Monday, December 31, 2007

New year is coming!

Haha. Just had to do this. End the year on the 55th post. xD

And while everyone's partying and stuff, what am I doing?

Well, I shall usher in the new year with friends, books, and Planet Earth. Woo! What a great way to usher in the new year! And I'm not being sarcastic either.

Well, adieu, 2007.
I'm in love your hugs. (: But I more in love with you. "You're on my heart just
I will keep my memories locked deep within my heart.
like a tattoo, and like a tattoo, I'll always have you!"
Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Sunday, December 30, 2007

The year is ending soon, and, OH! What a year it has been!

My tagbox is dying. I swear if it had feelings it'd be feeling depressed by now. Except I can't swear. Oh well.

School starting soon for most, and I'm going to be slacking around in the meantime. Even if I were to go to my mom's international school to try out the system there and check whether it actually suits me better than Singapore's stringent one, school only reopens on the 7th of January. Ahh I feel like such a slacker. (:

Well, its nearly the end of the year, and its the time when everyone starts thinking, "How was this year for me? Have I managed to keep to all the resolutions I made at the beginning of the year?" Sadly, the answer to that question for most, would be no. For me? Well...didn't really make any new year resolutions at the beginning of the year. Sorta gave up on that tradition.

Well, perhaps next year would be a good year to start again...

But enough of what has yet to come. What about what has past?

I'm sure that most of us have changed, however subtly, throughout the course of this year. I have changed quite drastically in certain senses, as those who know me well MIGHT know. And I do feel that I have grown, and that is something worth being proud of, I would think.

What with O'Levels and all, this has been a hectic year. Even through all the academic focus teachers were piling over us, I still managed to keep to my role as a slacker. Not exactly something to be proud of, but that has remained a constant.

Friendships made, friendships broken, through it all, I've managed to hold through to my values, and for that I am thankful. What with my mum not letting up with her behavior, I would definitely feel guilty if I did not dedicate at least a line to all my friends.

Thanks for putting up with me, through all the times when I was feeling grumpy, and when I felt like I was being torn to pieces. Without all of you guys, I would never have made it through in one piece.

Another important thing this year which I must not forget. Confirmation. Indeed, I changed immensely within the short duration of the camp. Perhaps it would be more accurate to refer to it as growing, rather than changing. How much the grace of God showed itself in each and every participant.

Blogging about that reminds me of something. I did say I would do a reflection of the camp, but I never got round to it, with all the internet problems and laziness and all. Oh well. Such precious memories will be locked up in my heart for the whole of my lifetime (I hope), and I might talk about it when I feel like.

If I could pick a word to describe this year, I would pick the word, change. Indeed, this has been a year of change for me. But have I changed for the better? Only time will tell.

Nonetheless, this year has been immensely gratifying. While I remain a self-proclaimed slacker, I have accomplished stuff outside of academic concerns, for which I honestly don't give a damn. >.<

And as I end off this post which is far too lengthy as it is, I wish for the year of 2008 to be as impactful as 2007 was, and I hope that 2008 will contain more joy for every single one of my friends. Do not forget, that I am always here to lend a listening ear.

Fare thee well, 2007. I will probably bid thee farewell at our inevitable parting in slightly more than 24 hours.

Damn, haven't done that for too long.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

What if...

Through an incident, I have...well, I wouldn't say learnt, since there is no right to teach. But, I have formulated my own opinion, and my conviction has strengthened. And all in this one night.

This is going to be part religious, part philosophical, so those who are opposed to it, read no further.

I used to think of a lot of "what ifs". But today, a new thought crossed my mind. Why must there be what ifs? Since we Catholics believe that our God is all-knowing, and that everything that happens, does so for his reasons, even if they remain strange and distant to us?

And of course, this thought goes hand in hand with another. One that I never really believed in. I never believed that God has planned our future, and I insisted strongly that we were the ones ruining our lives by ourselves, that everything that happened, did so because of us, and solely cos of us.

And yet, why did it have to be that way?

Since God is all-knowing, isn't it possible for him to lay down his plans for the future, and yet take into consideration our free will?

And that is why people make mistakes. But he knows we are going to make that mistakes, and he will guide us back in his unseen ways. He did not plan for us to commit sins. He hopes we will not. But he knows that we are humans, and thus not infalliable, and as such, he plans for us to realize our mistakes either through other people, or through shocks in our lives.

I know that many readers will want to dispute this and disagree with it. Feel free to. I never did say this is the one and only answer. This is simply my opinion, and you can dispute it as you will. I will stand firm.

And I do believe that God is watching over each and everyone of us. Without him, tonight would have ended quite differently.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Friday, December 28, 2007

Something insightful.

Well, another interesting email.

A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track.

The train is coming, and you are just beside the track interchange. You can make the train change its course to the disused track and save most of the kids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way?

Well, make your choices.... xD

Hmm...SUSPENSE...

Think...

Sure of your choice? Good.

Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child. You might think the same way, I guess. Exactly, to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally. But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place?

Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was. This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday. In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are. The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined. And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.

The great critic Leo Velski Julian who told the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use, and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens. If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track! Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe. If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.

While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.

'Remember that what's right isn't always popular... and what's popular isn't always right.'

Everybody makes mistakes; that's why they put erasers on pencils.

Interesting thought, isn't it? Sure sheds a whole new light on things. xD

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Life is cruel at times. But it is also that cruelty which enhances its beauty.

Haha. Title inspired by Planet Earth. Great documentary. I would highly recommend it to nature lovers. And to those who aren't normally interested, watch it and be awestruck and the greatness of the wilderness. More on this later anyway.

Christmas was pretty...uneventful. Haha except I went to see the sunrise with Daddy, Avril, Yi Lin, Daryl and Jason. xD In the end, there were too many dark clouds to see the sun rise. -.-"

Yea...uneventful Christmas. The play went well, and it ended on quite a good note. xD Was surprisingly wide awake throughout mass despite my severe and obvious lack of sleep. Christmas mass always has that magical effect on me. ^^

Uh huh...yea...

Haha. So anyway. On to Planet Earth. My sis got me the dvd set for Christmas. How awesome is that? xD

Enjoyed myself thoroughly watching the spectacular fliming, and the perks of dvds added to the experience. I was wowed by the amount of effort put into this series, and knowing the amount of effort invested in the series puts it in a whole new light.

The power of nature is beautiful. Tear-jerking. Inspiring.

And we are destroying that beauty for our own convenience. Damn.

Stupid Daryl. Stupid Dracula. Never say. Grr.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Monday, December 24, 2007

Christmas Eve!

Yay! 1 more day to christmas.

Today, or technically, yesterday, was a tiring day. Alot of things happened that made me feel that there was a lack of christmas spirit. And it also brought to mind this song I used to be the soloist for.

Christmas, isn't christmas, till it happens in your heart.

Nice song. And its true...the christmas spirit can only be found in your own heart. And in my opinion, you can't really sense the christmas spirit in others if you don't have it in your own heart.

So I guess...While I have been complaining about how christmas is so commercialised and stuff, I failed to realise that I myself have lost the christmas spirit. And that is one of the worst things.

And now, as I ask myself if I'm prepared to celebrate Christ's coming, I am unable to give a solid answer.

But, I am starting to feel it. Through my friends. Thank you all. Everyone of you. I guess I got too caught up by petty conflicts.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Why God allows pain.

My friend forwarded this to me by email, and I opened it thinking it was one of those chain mails that were only good for a laugh. Boy, was I wrong.

Still, its not a habit of mine to spam contacts' emails, so I'm posting the story on my blog instead. It's really quite a nice way of putting it.

A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.

As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.

They talked about so many things and various subjects.

When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said:

"I don't believe that God exists."

"Why do you say that?" asked the customer. "Well, you just
have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist.

Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?

Would there be abandoned children?

If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain.

I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."

The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't
want to start an argument.

The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.

Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long,
stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard.

He looked dirty and unkempt. The customer turned back and entered the barber
shop again and he said to the barber:

"You know what? Barbers do not exist."

"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber.

"I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"

"No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because

if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed
beards, like that man outside."

"Ah, but barbers DO exist! That's what happens when people do not
come to me."

"Exactly!" affirmed the customer. "That's the point! God,
too, DOES exist!

That's what happens when people do not go to Him and don't look to Him
for help.

That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."

Nice? (:

Ja' ne!

-Ade-

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Strange woman...

Oh yea. After our practice for our skit, we were standing around the church canteen, when something really weird happened. But I wasn't really paying attention.

Well...apparently, this woman dragged this chair and hit Jolene's leg. There was an exchange of words which I didn't quite catch, because that woman was mumbling to herself. I did catch "asshole" though.

In church!

But anyway...apparently, she pointed a finger. And while I do not want to assume that it was the third finger, what else could it have been in such a situation?

And she was also making a big fuss about us taking a whole row of seats? When there were more than enough empty seats? O.O Wow she's fat. xD

Under normal circumstances, I would have been extremely sarcastic. Today was not exactly a normal day. >.<

Maybe it was because I didn't know what exactly had happened, and didn't want to jump to conclusions. Maybe, I was just sleepy. Or perhaps, I don't care anymore. Nonetheless, I was standing there, watching the drama before me in amusement.

Trisha did say some funny things. xD

And teddy bear and Derniese were laughing/smiling too.

My first time seeing Jaslene pissed. xD

That woman had an...err...attitude problem kinda face. xD

"I've always wanted to be an eagle. Perhaps all I ever was, was a sparrow."

Well, if the above is true...then perhaps I should change my blog title to, Hop little sparrow, hop away from the broken pieces. >.<

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

I'm trying...but it's trying...

Credits for the title goes to Jonathan...it was his MSN nick for awhile and it struck me. Hope you don't mind me stealing it. xP

Tiring day. In part because I slept at 4 am and woke up at 7 plus. In part cos I went shopping. No matter what kind, it just tires me out. And in part cos, well...alot of time was spent walking around.

But while we didn't buy the gifts...we've pretty much settled on what to get everyone. Now I'm just left with my personal list of recipients.

Jigsaws are FUN! xD I saw so many cute doggy ones today...Shall buy them after christmas and fix them up. xD

Yea...

I'm sorry for that...uh...outburst just now. I wish you hadn't seen me in that...uh...pathetic state.

Am I just setting myself up for a fall? Regardless...I will have faith. But yea. It's trying.

Ja' ne!

-Ade- [zonked out.]

Monday, December 17, 2007

I wish for the same thing...

Listening to Jean to Leo now...nice song...sad melody and all...but still nice! xD

Anyway, today was sheck oink's birthday, so moomoo and I went to her house in the morning. We figured that she wouldn't be surprised by the cake, so we came up with a plan. xD

Moomoo ran up and told sheck oink that I'd sprained my ankle, and to go down and help me. Apparently, when sheck oink asked how I'd sprained my leg, moomoo came up with the most hilarious reply. "She got too excited when buying cake, so sprained her ankle."

LOL. Anyways, sheck oink fell for it and we managed to give her a surprise.

Sorry if we made you worried!!

My stuffed toy dog...has a big ass... >.< But its comfy to squeeze and all. ^^

Ahh...think its dinner time...

I'm sorry that I freaked out over nothing... >.<

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Lyrics: Anata ga Koko ni Iru Riyuu

Anime: D.Gray Man
Artist: Rie Fu
Song Title: Anata ga Koko ni Iru Riyuu

Well, the song title basically translates to "The reason why you are here". As always, any mistakes made in spelling of terms and names are purely unintentional.

Well, maybe its just cos this song is pretty much sung in a range that is comfortable to me, but it caught on pretty quickly. For me, this was a song I enjoyed singing. Then again, I enjoy singing several songs. The tune also caught my ear pretty quickly.

From the opening, you can tell that its going to be a meaningful song. And it doesn't disappoint. Even with my limited understanding of the Japanese language at this point of time, this song does bring tears to my eyes when I am in an emo mood. Well, it did that one time anyway.

Lyrics are pretty meaningful as well, and nice to sing. xD Unlike Daybreak's Bell, I don't think this song is from any one person to another. The lyrics are such that it really applies to most of the main D.gray Man characters. Yea, even the Noah clan.

My favourite lines for this song...Hmm...Hard to pick...

[私が今ここにいる理由を
これからも探してる]
{
watashi ga ima koko ni iru riyuu o
kore kara mo sagashiteru}

Translating to,

The reason that I’m here,
I’ll continue searching for it

Thanks to gendou.com for providing the lyrics once again. ^^

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Pure white, snow with all its delights. Stark black, the night sky and the stars which light our paths.

Another rainy day. Hahaha the sky cried again.

A fun day nonetheless! Yi Lin (moo moo), Daryl (vampire), Serjia (puppy) and teddy bear came over to my house today!

Hahaha moo moo, vampire, puppy and I all settled the details last night, but then kinda dragged teddy bear over at the last minute. xD

Anyway, we started off just playing bridge. Which then turned into a round of dai ti where puppy got 3 tis and 3 aces if I remember correctly. Of course he won. >.<

Halo-ed after that! xD Damn Halo 2 on legendary difficulty is just imba. BUT WE SURVIVED HUNTERS ON LEGENDARY! xD Although before we even got to the hunter part, we died many many many times. Single player legendary is HARD. xD And we did cheat with the hunters. We had a turret. THOSE DARN SNIPERS. xD

The way Serjia played was damn funny. The stupid "GOD" marine was not killing anything, so he tried to push him closer to the enemies. And the marine kept running back to his spot. So puppy pushed him off the roof, since he was on the edge. And then we sat back and watched as our little "GOD-MODE" marine sniped everyone's ass. xD

And then we went to the "park" behind my house and had a swing. WHEE!! xD I'm flying so high! And teddy can swing two swings! xD PRO.

"I'm willing to try and accept both black and white. But are you willing to share both colors with me?"

Ja' ne!

-Ade- [HYPER]

Friday, December 7, 2007

The Golden Compass

Haha. Watched The Golden Compass today. Excellent show! Haha ICE BEARS OWN! One is imba enough...imagine a whole army! xD

I like the protagonist's attitude. Haha. Stubborn, defiant and such. And a tomboy to boot. WHOO.

Anyway, after the movie, we stoned a little, then went to the kopitiam and shared $5 worth of Char Kway Teow. It was so good, that we got 3 more bowls. =x

PIG OUT! Hahaha!

Short post, but anyway...OFF TO WATCH GUNDAM 00!!

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

East Coast

Haha. Damn tired right now. Rain and cold really saps your energy.

Went to East Coast with Avril, Yi Lin, Daryl, Elphin, Jason, Jin He and Serjia today. It was raining the whole time. Damn. Haha not that it wasn't fun.

Met Yi Lin at 7.15, and went on to Yio Chu Kang to meet Daryl and Serjia. Serjia was late! xD We overshot our bus stop and had to take it back. =x

Anyway, when we got there, it was raining so we decided against starting to cycle without the rest. And then, went to macs a little wet and ate food. Jason called saying that they were reaching already, and started laughing at us cos we left our houses so much earlier. In the end, it took them another half an hour at least to get there. xD

Finally got ourselves to get up and move, so we all started cycling. Cycling in the rain is fun! Rain on your face, wind whipping at it. Nice and cooling.

Serjia and I rode really really far, towards the Bedok Jetty side, looking for Jin He and Daryl. Turns out they went in the opposite direction. Oh well, at least we got to ride. xD

I was playing in the sea with Yi Lin and Daryl, and we started a small scale water fight. While trying to dodge one of Daryl's attacks, I fell down into the water. =s Not that I wasn't wet already, but still...I was salty! xD Quite fun though.

Played Bridge after that. At first, I was damn lucky, and whoever was my partner would win. For 5 whole sets. WOOTZ~ xD

Ahh...alot more stuff, but feeling lazy. And I just realised this post isn't really like my usual style. Oh well.

Butt hurts from sitting on the bike seat. I should use a cushion next time.

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Sunday, December 2, 2007

Mozilla Firefox

Well, switched to Mozilla Firefox for my internet browser for some reason. My first reaction when I saw my blog was, "WHOA. The widgets are whole! I'm sticking to it."

But when I saw my blog heading, T.T.

Oh wells. Shall stick to it for now.

"If I really gave you faith, then I am glad that my efforts have reached someone."

Ja'ne!

-Ade-

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Random Things...

I'm the last person I would have expected to feel this way.

Anyway, now my mum tells me that I still have to entertain the guests for tonights housewarming, even though none of them are my friends. Grr...I wanted to go to my room and be anti-social, but looks like thats not gonna work.

My dad's side is coming, and I haven't seen most of them in a really long time. Not exactly close with the kids there either. They're either too young, or too umm...I shall not say anything. Now I'm wondering if my nephew who is a year younger than me is coming. Then at least got someone to talk anime with. >.<

And then...mum's collegues. Seriously. Apart from having had dinner with some of them, and talking to them when I was just a primary school kid going to my mum's office during the holidays, I don't really know them. Haha.

Man, and I'm supposed to entertain them? I'm not good at these kind of things. Hai...

Oh wells. I'm considering putting up another song review, but haven't found a suitable song yet.

Ja' ne!

-Ade-