Still bored... =|

Who's up for Ice Skating tomorrow?
I don't understand this...the more I think or learn about
Haha so sad Yi Lin cannot make it. ):
your past, the more it hurts, the more emo I become.
GRAH I'm really really bored. =\ And tired. AND MY CHOCOLATES GOT STOLEN. zzzzz.
Is this obsession? I think it is. Together with greed,
Gosh but the kit kat daddy bought for me...the caramel fudge one...is really oishi...
and Selfishness and possessiveness. I'm so sickening at times...
Ja'ne!
I'm sorry for waiting till now to tell you this...
-Ade-
I just didn't want to spoil your fun at orientation.

.........

I wanted to write something. But I forgot what. =\

Blah.
I love you.
Ja'ne!

-Ade-

I'm bored. =\

Bored bored bored bored. Very bored sitting at home like this.

Felt much better when I woke up this morning. Haha.

And I just felt like saying something, but the thought of my sister finding my blog is stopping me. But I really feel like proclaiming it. xD
I LOVE DARYL TAN WEN HUI AKA VAMPIRE AKA
Oh well. I guess I really can't proclaim it. (: But you know I mean it.
VAMPIRE PIG AKA ROTAN AKA ROTI PRATA.
Ja'ne!
AKA LARDY AKA DARYL AKA the love of my life.
-Ade-

Unknown Darkness.

Feelings you never knew you had. Jealousy of a person you barely know. Fear of losing someone important to a shadow of the past.

How many of us hide such feelings without knowing about it? I know I sure did. And I don't really know how much the talk helped, but I AM sure of one thing. It helped me acknowledge my negative feelings, embrace them in a sense. And I told you about something I should have told you about long ago.

I guess it was a good idea to start talking about the past. Sometimes you have to look back to move on.

I just need to say this last line, and it's off to bed for naughty me who's staying up late yet again.

Thanks. (:

Ja'ne.

-Ade-

Gundam 00

ZOMG. I HATE THOSE THREE NEW GUNDAMS. BUGGERS. WTF. LIKE SHINN. GRAH. STUPID PEOPLE. KILL THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously, they're misusing the Gundams' power. And they are such snobs. GRAH. GO DIE.

STUPID PINKY GIRL. WEAR PINK SUIT SOMEMORE. SO BIMBOTIC.

=\

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Edit:

WTH! That stupid girl just shot innocent folks at the wedding just cos they were enjoying themselves when she was slogging her guts out!!!!!! WHAT KIND OF SCREWY LOGIC IS THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Since she has so many complaints about slogging her guts out, just quit being a meister already. WTF MAN. I'm so glad Setsuna fought against them. GRAH. KEEL THEM!

D.gray Man.

Zomg. Finally caught up on the D.gray Man series. Haha Crown Clown is good...The true face of Allen's innocence huh? Sounds cool. xD

EPISODE 71 QUICKLY COME OUT!!!!!!! xDD

But it was quite sad when Bak let Fou go in and hold the Akuma off. ):

Ok. On to Gundam 00!!! Then D.gray Man Manga after that!!!

ZOMG! CROWN CLOWN! xD COOL MASK!!!

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

What a small world!

So anyway, shall blog about today. Went to watch a movie with Daryl at AMK hub, then ate BEEF NOODLES after that! HAHAHA YI LIN I ATE YOU!!! ((:

After that, went to buy a cover for my PSP. Then, we went down to basement 1, looking to take a seat at the fountain. On our way, I saw a guy in a white shirt ahead of me.

"Eh? That shirt looks familiar. Eh. Isn't that the shirt Jason wore to church today?"

So I run up to them, chocolates being jostled in their box (SORRY DARYL), then, I notice 2 girls! Both skinny, 1 tall, and one not so tall. HAHAHA. xD YI LIN AND AVRIL! YEA!

So, I change plan in a split second, from booing Jason to transforming into a silent assassin and delivering my killing blow. *POKE*

A scream pierces the busy air of the shopping mall. xD

Avril really got a scare. xD She thought what stranger go poke her. She said it was a pleasant surprise to see me though, since we were planning to meet up soon. A lot sooner than expected. xD

So, the whole BIG group stops, and come towards us and we start chatting, blocking up the pathway. xD Someone leaves first, although I would have expected that. Honestly didn't see him till after I poked Avril and they all came tho. =\

WHEE! The world is really such a small place. xD

So anyways, after that, they went their own way to pool and join Nicholas Chang. Daryl and I then continued on our (not so merry now) way to the fountain, where we started fixing the cover onto the PSP. I was complaining the whole way, like how the button holes weren't in their proper place and all. Nothing fit well at all. =\ So I thought, "Eh, MAYBE this is PSP one."

So we went back to check. Turned out we bought the wrong one. That was for PSP. Mine is PSP slim. =\

We two are so bodo. xD

And the box clearly wrote PSP too. =\

Oh well, got my new case in the end! WHEE.

Initial D Street Stage FTW! xD

Then, got pei-ed onto the bus, and fell asleep. =\ Comfy pillow. xD

Woke up was like, "Huh? Where am I?"

xD I am such a bodo. Sotong. BLUR GIRL. xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Memories

Ok. So, Pearl just came to me and asked me to think of a line related to memories. Don't actually think I did a good job, but, I kinda like SOME of the lines I came up with.

So, anyway, here's my favourite. Dreams of the past, leading to the future.

Okok, not very good, I know. But that's not my main point.

I was sort of thinking of words I would personally associate with Memories, and the first few words that came out were Timeless and Eternity. Yea, yea, so they mean the same thing. I know, but each sounds different and draws out a different emotion from each person. Well, for me at the very least. And I AM a person who exists, much as some people choose to deny.

I would also associate memories with Growth. Memories are what helps people grow. If you forgot every single life-lesson you had been through, do you think you would still grow?

Memories, good or bad, makes a person. Our memories help shape who we are, they shape our morals and values. Notice I said HELP. Ultimately, it is our character that determines the choices we make, and the choices we make create our memories. However, you could also look at it another way. Our memories shape our character, and thus memories are what creates more memories. The long overused example of the chicken and the egg comes to mind.

However, at the beginning of our lives, we were created with a base character, were we not? Our character would probably have existed long before our memories started. Noisy baby, or quiet baby, and such. =\ Going off topic. xD

Anyway, I shall now explain my reasoning behind the line.

What inspired it was the word Dreams. For are memories not also dreams of our past? When we reminisce, is it not like watching a dream of the past, playing itself for your own viewing, and maybe the people you are reminiscing to/in front of?

Movies, critically acclaimed or just rated as crap, do make appearances in theaters. In the same way, memories, good or bad, will always be there, in our minds, waiting to be played. (:

Alright, that's what I think anyway. (:

Next topic to think of, what defines a dream? xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Vampire Pig

Just thought of Spiderpig from The Simpsons, just couldn't resist the urge.

Vampire Pig, Vampire Pig, does whatever it is Vampire Pig does.

Oh man. That's just a ripoff.

VAMPIRE PIG! VAMPIRE PIG!!

He was a Pig.
He was a vampire pig.
Or, maybe he was just a Vampire.

xD Another ripoff.

Happy Valentines Day, Vampire Pig. xD

Which reminds me. I wanted to insert the history of Valentines Day in the previous post. I guess I'll do it now.

"One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men -- his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death."

So, this one DOES have a degree of 'romance' in it. Wait for the next one. xD

"Other stories suggest that Valentine may have been killed for attempting to help Christians escape harsh Roman prisons where they were often beaten and tortured."

So...nothing to do with how Valentine's day is celebrated.

OHOH. In Japan, they have White Day in addition to Valentine's day!

Haha and I know someone who always mixes the two up. For those who don't know, or are confused, Valentine's day is when the girl is supposed to give the guys chocolates, and White Day is when the guy gives the girl a gift. (:

I wonder what other cool traditions there are. I should start one of my own. xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Speechless. With amazement.

I am amazed. Amazed at how immature some people can get. I know I promised some people that I would stop thinking about this, but I saw something that made me laugh, so I decided I should make a post. Anyways this counts as fulfilling Yi Lin's request to update. xD

So anyway, what kind of coward posts stuff on his blog that are DIRECTED at someone and then blocks his blog? xD I have no idea. You all tell me. (:

I never said you guys needed my basketball to play. By that statement...Grah okay shall keep from getting technical for fear of a slamming that causes people to retaliate via even more...dumbass measures.

You're the one making life miserable for yourself. xD I don't really care. Okay that's a lie. I can't not care. But it's not like you're going to accept any advice from me, or perhaps from anyone, so there's simply nothing I can do about that. Haha.

Eh piglet. You shall be henceforth christianed Vampire Pig. xD

Sorry, couldn't resist putting that in.

So, anyway, anyone who read the above statement about the basketball, would generally know who I'm directing this to. Unless you don't know him. xD

Shall resist the urge for sarcasm, or senseless namecalling. No more personal attacks. (: Or at least, I'll try.

Hmm. Your attitude....ALAMAK. Nearly did it again. >.<

I AM quite a bodo. >.< Oh well. Better than being a...a...ahaha. Can't think of anything lame to put there.

MOO MOO! I UPDATED.

And I am SOOOOO gonna eat beef noodles this Sunday. BEEEEEEEEEF. Don't care about no 21st generation cow. xD BEEF! MooMoo! I EAT JOO!!!

Oh well. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY ALL!

Sobs. No chocolates from classmates this year. xD

Oh yea! I GOT MY PSP! YAY! xD

Valentines Day shall be spent playing PSP games.

Really don't see whats so damn good about Monster Hunter. Quite boring actually. It's overrated.

I WANNA GET CRISIS CORE WHEN IT RESTOCKS! FUNAN FTW!

For now, Final Fantasy Tactics: War of the Lions FTW. XD

Hmm...Initial D Street Stage any good? Recommendations anyone? xD Derek you IT pro. I'm counting on you!

So hard to surf the net on PSP. ): How you do it one...

Haha. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY AGAIN.

Ohoho. I just remembered something funny from 2 years ago.

"Wishing 3 times worhz." xD

Can't wait for my chocs. I'll cry when I get them. So touched. T.T

xD Still racking my head over a present. (:

Oh wells. Time to sleep. GOODNIGHT WORLD.

OMG. I sound like a bimbo.

*refreshrefresh*

Nights.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

PS: Just can't resist. PSP ROCKS. xD Virtual Tennis 3 is ADDICTIVE. Don't start playing it you hear me? DON'T. xD

My style is...various shots. WTF? I can play backline, I can push towards the net, I can do nearly everything but dropshots! ): I wanna be an all rounder.

I OWN ROGER WHATSHISNAME. In the game that is. xD Real Life, I'd just get owned upside down.

Random quizzes.

Bored. So, decided to take a few random quizzes.

Your Emoticon Is Smiling

Right now, you're feeling cheerful and content - without a care in the world.

What Emoticon Best Represents You Right Now?

Does that work? Yea it does. Yay. =\

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're a very well adjusted and happy person. Overall, you are very content in your life. You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.

What Do Your Dreams Mean?

You Are 91% Creative

You are an incredibly creative person. For you, there are no bounds or limits to your creativity. Your next creation could be something very great... Or at least very cool!

How Creative Are You?

Oh, by the way, I took random quizzes, so don't be surprised at some of the results. Or the quizzes I took.

Your Brain is Purple

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Brain?

Eeyer. I wanna be blue. Ah well. Enough for now. =\

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Write to be understood, Speak to be heard, read to grow.

As always, lack of inspiration for a post title means I'm using my current MSN nick.

Time really crawls when you're bored...

Anyways, added a hit counter. 1 hit looks so pathetic...

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Bored bored bored.

Was and am really bored. Been keeping myself occupied by spamming friendster bulletins, but reached the daily limit. Argh. It's quite addictive. Especially when stupid questions are asked, so I can give equally stupid/sarcastic answers. =\

Can't sleep. Just spent the whole day sleeping. =\

AHH. BORED.

HELP!

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

77th post!

And in a flash, it's nearly the end of the month. And what a month it has been! Stupid things have happened, stuff that made me sad, stuff that made me happy. I'm sure it's the same for most of us! (:

Nonetheless, this month has hopefully been a month of growing. Growing together with friends, family, and whoever might hold a special place in your heart. It has definitely been so for me! xD

Photos! I'm not photogenic at all. xD Face it, Ashley is the cutest thing in that picture. xD Hmm...maybe not the cutest. *nods*

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Superb dinner.

Dinner yesterday was nothing less than enjoyable, and everything more than good. (:

Great company, good food, and a doggy under your foot for once. xD What more can I say? I enjoyed myself completely. Thanks for inviting me auntie! xD

Hahaha I wanna have a pillow fight again. >.< I'll win next time! You'll see!

I really enjoyed myself. (:

Hahaha met Alex and saw Serjia across the road. xD A day of coincidences indeed.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Just to prevent any misunderstandings.

When I mentioned to become a better person in the previous post, I did not mean you're not a good person now. There is always room for improvement. I know I have my weak points as well.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Bible phrases back my words!

Just can't resist this. xD

Hate me if you want, but what I told you earlier about vulgarities is completely true and I AM BACKED BY THE BIBLE.

Ahaha. I really should start reading the bible again. Can learn so much from it and get so much peace from reading it.

I seem to be consulting big heavy books alot lately. Namely my darling dictionary and my beloved bible. =\

Maybe not consulting. Random flipping through it. xD

Ok. (: Here goes the spam of bible phrases.

From the book of Sirach (never knew such a book existed!), within the first 43 chapters, which mainly praise wisdom and contains general moral teachings.

From chapter 20 of the book, mostly morals of speech.

Sir 20.18-19

"A slip on the pavement is better than a slip of the tongue;
the downfall of the wicked will occur just as speedily.
A coarse person is like an inappropriate story,
continually on the lips of the ignorant."

Yea! Backed by the bible man! (:

Andand!

Sir 23.12-15

"There is a manner of speaking comparable to death;
may it never be found in the inheritance of Jacob!
Such conduct will be far from the godly, and they will not wallow in sins.

Do not accustom your mouth to coarse, foul language,
for it involves sinful speech.

Remember your father and mother when you sit among the great,
or you may forget yourself in your presence,
and behave like a fool through bad habit;
then you will wish that you had never been born,
and you will curse the day of your birth.

Those who are accustomed to using abusive language
will never become disciplined as long as they live."

And I'm not saying I'm great. I'm just saying that you are behaving like a fool. =\

Since this is one of those "Catholic Youth Bibles" with learning points throughout, and since there happens to be one here, I might as well include it.

"You might wonder, So, what's the problem with foul language? Why does Ben Sira call it 'sinful speach'(Sir 23.13)? Well, part of the problem is that using it easily becomes a habit. You become less aware of when you are using it. You can get yourself into trouble. Ben Sira warns that you may 'behave like a fool through bad habit' (verse 14).

Maybe the worse part of the problem is that frequent use of foul language shows a lack of respect and reverence for others and certainly for God's name. Ben Sira reminds us, 'such conduct will be far from the godly" (verse 12).

Certainly, there are more creative ways to express emotion or frustration than relying on those all-too-familiar foul words. If you've developed the habit of using them, ask God and your friends to help you stop."

There. If using vulgarities to express anger does not make a right, what does using it nonchalantly make it? Remember that you ARE a Catholic, and I'm sure you have been confirmed, so you MADE the decision to remain Catholic.

And another thing that seriously urks me is how much backstabbing you've been doing recently. It might not harm you, but it hurts the persons involved.

Sir 19.4-17 (That's alot to type. And believe me. I'm doing this more for you than for myself.)

"One who trusts others too quickly has a shallow mind,
and one who sins does wrong to himself.

One who rejoices in wickedness will be condemened,
but one who hates gossip has less evil.

Never repeat a conversation,
and you will lose nothing at all.

With friend or foe do not report it,
and unless it would be a sin for you, do not reveal it;

for someone may have heard you and watched you,
and in time will hate you.

Have you heard something? Let it die with you.
Be brave, it will not make you burst!

Having heard something, the fool suffers birth pangs
like a woman in labor with a child.

Like an arrow stuck in a person's thigh,
so is gossip inside a fool.

Question a friend, perhaps he did not do it;
or if he did, so that he may not do it again.

Question a neighbor, perhaps he did not say it;
or if he said it, so that he may not repeat it.

Question a friend, for often it is slander;
so do not believe everything you hear.

A person may make a slip without intending it.
Who has not sinned with his tongue?

Question your neighbor before you threaten him;
and let the law of the Most High take its course."

This seems to condemn gossip, and gossip only. But. If you read carefully, it speaks to the current situation.

You had to go and spread a relationship around. Idle gossip.

You said that if Daryl wanted to say that kind of things, he could "fucking well leave the brotherhood." You couldn't be bothered to check if he had really used such words before condemning him, and even if he HAD, is this what you should say as a friend?

People are telling me you hate me and have washed your hands clean of me. Hate me if you will, your forgiveness means nothing to me. NOTHING. Yada. Zilch.

I have done what I felt God wanted me to do. Perhaps from this, you might begin questioning your actions, and become a better Catholic. Scratch that. A better person.

And if your mind leads you to think "what about those fucking others who are worse than me?"

Let me tell you this. Don't compare yourself with those worse than you. You will not improve that way. And secondly. Do you honestly wish to be like those mindless fools, doing what they do because "everyone does it!"

You're a strong minded individual in actuality, and I see that in you. Use that strong-mindedness to help you, not to harm you.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Release of O'Level results!

Hahaha! Am quite surprised that alot of people haven't blogged about it. xD

Well, my results were...a miracle. xD Considering how I've been telling everyone "I'm screwed cos I didn't study" (and I wasn't lying about the never study part), I did better than I had expected. xD 21 points for my L1R5, and 15 for L1R4. I know that although my parents don't say anything, they are disappointed, since they've always been telling me that I can get 6 points IF ONLY I STUDIED. And I do feel sorry for having disappointed them. But, no sad feelings about my results. Haha I didn't really feel anything.

When I got to the dance studio (which was packed already, even though I got there before 2), I remember hearing one of my friends say, WAH ADELINE IS THE BEST! LIKE DON'T FEEL SCARED AT ALL LIKE THAT. LOOK AT HER FACE. xD hahaha

And behind me they were all freaking out. >.<

Release of results. Well, people were crying for 11 pointers. >.< Wth. xD

Me? The moment I got my paper, I started scanning it for an F. (EH HOW I KNOW O'LEVEL NO F! xD) When I didn't see anything, I was like, wth wth wth. Then I saw a D. That's still a fail, but I didn't do as badly as I predicted for Amaths! xD

Ahaha. A2 for english. =\ Where's my A1. xD Oh well be satisfied.

Alot of B's. xD

STUPID DARYL. xD Still dare say what "I know I will do like shit." 7 pointer lar. That's like an A1 for EVERYTHING. Except english. Eh rejoice for that A2. You beat alot of self proclaimed english professers. xD "MY ENG DAMN PRO ONE."

Eh shit. Got...not very good. xD

Hahaha. STUPID DARYL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Still want drop out of JC for what. And seriously...you shouldn't have DSAed. Then wanna drop out also so much easier. xD

To those who are disappointed about their results, RELAX. =\ Can't do anything about it anyway.

To those who are happy, YAY! (:

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

With much consideration

After much thought, while I haven't decided what kind of miracle it would take to solve this whole dumb mess (it IS immature...and dumb...most of the onlookers think so), I have at least cleared my thoughts abit.

Now that I think back, I'm quite glad I did what I did. In doing that, I kept true to an oath I made to myself and to God quite awhile ago, and that is to be myself under all circumstances, to stay true to myself, never betraying my heart, and to stand up for what I believe in.

I thought what you all did was wrong, and I said it. And I said it to your faces, so I didn't backstab anyone. And most importantly, my conscience is clear.

Perhaps I could have phrased it better. Perhaps I could have said something else. But you know what? I'm not gonna let that get me down. Nobody is perfect. Face it, even you aren't.

If you say your conscience is clear as well, I'd laugh. You either are too thick-skinned, or just that heartless.

Call this preaching if you wish. Call me whatever you wish. Hate me if you want.

Its up to you if you want to spend your whole life being angry at the world, spend your whole life wallowing in hate. I feel that my energy is better spent on other aspects of my life. Pardon me for saying this, but I have better things to do with my time then stay angry at you.

I hold no grudges against my fellow men. "Forgive and Forget", Jesus did say that. And so, I'll put in my best effort, I'll use 200% to try and follow his commandments.

And I'll pray for you, that you might stop hating.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Funny comic.

Well. Sorta. xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

In addition...

And for some probably un-needed information.

I do not think you guys suck. (:

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

BARNEY! xD

ATTACK OF THE PURPLE DINOSAUR! (Always knew he was trying to take over the world) xD

So anyway, Serjia and I made up this song in dedication of such a wonderful picture.

Bardzilla's Song

I love you, you love me
So you should~ feed~ me
Then we'll all be fat and happy evermore,
Won't you let me eat you up.

HAHA!

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Does friendship need a name?

I think that BB4H is just utter rubbish.

Do you guys really need to put a name and requirements on friendship? That is just immature, possessive and stupid.

Since when did the value of friendship stoop to that level? Is that all the word "friends" means to you guys? If it is...well...your loss you know...Since you don't seem to fully understand the meaning of such a beautiful word.

Friends aren't people who game with you when you're bored, or who make you laugh to entertain you when you're bored. They are more than that. They are people who stick through you in thick and thin, and don't betray you with hurtful words.

Friends like you all...I guess...that would be what people term as "Fair weather friends".

Do you even understand how much what you all are doing is hurting others? If you know, and continue doing it intentionally, then, I have nothing more to say.

I'll always be here to lend a listening ear, so don't fight it alone. (:

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

If only

You know what would be nice? To go to sleep and never wake up. Its tiring to see such things pass in front of my eyes and be unable to do a thing.

Yea. Sleeping forever sounds good.

But I know thats not gonna happen anytime soon, so I'll just live as I always have, taking whatever the world throws at me...

And FYI, you are a Catholic, so you should know that its a sin to swear. You should really cut down on your nonsensical (face it its stupid and immature) use of the word "FucK" and all its derivations.

If you thought it was cool, you were wrong.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Hypocritical buggers.

So, maybe I DID overreact. Whatever. I've always hated hypocrites. And if that makes me the very thing I hate, so be it.

Hmm...but that's something to consider. If you hate a hypocrite, does that make you one yourself? xD

Bloody bitchy backstabbers. And to think that you two are guys. Hai...As a girl, I don't gossip or backstab half as much as you two immature beings.

Ahh see? I'm getting pissed again. Hypocrites always do this to me.

Today, I truly learned the meaning of "With friends like these, who needs enemies?"

Indeed...It hurts to be backstabbed by a friend. And weird thing about me is. It hurts me to see people backstabbing friends. Haha. Damn. Perhaps it was because of my err...traumatic past? xD

Hypocrites suck. Down with them!

Haha see Yi Lin? I updated!!!

Yay! Yi Lin, Avril and Daryl are coming over tomorrow. Hammocks! Crapping! WOO. xD

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

International Varsity Debate 2007

Well, was watching Channel NewsAsia with Daddy after lunch today. And. I am speechless. Embarrassed. Humiliated.

The debate takes place in mandarin. Interesting isn't it?

It was Cairo University vs some university from Korea. And the first speaker from Cairo university totally outspeaks me. I'm a Chinese for goodness sakes!

Haha. But the topic was pretty interesting. Would have liked to try a debate of that topic in English.

Can't really remember the exact topic since it was read out in chinese. But the main theme was PLASTIC SURGERY. xD

Situation was really ironic considering the team from Cairo University had to support plastic surgery whereas the Korean team had to condemn it. >.< Virtually a reversal of roles.

Well, don't really wanna go in depth with my opinion, so I shall stick to this phrase? xD

"Beauty is only skin deep, and only holds value to those who place value on it."

So, how important is beauty to you? (:

Of course, it also depends on your definition of beauty, or rather, which aspect of beauty you speak of. Beauty, in the physical sense? Or would you rather, beauty from within?

^^

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Sniffles.

Ahh...Think I'm falling sick...sian...

Been really lethargic of late. Like...sleep sleep sleep still tired. Hai...
Seems to me that the only time I'm awake is when I'm with you...
Oh well...I should be glad I can still be active. Pretty much. Haha...

AHH ITCHY NOSE. >.< Sniffles too...

Oh well. Good luck with school ya'll.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

How to forgive.

Nice email. Again. Ending doesn't really link to title, but who cares.

One day a while back, a man, his heart heavy with grief, was walking

in the woods. As he thought about his life this day, he knew many

things were not right. He thought about those who had lied about him

back when he had a job. His thoughts turned to those who had stolen his

things and cheated him. He remembered family that had passed on.

His mind turned to the illness he had that no one could cure. His very soul

was filled with anger, resentment and frustration. Standing there this day,
searching for answers he could not find, knowing all else had failed him, he
knelt at the base of an old oak tree to seek the one he knew would always be
there. And with tears in his eyes, he prayed: 'Lord - You have done wonderful
things for me in this life. You have told me to do many things for you, and I
happily obeyed. Today, you have told me to forgive. I am sad, Lord, because I cannot.
I don't know how. It is not fair Lord. I didn't deserve these wrongs that were
done against me and I shouldn't have to forgive. As perfect as your way is

Lord, this one thing I cannot do, for I don't know how to forgive. My anger is
so deep Lord, I fear I may not hear you, but I pray that you teach me to do
this one thing I cannot do - Teach me To Forgive.' As he knelt there in the
quiet shade of that old oak tree, he felt something fall onto his shoulder. He
opened his eyes. Out of the corner of one eye, he saw something red on his
shirt. He could not turn to see what it was because where the oak tree had been
was a large square piece of wood in the ground. He raised his head and saw two
feet held to the wood with a large spike through them. He raised his head more,
and tears came to his eyes as he saw Jesus hanging on a cross. He saw spikes in
His hands, a gash in His side, a torn and battered body, deep thorns sunk into
His head. Finally he saw the suffering and pain on His precious face. As their eyes
met, the man's tears turned to sobbing, and Jesus began to speak. 'Have you
ever told a lie?' He asked? The man answered - 'yes, Lord.' 'Have you ever been
given too much change and kept it?' The man answered - ' yes. Lord.' And the
man sobbed more and more. 'Have you ever taken something from work that wasn't
yours?' Jesus asked? And the man answered - 'yes, Lord.' 'Have you ever sworn,
using my Father's name in vain? ' The man, crying now, answered - 'yes, Lord.'
As Jesus asked many more times, 'Have you ever'? The man's crying became
uncontrollable, for he could only answer - 'yes, Lord.' Then Jesus turned His
head from one side to the other, and the man felt something fall on his other
shoulder. He looked and saw that it was the blood of Jesus. When he looked back
up, his eyes met those of Jesus, and there was a look of love the man had never
seen or known before. Jesus said, 'I didn't deserve this either, but I forgive
you.'

It may be hard to see how you're
going to get through something, but

when you look back in life, you realize how true this statement is.

Read the following line slowly and let it sink in.

If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

The difference between Heaven and Hell.

Another nice email. I'm leaving soon so bye all! See ya on friday!

A holy man was having a conversation with the Lord one day and said, ' Lord, I would like to know what Heaven and Hell are like.'

The Lord led the holy man to two doors. He opened one of the doors and the holy man looked in.

In the middle of the room was a large round table. In the middle of the table was a large pot of stew, which smelled delicious and made the holy man's mouth water. The people sitting around the table were thin and sickly. They appeared to be famished. They were holding spoons with very long handles that were strapped to their arms and each found it possible to reach into the pot of stew and take a spoonful. But because the handle was longer than their arms, they could not get the spoons back into their mouths. The holy man shuddered at the sight of their misery and suffering .

The Lord said, ' You have seen Hell.'

They went to the next room and opened the door. It was exactly the same as the first one. There was the large round table with the large pot of stew which made the holy man's mouth water. The people were equipped with the same long-handled spoons, but here the people were well nourished and plump, laughing and talking.

The holy man said, 'I don't understand.'

'It is simple,' said the Lord ' It requires but one skill. You see they have learned to feed each other, while the greedy think only of themselves.'

Ok. That's it.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Botak Jones! (:

Went to Botak Jones for lunch today. The food was great. STUFFED JALEPENOS! I think thats how you spell it...

Con carne...minced meat with jalepenos, onions, and some other stuff in some cool mexican tasting sauce. WOOO. My favourite still!

Hahaha.
This is torturous. I swear I'll never make it through. You're on my mind all the time. ):
Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Nine and a half hours more.

9 1/2 hours before departure to Genting. Shall exhaust myself for the long car ride.

Mum's not letting me bring my lappy. If there are any changes, you'd quite obviously see. xD

But I never really found Genting very cold. I sweated in Genting before. Without a jacket. In the monsoon period. >.<

Oh well. At least I SHOULD have something to blog about when I get back. And I SHOULD be able to get some writing done.

Don't miss me! Haha
9 1/2 hours to departure and I'm missing you already. This is gonna be torture.
Ja'ne!

-Ade-

And so it draws to a close...And so it begins.

Sayonara 2007.

And the year 2008 kicks off!

Could hear my neighbours making a hell lot of noise when I went down to wish my dad. Tsk. Kids these days. *Shakes head*

Anyway, the year has been off to a great start! Yes, and I hope it'll stay that way. I have a feeling 2008 and I will be great friends. *Nods*

WOOO!

Okay. I'm going mad. xD

HAPPY NEW YEAR AND MAY THE YEAR AHEAD BE A BLESSED ONE FOR ALL OF YOU, FILLED WITH JOY, LAUGHTER, AND JUST ENOUGH SADNESS TO MAKE EVERYTHING ELSE A THOUSAND TIMES MORE BEAUTIFUL!

Besides, we'd never grow quickly enough without those sad but impactful occasions.

Haha. Not thinking straight.

I WANT ALCOHOL!

Oh well.

Hmm...New Year Resolutions. Haven't really thought about the NYRs. I guess the first one would be to actually come up with resolutions. Haha. Hopefully I can at least keep that. Oh wait. I can!

1. Bully Daryl less.
2. Actually get some academic work done.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

New year is coming!

Haha. Just had to do this. End the year on the 55th post. xD

And while everyone's partying and stuff, what am I doing?

Well, I shall usher in the new year with friends, books, and Planet Earth. Woo! What a great way to usher in the new year! And I'm not being sarcastic either.

Well, adieu, 2007.
I'm in love your hugs. (: But I more in love with you. "You're on my heart just
I will keep my memories locked deep within my heart.
like a tattoo, and like a tattoo, I'll always have you!"
Ja'ne!

-Ade-

The year is ending soon, and, OH! What a year it has been!

My tagbox is dying. I swear if it had feelings it'd be feeling depressed by now. Except I can't swear. Oh well.

School starting soon for most, and I'm going to be slacking around in the meantime. Even if I were to go to my mom's international school to try out the system there and check whether it actually suits me better than Singapore's stringent one, school only reopens on the 7th of January. Ahh I feel like such a slacker. (:

Well, its nearly the end of the year, and its the time when everyone starts thinking, "How was this year for me? Have I managed to keep to all the resolutions I made at the beginning of the year?" Sadly, the answer to that question for most, would be no. For me? Well...didn't really make any new year resolutions at the beginning of the year. Sorta gave up on that tradition.

Well, perhaps next year would be a good year to start again...

But enough of what has yet to come. What about what has past?

I'm sure that most of us have changed, however subtly, throughout the course of this year. I have changed quite drastically in certain senses, as those who know me well MIGHT know. And I do feel that I have grown, and that is something worth being proud of, I would think.

What with O'Levels and all, this has been a hectic year. Even through all the academic focus teachers were piling over us, I still managed to keep to my role as a slacker. Not exactly something to be proud of, but that has remained a constant.

Friendships made, friendships broken, through it all, I've managed to hold through to my values, and for that I am thankful. What with my mum not letting up with her behavior, I would definitely feel guilty if I did not dedicate at least a line to all my friends.

Thanks for putting up with me, through all the times when I was feeling grumpy, and when I felt like I was being torn to pieces. Without all of you guys, I would never have made it through in one piece.

Another important thing this year which I must not forget. Confirmation. Indeed, I changed immensely within the short duration of the camp. Perhaps it would be more accurate to refer to it as growing, rather than changing. How much the grace of God showed itself in each and every participant.

Blogging about that reminds me of something. I did say I would do a reflection of the camp, but I never got round to it, with all the internet problems and laziness and all. Oh well. Such precious memories will be locked up in my heart for the whole of my lifetime (I hope), and I might talk about it when I feel like.

If I could pick a word to describe this year, I would pick the word, change. Indeed, this has been a year of change for me. But have I changed for the better? Only time will tell.

Nonetheless, this year has been immensely gratifying. While I remain a self-proclaimed slacker, I have accomplished stuff outside of academic concerns, for which I honestly don't give a damn. >.<

And as I end off this post which is far too lengthy as it is, I wish for the year of 2008 to be as impactful as 2007 was, and I hope that 2008 will contain more joy for every single one of my friends. Do not forget, that I am always here to lend a listening ear.

Fare thee well, 2007. I will probably bid thee farewell at our inevitable parting in slightly more than 24 hours.

Damn, haven't done that for too long.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

What if...

Through an incident, I have...well, I wouldn't say learnt, since there is no right to teach. But, I have formulated my own opinion, and my conviction has strengthened. And all in this one night.

This is going to be part religious, part philosophical, so those who are opposed to it, read no further.

I used to think of a lot of "what ifs". But today, a new thought crossed my mind. Why must there be what ifs? Since we Catholics believe that our God is all-knowing, and that everything that happens, does so for his reasons, even if they remain strange and distant to us?

And of course, this thought goes hand in hand with another. One that I never really believed in. I never believed that God has planned our future, and I insisted strongly that we were the ones ruining our lives by ourselves, that everything that happened, did so because of us, and solely cos of us.

And yet, why did it have to be that way?

Since God is all-knowing, isn't it possible for him to lay down his plans for the future, and yet take into consideration our free will?

And that is why people make mistakes. But he knows we are going to make that mistakes, and he will guide us back in his unseen ways. He did not plan for us to commit sins. He hopes we will not. But he knows that we are humans, and thus not infalliable, and as such, he plans for us to realize our mistakes either through other people, or through shocks in our lives.

I know that many readers will want to dispute this and disagree with it. Feel free to. I never did say this is the one and only answer. This is simply my opinion, and you can dispute it as you will. I will stand firm.

And I do believe that God is watching over each and everyone of us. Without him, tonight would have ended quite differently.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Something insightful.

Well, another interesting email.

A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track.

The train is coming, and you are just beside the track interchange. You can make the train change its course to the disused track and save most of the kids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way?

Well, make your choices.... xD

Hmm...SUSPENSE...

Think...

Sure of your choice? Good.

Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child. You might think the same way, I guess. Exactly, to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally. But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place?

Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was. This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday. In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are. The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined. And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.

The great critic Leo Velski Julian who told the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use, and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens. If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track! Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe. If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.

While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.

'Remember that what's right isn't always popular... and what's popular isn't always right.'

Everybody makes mistakes; that's why they put erasers on pencils.

Interesting thought, isn't it? Sure sheds a whole new light on things. xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Life is cruel at times. But it is also that cruelty which enhances its beauty.

Haha. Title inspired by Planet Earth. Great documentary. I would highly recommend it to nature lovers. And to those who aren't normally interested, watch it and be awestruck and the greatness of the wilderness. More on this later anyway.

Christmas was pretty...uneventful. Haha except I went to see the sunrise with Daddy, Avril, Yi Lin, Daryl and Jason. xD In the end, there were too many dark clouds to see the sun rise. -.-"

Yea...uneventful Christmas. The play went well, and it ended on quite a good note. xD Was surprisingly wide awake throughout mass despite my severe and obvious lack of sleep. Christmas mass always has that magical effect on me. ^^

Uh huh...yea...

Haha. So anyway. On to Planet Earth. My sis got me the dvd set for Christmas. How awesome is that? xD

Enjoyed myself thoroughly watching the spectacular fliming, and the perks of dvds added to the experience. I was wowed by the amount of effort put into this series, and knowing the amount of effort invested in the series puts it in a whole new light.

The power of nature is beautiful. Tear-jerking. Inspiring.

And we are destroying that beauty for our own convenience. Damn.

Stupid Daryl. Stupid Dracula. Never say. Grr.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Christmas Eve!

Yay! 1 more day to christmas.

Today, or technically, yesterday, was a tiring day. Alot of things happened that made me feel that there was a lack of christmas spirit. And it also brought to mind this song I used to be the soloist for.

Christmas, isn't christmas, till it happens in your heart.

Nice song. And its true...the christmas spirit can only be found in your own heart. And in my opinion, you can't really sense the christmas spirit in others if you don't have it in your own heart.

So I guess...While I have been complaining about how christmas is so commercialised and stuff, I failed to realise that I myself have lost the christmas spirit. And that is one of the worst things.

And now, as I ask myself if I'm prepared to celebrate Christ's coming, I am unable to give a solid answer.

But, I am starting to feel it. Through my friends. Thank you all. Everyone of you. I guess I got too caught up by petty conflicts.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Why God allows pain.

My friend forwarded this to me by email, and I opened it thinking it was one of those chain mails that were only good for a laugh. Boy, was I wrong.

Still, its not a habit of mine to spam contacts' emails, so I'm posting the story on my blog instead. It's really quite a nice way of putting it.

A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.

As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.

They talked about so many things and various subjects.

When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said:

"I don't believe that God exists."

"Why do you say that?" asked the customer. "Well, you just
have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist.

Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?

Would there be abandoned children?

If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain.

I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."

The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't
want to start an argument.

The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.

Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long,
stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard.

He looked dirty and unkempt. The customer turned back and entered the barber
shop again and he said to the barber:

"You know what? Barbers do not exist."

"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber.

"I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"

"No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because

if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed
beards, like that man outside."

"Ah, but barbers DO exist! That's what happens when people do not
come to me."

"Exactly!" affirmed the customer. "That's the point! God,
too, DOES exist!

That's what happens when people do not go to Him and don't look to Him
for help.

That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."

Nice? (:

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

Strange woman...

Oh yea. After our practice for our skit, we were standing around the church canteen, when something really weird happened. But I wasn't really paying attention.

Well...apparently, this woman dragged this chair and hit Jolene's leg. There was an exchange of words which I didn't quite catch, because that woman was mumbling to herself. I did catch "asshole" though.

In church!

But anyway...apparently, she pointed a finger. And while I do not want to assume that it was the third finger, what else could it have been in such a situation?

And she was also making a big fuss about us taking a whole row of seats? When there were more than enough empty seats? O.O Wow she's fat. xD

Under normal circumstances, I would have been extremely sarcastic. Today was not exactly a normal day. >.<

Maybe it was because I didn't know what exactly had happened, and didn't want to jump to conclusions. Maybe, I was just sleepy. Or perhaps, I don't care anymore. Nonetheless, I was standing there, watching the drama before me in amusement.

Trisha did say some funny things. xD

And teddy bear and Derniese were laughing/smiling too.

My first time seeing Jaslene pissed. xD

That woman had an...err...attitude problem kinda face. xD

"I've always wanted to be an eagle. Perhaps all I ever was, was a sparrow."

Well, if the above is true...then perhaps I should change my blog title to, Hop little sparrow, hop away from the broken pieces. >.<

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

I'm trying...but it's trying...

Credits for the title goes to Jonathan...it was his MSN nick for awhile and it struck me. Hope you don't mind me stealing it. xP

Tiring day. In part because I slept at 4 am and woke up at 7 plus. In part cos I went shopping. No matter what kind, it just tires me out. And in part cos, well...alot of time was spent walking around.

But while we didn't buy the gifts...we've pretty much settled on what to get everyone. Now I'm just left with my personal list of recipients.

Jigsaws are FUN! xD I saw so many cute doggy ones today...Shall buy them after christmas and fix them up. xD

Yea...

I'm sorry for that...uh...outburst just now. I wish you hadn't seen me in that...uh...pathetic state.

Am I just setting myself up for a fall? Regardless...I will have faith. But yea. It's trying.

Ja' ne!

-Ade- [zonked out.]

I wish for the same thing...

Listening to Jean to Leo now...nice song...sad melody and all...but still nice! xD

Anyway, today was sheck oink's birthday, so moomoo and I went to her house in the morning. We figured that she wouldn't be surprised by the cake, so we came up with a plan. xD

Moomoo ran up and told sheck oink that I'd sprained my ankle, and to go down and help me. Apparently, when sheck oink asked how I'd sprained my leg, moomoo came up with the most hilarious reply. "She got too excited when buying cake, so sprained her ankle."

LOL. Anyways, sheck oink fell for it and we managed to give her a surprise.

Sorry if we made you worried!!

My stuffed toy dog...has a big ass... >.< But its comfy to squeeze and all. ^^

Ahh...think its dinner time...

I'm sorry that I freaked out over nothing... >.<

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Lyrics: Anata ga Koko ni Iru Riyuu

Anime: D.Gray Man
Artist: Rie Fu
Song Title: Anata ga Koko ni Iru Riyuu

Well, the song title basically translates to "The reason why you are here". As always, any mistakes made in spelling of terms and names are purely unintentional.

Well, maybe its just cos this song is pretty much sung in a range that is comfortable to me, but it caught on pretty quickly. For me, this was a song I enjoyed singing. Then again, I enjoy singing several songs. The tune also caught my ear pretty quickly.

From the opening, you can tell that its going to be a meaningful song. And it doesn't disappoint. Even with my limited understanding of the Japanese language at this point of time, this song does bring tears to my eyes when I am in an emo mood. Well, it did that one time anyway.

Lyrics are pretty meaningful as well, and nice to sing. xD Unlike Daybreak's Bell, I don't think this song is from any one person to another. The lyrics are such that it really applies to most of the main D.gray Man characters. Yea, even the Noah clan.

My favourite lines for this song...Hmm...Hard to pick...

[私が今ここにいる理由を
これからも探してる]
{watashi ga ima koko ni iru riyuu o
kore kara mo sagashiteru}

Translating to,

The reason that I’m here,
I’ll continue searching for it

Thanks to gendou.com for providing the lyrics once again. ^^

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Pure white, snow with all its delights. Stark black, the night sky and the stars which light our paths.

Another rainy day. Hahaha the sky cried again.

A fun day nonetheless! Yi Lin (moo moo), Daryl (vampire), Serjia (puppy) and teddy bear came over to my house today!

Hahaha moo moo, vampire, puppy and I all settled the details last night, but then kinda dragged teddy bear over at the last minute. xD

Anyway, we started off just playing bridge. Which then turned into a round of dai ti where puppy got 3 tis and 3 aces if I remember correctly. Of course he won. >.<

Halo-ed after that! xD Damn Halo 2 on legendary difficulty is just imba. BUT WE SURVIVED HUNTERS ON LEGENDARY! xD Although before we even got to the hunter part, we died many many many times. Single player legendary is HARD. xD And we did cheat with the hunters. We had a turret. THOSE DARN SNIPERS. xD

The way Serjia played was damn funny. The stupid "GOD" marine was not killing anything, so he tried to push him closer to the enemies. And the marine kept running back to his spot. So puppy pushed him off the roof, since he was on the edge. And then we sat back and watched as our little "GOD-MODE" marine sniped everyone's ass. xD

And then we went to the "park" behind my house and had a swing. WHEE!! xD I'm flying so high! And teddy can swing two swings! xD PRO.

"I'm willing to try and accept both black and white. But are you willing to share both colors with me?"

Ja' ne!

-Ade- [HYPER]

The Golden Compass

Haha. Watched The Golden Compass today. Excellent show! Haha ICE BEARS OWN! One is imba enough...imagine a whole army! xD

I like the protagonist's attitude. Haha. Stubborn, defiant and such. And a tomboy to boot. WHOO.

Anyway, after the movie, we stoned a little, then went to the kopitiam and shared $5 worth of Char Kway Teow. It was so good, that we got 3 more bowls. =x

PIG OUT! Hahaha!

Short post, but anyway...OFF TO WATCH GUNDAM 00!!

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

East Coast

Haha. Damn tired right now. Rain and cold really saps your energy.

Went to East Coast with Avril, Yi Lin, Daryl, Elphin, Jason, Jin He and Serjia today. It was raining the whole time. Damn. Haha not that it wasn't fun.

Met Yi Lin at 7.15, and went on to Yio Chu Kang to meet Daryl and Serjia. Serjia was late! xD We overshot our bus stop and had to take it back. =x

Anyway, when we got there, it was raining so we decided against starting to cycle without the rest. And then, went to macs a little wet and ate food. Jason called saying that they were reaching already, and started laughing at us cos we left our houses so much earlier. In the end, it took them another half an hour at least to get there. xD

Finally got ourselves to get up and move, so we all started cycling. Cycling in the rain is fun! Rain on your face, wind whipping at it. Nice and cooling.

Serjia and I rode really really far, towards the Bedok Jetty side, looking for Jin He and Daryl. Turns out they went in the opposite direction. Oh well, at least we got to ride. xD

I was playing in the sea with Yi Lin and Daryl, and we started a small scale water fight. While trying to dodge one of Daryl's attacks, I fell down into the water. =s Not that I wasn't wet already, but still...I was salty! xD Quite fun though.

Played Bridge after that. At first, I was damn lucky, and whoever was my partner would win. For 5 whole sets. WOOTZ~ xD

Ahh...alot more stuff, but feeling lazy. And I just realised this post isn't really like my usual style. Oh well.

Butt hurts from sitting on the bike seat. I should use a cushion next time.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Mozilla Firefox

Well, switched to Mozilla Firefox for my internet browser for some reason. My first reaction when I saw my blog was, "WHOA. The widgets are whole! I'm sticking to it."

But when I saw my blog heading, T.T.

Oh wells. Shall stick to it for now.

"If I really gave you faith, then I am glad that my efforts have reached someone."

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Random Things...

I'm the last person I would have expected to feel this way.

Anyway, now my mum tells me that I still have to entertain the guests for tonights housewarming, even though none of them are my friends. Grr...I wanted to go to my room and be anti-social, but looks like thats not gonna work.

My dad's side is coming, and I haven't seen most of them in a really long time. Not exactly close with the kids there either. They're either too young, or too umm...I shall not say anything. Now I'm wondering if my nephew who is a year younger than me is coming. Then at least got someone to talk anime with. >.<

And then...mum's collegues. Seriously. Apart from having had dinner with some of them, and talking to them when I was just a primary school kid going to my mum's office during the holidays, I don't really know them. Haha.

Man, and I'm supposed to entertain them? I'm not good at these kind of things. Hai...

Oh wells. I'm considering putting up another song review, but haven't found a suitable song yet.

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

Halo 3

Hahaha. Tiring day. But fun at the same time.

Walking around aimlessly was boring but fun. xD

Haha. Went over to Yi Lin's house to play Halo 3 too. Detaching turrets are gay man. Master Chief looks like Heavy Weapons guy from team fortress 2 when he does that. But spamming turret fire at hunters = ownage.

I still like the swords though. The hammer is a really really cool melee weapon, but not my kind of thing.

Stupid scorpians don't have machine guns anymore. );

Haha. Friendly Fire is a real blast. xD

So are poke fury attacks. ^^

I'm a smart girl, Daryl. I guessed correctly! xD Told you they would go to your house to surprise you! Haha.

Halo 3, at least in terms of gameplay, is still a really fun game. I like the imba turrets. xD

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

O.o! >.<

Oh wow. No there is no next song. I am bored, but I'm also tired, so I'm going to sleep.

I do have a complaint though. Why is it that blog entries about song lyrics always seem the be the longest? Ahaha.

Ok. Really really sleepy. Nights all.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Lyrics: Daybreak's Bell

This is by far my most active blog yet, and in a bid to keep it this way, I've added a random part. I shall post jap lyrics here, with translation of course, to let all marvel at the beauty of japanese characters. Of course, some characters are exactly the same as Chinese, but lets just ignore that part. =x Oh and I might just add song "reviews" while I'm at it. ^^

Avril said I sound ang moh when I'm speaking in Chinese. Oh no. I have let down my mother tongue.

Hmm...think I shall start with an overall review, then go into my favourite lines.

Anyways, here goes. Any mistakes made in spelling of terms and names are purely unintentional.

Anime: Gundam 00 (WOO! NEW GUNDAM SERIES. EXIA <3)
Artist: L'Arc-en-Ciel
Song Title: Daybreak's Bell

Well, its a cool song, and although the opening is not say, as "shiok" or "awesome" as other Gundam Opening songs, the chorus is pretty good. Especially when the lead goes into the high notes. Awesome. No idea how he does that. Just gay. Haha "My wishes over their airspace" whoo! Gay pitch. I can never ever hit that, unless I tried really really hard, and even then, it wouldn't sound very nice.

I like the intro though. And then when it launches into the song, you might go a little o.o that's it? Especially if you have heard other Gundam Songs.

BUT. It catches on after awhile. And as you listen and get used to the style of this song, it sounds pretty good. Catchy chorus too. It got me humming along. I would have sang, except for the gay notes in there. I am not good enough. =s

Another thing about this song, like most songs that catch my eye. Its lyrics are pretty meaningful. The essence of it (In gundam 00 context) is, Marina Ismail, princess of Azadistan [Don't ask, I think its supposed to be some reference to Afghanistan. Or maybe not.] wants Setsuna, our dear Protaganist and Pilot of Exia Gundam, to stop killing and bringing pain upon himself, and to live for tomorrow. Yes. Chase your dream. Typical stuff. ^^ But its all good.

Now, for my favourite lines.

[振り向かず羽ばたけこの想いを運んで あの空を飛んでく
願いは誰にも撃ち落せない]
{Furimukazu habatake kono omoi wo hakonde ano sora wo tondeku
Negai wa dare ni mo uchiotosenai}

Which essentially means,
Fly away without looking back, embrace the feelings within you, and spread it across the sky
Wishes cannot be shot down by anyone.

Ooh. Pretty. Colorful. xD

Thanks to Gendou.com for providing the lyrics.

On to the next song!

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Bowling and stuff.

Hey! For some reason, been really tired the whole day. Whenever I could, I went to a corner and "slept".

Anyways, want bowling with some friends today, and when I took my usual 11 pound ball, I was surprised at how much lighter it felt...

Perhaps it was all the push-ups at basketball camp...Not that I'm complaining!

Alright, Yi Lin is feeling bored, so I'm going to wintermaul solo with her, so lets cut this short.

Daryl, that line at Sembawang was SUPER corny. =x I like your shoes! I like stepping on it more!

Haha bowling was fun. Arcade was fun too! Lunch was...weird...Haha Jason just manages to make everyone laugh. xD

I saw a BIG FAT DOGGY being sold at Plaza Singapura...So cute! Haha but man...its huge. As in. HUGE. I think...it would leave me feeling very squashed on the bed. Ahh. But its cute. I'm lacking a vampire though.

Not everything was smooth sailing, but oh well. Lets just hope everything works out.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

3-2-1 BOOM!

I've exploded. Over lunch too. My tomyam mee hoon kuey...NOOO. Couldn't I have finished eating before declaring that I had lost my appetite? Ah. So hungry now. But a mixture of pride, being too headstrong and erm...anger? compels me not to step out of my room.

Not angry with anyone. Just her. AS USUAL. Haha.

Sometimes, I really wish I could just up and leave. Like, maybe sleep in the park for a few days. But I like my bed! So. Lock the door and pretend it's another place. WAH. PEACE AND SAFETY AT LAST. HAHA.

Oh yea anyway, yesterday, Yi Lin, Avril (sheck sheck =x), teddy bear, Daryl, Jin He and Nicholas came over to my house after playing basketball. HAHA!

Teddy Bear was the best. Well, one of the best. "I'm not eating lunch cos I got lunch waiting at home." And what time did he leave? 6 plus with the rest. LOL.

And when my sister came in to tell us we were making too much noise, Daryl said "Sorry Aunty." BUAHAHAHA. XD

DOH.

And today, SHE had to spoil all of that. Damn. No mood to dota even. NOOOOOO.

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

If all women from Venus are like that, thank goodness I'm from Pluto.

As of this moment, this is currently my MSN nickname. And I think it pretty much speaks for itself. Oh wells.

Err...but yea. If all the women in the world are like that one. I'm glad I'm a blur sotong who lives in my own world. ^^

On another note. I LIKE MY MSN FONT RIGHT NOW. haha.

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

Breakfast at Coffee Bean

Haha had breakfast with my Godma today, perhaps my first time having a good ol' fashioned talk with her. It was an enjoyable breakfast, and yes, it was good to see my Godma after so long, the last having been on Confirmation.

Well, christmas is coming really soon! Haha but I realise that everytime christmas rolls round, I'm pretty much too broke to get gifts for anyone. NOOOOOOOO. Haha. So, this year might be another giftless year. Damn. Better save and economise for now. Haha.

My trip to Japan got cancelled. T.T Boo Hoo.

ZZZ. So. Sleepy.

Super short post. Who cares. ^^

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

GRAH!

Well, switched on my lappy with every intention of updating my fanfiction before writing proper, and while I still have that intention, searching for a certain song led to a whole lot of songs being added to the page. Well, at least you guys have the music to accompany the lyrics now! I'll try and add more lyrics and songs here if you guys want, so yea.

Now, I have to go write.

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

Graduation

A night of glitz and glamour, in a different way for each individual. While most were dressed in pretty dresses and stunning gowns, there were those who, like me, wore pants! Haha! Aww. Haha. My table sported a total of 3 white ties! Haha and Savie's tie was the same color as mine. Except. My tie is a cheater. Haha its one of those zipper kinds...don't need to tie! WHEEEEEEE. Haha.

Shall post up the pictures at another time, when I do actually get them. Because I forgot to bring my camera along! Haha not that I'm complaining. Being camera man is great. It means you don't need to be IN the photos. HAHA.

It was a nice dinner, except I was still hungry! And I don't like strawberry deserts!! =x

After dinner, there was this activity where our form teacher took a ball of wool, and we each threw it to one person, saying something nice about that person at the same time. We tied a length of it around our fingers before throwing, so that it eventually formed a web. Many were the times the ball of wool went down before reaching its target, and seeing as how we were wearing pants, Savie and I picked it up whenever possible. But even with all thelaughter and misses, the web was eventually completed, and we were all linked. Then, came the next part.

Our form teacher took out a pair of scissors and cut the string, supposedly setting us free from our Secondary school memories so we could fly free. My classmates were shouting "NO! MRS KUNNA DON'T DO IT!"

On a mischievous streak, Savie and I did ask Mrs Kunna to do the evil laugh before she started cutting the string. =x "MUAHAHA."

Eventually, with much ado, the string was cut, and everybody got a piece of it to bring home with them. And so ends our journey as students of the school.

Grah. Shall stop here. Having hangover symptoms although I didn't drink. And when I do drink? No hangover. My body is contrary.

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

Should I?

Haha! My blog has more and more lyrics every day...RARR. Now, is that a good or bad thing?

Oh well...its all good. Nice music. Xp

On another, equally random note, should I join Nanowrimo this year? What with agreeing to help one of my friend's friend with english, and O's cutting into the month of november, and all the paegant practices that are going to be on, its gonna be a tight schedule.

November starts tomorrow, and I haven't even decided on a theme IF I'm gonna join Nano this year. Dang.

For all who don't know what the heck I'm talking about, Nanowrimo is a challange to writers. "Complete a 50,000 word Novel in the month of November." Grammar, story value, its all up to you. They just want to count the words. And that's where the biggest challange comes in. Will you choose to write a crappy story just for the sake of the word count? No prizes are given even if you win, so why torture yourself like that?

Because it's fun! ^^ You may think I'm mad, and perhaps I am. Mad about writing.

To those who are interested, here's the webbie:

www.nanowrimo.org

That should do it. Now, back to my contemplation of whether or not to join this year.

The challanging schedule I'm gonna have is SO appealing. It'll be so fun (as well as stressful) to try and reach the word count by the end of the month.

Rarr...

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

Thanks!

Yes, that was a random emo post. And this is an equally random thank you post.

Thanks Teddy Bear! Just the fact that you were willing to listen helped a lot! A LOT!

Thanks Avril! For listening so sweetly, and giving me your thoughts and advice! -hugs-

Thanks gor! For encouraging me!

And thanks to the thrashtalk crew! You guys made me laugh! It helped loads!

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

I couldn't answer

I had a dream. I dreamed I was dead. And when I went up to heaven, the Lord asked me if I had lived a life with no regrets.

I couldn't answer.

He asked if I had lived a fulfilling life, and if I had managed to touch anyone's lives.

I couldn't answer.

He asked, if I had managed to forgive everyone who might have ever have irritated me.

I couldn't answer.

He shook his head sadly, and asked, "Then, my child, did you manage to forgive yourself?"

I stared at him. And stared. And the tears started to fall.

I couldn't answer him.

That heart of mine, so full of anger, self-hatred, and selfish thoughts. And I had to open it up and show it to him. I couldn't bear it. I had taken every single one of his expectations and thrown them to the ground, ground them in. How was it that I could still face him?

I hadn't used the gifts he had given me. I was like the servant who hid his master's talents into the ground, and when his master returned, gave the talents back saying "Here it is. I didn't spend it or take a piece from it."

What right did I have to talk to him?

I couldn't answer.

But it was too late. I was dead. And I couldn't turn back time. I regreted my life. And I cried.

"If only I had told my mum how much it hurt."

"If only I had told him how much he meant to me."

"If only I could have forgiven them."

"If only I could forgive myself."

And as I stood there, I stared at him. And I wept.

I found myself trembling. I was afraid. So afraid.

I didn't want to be thrown into eternal suffering.

And so I cried. The tears which had refused to be shed when I was alive fell now that I was dead.

And then he asked, "Do you think you deserve to enter these gates of heaven?"

And I couldn't answer.

No. This isn't a real dream. Was just feeling depressed, so I decided to write this random emo story. But, the fears in there are real. Well, mostly.

He asked me if I had given love.

And I couldn't answer.

Strength comes from...genes?!

Ok. I'm guessing most you guys reading this went, "WHAT THE HELL?!" at the title. But that IS the main topic.

Was talking to my Dad over dinner just now, and he was saying something about how my grandma is old and sickly, and how she makes life difficult for the people around her. So I added that my mom probably got her tyrannical mood swings from my grandma. (Those of you who know me probably know what I'm talking about.) Anyway, I added that it had been passed from mother to daughter not once, but twice. From grandma to mom, from mom to sis.

"Thank goodness I'm the younger kid, so my sis took all the grumpy genes." LOLZ

Dad said maybe I got the grumpy genes too, so I said "Nah. I'm more like you."

Hot-tempered for sure, but not petty as well. I can forget why I blow up most of the time. Except in certain circumstances, that is. Anyway, my dad told me about how his mom, (who died when I was about 2 years of age) was very sick but never complained, and how she suffered in silence instead of making a big fuss. She was indeed a very strong woman, who brought up a whole gaggle of children on her own.

My dad, like her, is strong of heart. And I am glad to say that I inherited that quality from him! Those of you who have heard me share about how bad my mum can get and how unreasonable she is would understand what I mean. I guess most normal people would already have turned to drugs if they were in my shoes?

Then again, I probably would not have made it this far if not for the support of my friends. They gave me strength to carry on when I was at my weakest, and those who are really close to me have even seen my tears when I felt like I could go no further, and when I most felt like giving up.

Thanks to all of you guys!

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

True Love

Hmm...Well, was chatting with a couple of people, and somehow, this became the main topic.

"Do you think True Love exists?" (Between People)

From there, quite obviously, the conversation went two ways. The believers and the non-believers. And my answer to that question showed me how much my thinking had changed.

In the past, my answer would probably have been "YES! I believe that there is such a thing."

But perhaps that was never my honest opinion, right from the start.

However, what Jason and I said was this:

True Love does not exist. (SHOCK. I know some of you will be shocked that I had this reply. XP But wait. It goes deeper.)

Our reasoning was that since humans are imperfect, human love is flawed, and that true love needed to be flawless, so true love does not exist. Perhaps the only being that has true love is God. More on this later.

So then, the opposition (haha) YiLin and Elphin, said that True Love did not have to be flawless, as when both people in a relationship are able to believe in it, and imagine it, it will come true in the couple's heart eventually. In Elphin's words, "The definition of true love is only between the couple."

Well, it all rests on what your definition of True Love is right?

But I was honestly quite surprised with my answer at first. Yet it came out so naturally, and I think that this is what I honestly believe deep inside.

Not that I don't believe in Love. It's just that I think human love is limited to strong love, because of the weakness within the human heart. True Love comes ONLY from God, the one true perfect being, and the Trinity that forms God.

Catholic stuff. ^^

"For God so loved the world that he sent his only son to die for us."

Perhaps some might say, I can do that too! I'm willing to sacrifice my life for the one I love.

One CAN, however, look at it this way.

Perhaps the human mind can only understand so much, we are instead limiting the greater sacrifice behind that action, and the Love it took for that action to be carried out?

At the end of the day, it all lies on personal opinion doesn't it?

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

Cute Song!!

Still Alive

This was a triumph.
I’m making a note here: HUGE SUCCESS!
It’s hard to overstate my satisfaction

Aperture Science
We do what we must because we can

For the good of all of us
Except the ones who are dead.

But there’s no sense crying over every mistake,
You just keep on trying till you run out of cake
And the science gets done and you make a neat gun
For the people who are still alive!

I’m not even angry
I’m being so sincere right now
Even though you broke my heart and killed me.

And tore me to pieces
And threw every piece into afire
As they burned it hurt because
I was so happy for you

Now these points of data make a beautiful line
And we’re out of beta, we’re releasing on time

So I’m glad I got burned
Think of all the things we learned
For the people who are still alive!
Go ahead and leave me
I think I prefer to stay inside
Maybe you’ll find someone else to help you

Maybe Black Mesa.
That was a joke, HA HA
FAT CHANCE

Anyway, this cake is great
It’s so delicious and moist
Look at me, still talking when there’s science to do.
When I look up there, it makes me glad I’m not you

I’ve experiments to run
There is research to be done on the people who are still alive!

And believe me I am still alive

I’m doing science and I’m still alive

I feel fantastic and I’m still alive

While you’re dying, I’ll be still alive

And when you’re dead, I will be still alive

Still Alive~

OK. This song is just too cute! It's from this way cool game, Portal.

SUPER FUNNY.

Lolz.

Alright. That's it for now.

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

T.T!!!!!

Rarr. Another sleepless night, my second in a row...slept for all of 3 hours, then got up at four. Try as I might, I just couldn't get back to sleep. SOBS. So went and played audition. XP

Surprisingly, I'm not all that exhuasted right now. While there IS the slight nagging sensation at the back of my head, I'm actually quite wide awake. Maybe not as alert as I would normally be, and FAR from my normal processing speed, but still. It's surprising.

Still, wish I could have caught a few more hours of rest. Fiona and Sophia are coming over to my house to study today (though we probably will end up playing more), and it would have been good to have a brain ready to absorb info. The way things are going, I'm not gonna learn anything today. Nope. Nada. Zilch.

Haha...still...3 hours is better than nothing. Guess I should be thankful I even had those 3 hours. XP Better late than never, I say! Oh wait. Wrong quote. XP

Shucks...looks like my instinctive coping technique is leaping into action. Looks like I'm gonna be on high for the rest of the day. DANG. Oh well...I'm mostly always high anyway.

Haha. Fiona just told me that she and Sophia won't be able to make it. Oh no. I'm gonna be alone, with my poor aching head. T.T -sob sob- OVERDRAMATISATION!!!!!

O-k...Looks like my brain is kicking into overdrive. Should end this post here. Perhaps some coffee would sober me up? Or perhaps...it would just make me worse. XP

Oh wells.

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

ThrashTalk Crew

One thing led to another, and before I knew it, I was part of the thrashtalk crew. Got promoted to senior post by the president the very next day too! o.O Now...is that a good or bad thing?

I can't deny that I enjoy myself though. Many are the times I find myself lost in the sea of words, and yet I still find the experience nothing short of enjoyable. In that kind of environment, it's just much easier to relax and be yourself, and you don't have to be worried about someone taking your insults seriously. Well, not much anyway.

But seriously...how can you enjoy yourself so much when you are surrounded by all things horny and little things sweet? I have no idea, but it just works that way.

Oh and I have dubbed myself wondergirl, with GT as my pro sidekick. o.O (Don't ask me. He came up with the name himself. XP)

YES! This post is finally shaping out to be what its supposed to be! A random, corny, lame post! Lol.

My rank in the crew is now P-V. (Self-appointed.) It was supposed to be written PV but YL said it looked like pervert, so I added the dash for good measure.

I know I aint exactly making much sense right now. There are a couple of VERY good (really!) explanations for that. First and foremost, I slept at 2 am yesterday, and my stupid internal alarm system couldn't cope, and woke me up at 7.30 am. I did try to go back to sleep, but was left tossing and turning till I gave up at 8 plus. I did try to take a nap in the afternoon, but that didn't work either, cos the workers came over to fix up my new bookshelf. Gosh, all that hammering left my brain reverbarating within my skull. XD Stupid thing is still hurting now. =S

Speaking of Migraines, that is the second reason behind my incoherency. My brain exploded you see, and no brain equates to dumbness. Well, and death as well. So I'm a shinigami now. FEAR ME. MUAHAHAHA!

Now what WAS the third reason? I seem to have forgotten...Oh yea! My brain is on reverse gear today, and the shift is jammed, so I'm stuck this way for now. Oh wells.

On to more serious things. Science practical is tomorrow. AHHH! Oh well..freaking out won't help much. So anyway...I shall just try my best.

Deco rocks my socks, though the grammar and sentence structure leave much to be desired...

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

Whee!

Shifted house a few weeks ago, and thanks to that, I FINALLY got internet connection! YAY! Haha

Well, two people whom I haven't seen in church for a really long time came back today. HURRAH! Haha.

Anyway, this is an UBER random post, cos I just felt like it. Haha.

Hai...Exams coming... T.T

Oh yea! There's this jap song I really really like, cos the words are meaningful! Shall post the lyrics another day, but there are these three consecutive lines that have got to be my fav!

「未来を遠くにかざしてる・・・」
"Mirai o tooku ni kazashiteru"

煌めいた世界　遠い記憶は
Kirameita sekai to iki oku wa
見上げた空　夢を呼び起こす
Miageta sora yume o yobi okosu

Simply translated:
"I'm hoisting the future up, far in the distance..."

My far off memories are of a world that shined
I look up to the sky, and call my dreams to mind.

Thanks to gendou from which I got the lyrics. ^^

Anyway, gotta go study for Amath.

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

Insomnia???

Hai...so sleepy now...couldn't sleep all of last night. And the strangest thing was, I wasn't worried, upset, or excited about ANYTHING! This is the nth time its happened. Sian.

Still suffering from it now, I think. Still can't fall asleep.

My history paper is gonna suffer for this! I barely made it past physics!

3 papers in one day. It can't get more tortourous than that. Can it?

GOSH! Why the heck must history start at 2.30?

Groan. Me head hurts.

Haha oh wells. I CAN DO IT!

Planning to stay home for first month anyway. Can write!! ^^

Anyway, the youth ministry organised a car wash yesterday. SO FUN!!!

Argh...My head's killing me...better end here. LOL.

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

One more day to my death day...

I am so going to die tomorrow. Have been mugging, but still don't understand a thing of amath.

And now, someone comes and tells me that there's geog lesson after amath. Like, MADNESS. I am never going to survive tomorrow. If anyone posts here, it will be my earthbound spirirt. ^^

Oh well...

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

HEYIO!

Okie got to use the internet, so am updating again.

Got a B4 for my Chinese! When my teacher asked if I wanted to retake, I thought, "Are you mad?". Considering I normally get C6s, this was like a miracle mark for me! Haha so quite obviously, I chose to be happy with my current results. FREE PERIODS DURING CHINESE!!!

Yea. Getting hyper just thinking bout it. Free from Chinese! For now. Haha.

And I had my English O'Level orals on Monday. Think I pretty much nailed it? Haha. Keeping my fingers crossed there? Uh...I got a similar conversation topic for my prelims? Wahaha. And the second one. "Tourism. Is it good or bad?" Whahaha. Geoggers, you had better have aced that one! Haha. Geog terms came spilling out of my mouth before I knew it. ^^

But not all has been smooth sailing. Had my Social Studies Prelims on Monday, and I think I'm gonna fail.. >.< Lost 20 marks due to poor time management. Hai. Thank goodness its still prelims.

And this Friday...Additional Mathematics Prelims! That shall be my death day. T.T

Oh well...Enough ranting. Haha.

Apparently, this was on some newspaper or magazine? "Singapore is a democratic socialist state." How bout that?

Riiiiiight. I still don't buy that. ^^

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

BACK! For the moment...

HELLO! It's been a long time since I've blogged, and its gonna be a long time again after this post! Haha

Sitting in macs and rotting now. My internet connection at home has been down for forever...SO SAD!

As you can see, I'm hyper now. All Teddy Bear's fault!!! Make me laugh only...and stop tsking me! WAHAHA.

SEE??? Tsk me again! Stupid bear! And no, Sebestian, I'm not talking bout you.

Hahaha. Anyway, tomorrow taking O' Level Mother Tongue results. I hope I pass. Then don't need to retake.

Sobs.

Oh yea. Need for speed most wanted. A must play for fans of racing games. Haha. I enjoy wrecking those irritating police cars. And Civi cars too! No no I'm not sadistic. It's just the way the game is.

Damn sian.

Oh well...that's it for now.

See Mich? I updated! Haha

Ja' ne!

Ade