounds different and draws out a different emotion from each person. Well, for me at the very least. And I AM a person who exists, much as some people choose to deny.

I would also associate memories with Growth. Memories are what helps people grow. If you forgot every single life-lesson you had been through, do you think you would still grow?

Memories, good or bad, makes a person. Our memories help shape who we are, they shape our morals and values. Notice I said HELP. Ultimately, it is our character that determines the choices we make, and the choices we make create our memories. However, you could also look at it another way. Our memories shape our character, and thus memories are what creates more memories. The long overused example of the chicken and the egg comes to mind.

However, at the beginning of our lives, we were created with a base character, were we not? Our character would probably have existed long before our memories started. Noisy baby, or quiet baby, and such. =\ Going off topic. xD

Anyway, I shall now explain my reasoning behind the line.

What inspired it was the word Dreams. For are memories not also dreams of our past? When we reminisce, is it not like watching a dream of the past, playing itself for your own viewing, and maybe the people you are reminiscing to/in front of?

Movies, critically acclaimed or just rated as crap, do make appearances in theaters. In the same way, memories, good or bad, will always be there, in our minds, waiting to be played. (:

Alright, that's what I think anyway. (:

Next topic to think of, what defines a dream? xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Vampire Pig

Just thought of Spiderpig from The Simpsons, just couldn't resist the urge.

Vampire Pig, Vampire Pig, does whatever it is Vampire Pig does.

Oh man. That's just a ripoff.

VAMPIRE PIG! VAMPIRE PIG!!

He was a Pig.
He was a vampire pig.
Or, maybe he was just a Vampire.

xD Another ripoff.

Happy Valentines Day, Vampire Pig. xD

Which reminds me. I wanted to insert the history of Valentines Day in the previous post. I guess I'll do it now.

"One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men -- his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death."

So, this one DOES have a degree of 'romance' in it. Wait for the next one. xD

"Other stories suggest that Valentine may have been killed for attempting to help Christians escape harsh Roman prisons where they were often beaten and tortured."

So...nothing to do with how Valentine's day is celebrated.

OHOH. In Japan, they have White Day in addition to Valentine's day!

Haha and I know someone who always mixes the two up. For those who don't know, or are confused, Valentine's day is when the girl is supposed to give the guys chocolates, and White Day is when the guy gives the girl a gift. (:

I wonder what other cool traditions there are. I should start one of my own. xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Speechless. With amazement.

I am amazed. Amazed at how immature some people can get. I know I promised some people that I would stop thinking about this, but I saw something that made me laugh, so I decided I should make a post. Anyways this counts as fulfilling Yi Lin's request to update. xD

So anyway, what kind of coward posts stuff on his blog that are DIRECTED at someone and then blocks his blog? xD I have no idea. You all tell me. (:

I never said you guys needed my basketball to play. By that statement...Grah okay shall keep from getting technical for fear of a slamming that causes people to retaliate via even more...dumbass measures.

You're the one making life miserable for yourself. xD I don't really care. Okay that's a lie. I can't not care. But it's not like you're going to accept any advice from me, or perhaps from anyone, so there's simply nothing I can do about that. Haha.

Eh piglet. You shall be henceforth christianed Vampire Pig. xD

Sorry, couldn't resist putting that in.

So, anyway, anyone who read the above statement about the basketball, would generally know who I'm directing this to. Unless you don't know him. xD

Shall resist the urge for sarcasm, or senseless namecalling. No more personal attacks. (: Or at least, I'll try.

Hmm. Your attitude....ALAMAK. Nearly did it again. >.<

I AM quite a bodo. >.< Oh well. Better than being a...a...ahaha. Can't think of anything lame to put there.

MOO MOO! I UPDATED.

And I am SOOOOO gonna eat beef noodles this Sunday. BEEEEEEEEEF. Don't care about no 21st generation cow. xD BEEF! MooMoo! I EAT JOO!!!

Oh well. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY ALL!

Sobs. No chocolates from classmates this year. xD

Oh yea! I GOT MY PSP! YAY! xD

Valentines Day shall be spent playing PSP games.

Really don't see whats so damn good about Monster Hunter. Quite boring actually. It's overrated.

I WANNA GET CRISIS CORE WHEN IT RESTOCKS! FUNAN FTW!

For now, Final Fantasy Tactics: War of the Lions FTW. XD

Hmm...Initial D Street Stage any good? Recommendations anyone? xD Derek you IT pro. I'm counting on you!

So hard to surf the net on PSP. ): How you do it one...

Haha. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY AGAIN.

Ohoho. I just remembered something funny from 2 years ago.

"Wishing 3 times worhz." xD

Can't wait for my chocs. I'll cry when I get them. So touched. T.T

xD Still racking my head over a present. (:

Oh wells. Time to sleep. GOODNIGHT WORLD.

OMG. I sound like a bimbo.

*refreshrefresh*

Nights.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

PS: Just can't resist. PSP ROCKS. xD Virtual Tennis 3 is ADDICTIVE. Don't start playing it you hear me? DON'T. xD

My style is...various shots. WTF? I can play backline, I can push towards the net, I can do nearly everything but dropshots! ): I wanna be an all rounder.

I OWN ROGER WHATSHISNAME. In the game that is. xD Real Life, I'd just get owned upside down.

Random quizzes.

Bored. So, decided to take a few random quizzes.

Your Emoticon Is Smiling

Right now, you're feeling cheerful and content - without a care in the world.

What Emoticon Best Represents You Right Now?

Does that work? Yea it does. Yay. =\

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're a very well adjusted and happy person. Overall, you are very content in your life. You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.

What Do Your Dreams Mean?

You Are 91% Creative

You are an incredibly creative person. For you, there are no bounds or limits to your creativity. Your next creation could be something very great... Or at least very cool!

How Creative Are You?

Oh, by the way, I took random quizzes, so don't be surprised at some of the results. Or the quizzes I took.

Your Brain is Purple

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Brain?

Eeyer. I wanna be blue. Ah well. Enough for now. =\

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Write to be understood, Speak to be heard, read to grow.

As always, lack of inspiration for a post title means I'm using my current MSN nick.

Time really crawls when you're bored...

Anyways, added a hit counter. 1 hit looks so pathetic...

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Bored bored bored.

Was and am really bored. Been keeping myself occupied by spamming friendster bulletins, but reached the daily limit. Argh. It's quite addictive. Especially when stupid questions are asked, so I can give equally stupid/sarcastic answers. =\

Can't sleep. Just spent the whole day sleeping. =\

AHH. BORED.

HELP!

Ja'ne!

-Ade-